Hey guys,
So here is my 5 month update I guess. It was going GREAT!! until my period and i cant say its TERRIBLE but while im on my period i can definitely just feel the anxiety and i can hear the thoughts so much more. they disappeared but then its like on my period everything comes back. ALL HORMONAL! Because i went to my naturpath and got my results back and i am Estrogen Dominant! Low Prgesterone! So i am taking natural progest-mend pills! To bring my progesterone back up! I am also running on the treadmill to keep the anxiety down.. and I just trust know that all these thoughts are FALSE and NOT true because they only come around when my hormones are all over the place... aka my period. My period is starting to feel more like normal (how it was before birth control) its clotty and deep red! so i know thats a good sign. My last therapy session was on January 16th! and i owe so much to my therapist for helping me through the random anxiety attacks i would get! I truly believe time will get us through it ALL. But in the mean time self-love and self-care and meditation is everything i am doing
So here is my 5 month update I guess. It was going GREAT!! until my period and i cant say its TERRIBLE but while im on my period i can definitely just feel the anxiety and i can hear the thoughts so much more. they disappeared but then its like on my period everything comes back. ALL HORMONAL! Because i went to my naturpath and got my results back and i am Estrogen Dominant! Low Prgesterone! So i am taking natural progest-mend pills! To bring my progesterone back up! I am also running on the treadmill to keep the anxiety down.. and I just trust know that all these thoughts are FALSE and NOT true because they only come around when my hormones are all over the place... aka my period. My period is starting to feel more like normal (how it was before birth control) its clotty and deep red! so i know thats a good sign. My last therapy session was on January 16th! and i owe so much to my therapist for helping me through the random anxiety attacks i would get! I truly believe time will get us through it ALL. But in the mean time self-love and self-care and meditation is everything i am doing
Also, does anybody feel like when they have a setback, they just dont know who they are anymore? or when they are in an anxiety rut or intrusive thoughts are taking over, does anyone feel like who am i? can i be who i was again? who even was that person? what are characteristics about myself that i like? hmmmmm I hope this ends soon!
YESSSSS! I feel like you are in my thoughts lol this is a total nightmare. I hate to find comfort in your sorrows but it is nice to know that I am not alone, I can't mention that enough!!!! I was the one who had posted above about the late cycle and I actually just got my period FINALLY! My anxiety is at bay right now, I am hoping it does not go haywire! I also started CBT, I have only gone once though because I have to pay out of pocket but everyone does mention how beneficial it has been to them!
Stay strong!
Stay strong!
Hi Nikki. Yes! That’s exactly how I feel actually. Like - how can I go back to being myself? Who am I when I feel like myself? I know I’m not like this but I can’t remember. I remember someone 10 pages back or so mentioned the “identity crisis” of hormones as apart of this mess and it made me feel much less alone. Maybe I can find it again. I hope you have as good of a day as you can :) Remember we’re all in the same boat here, our bodies just didn’t bounce back as fast as others when they got off the pill without a problem.
Hi all,
I wanted to share an update from last week about my current state. I had a rough week, couldn't concentrate on my job but after my period finished I felt ok, not 100% myself but better. The most important thing I noticed is that all of the symptoms I feel are caused by anxiety. Ear pressure, head pressure, racing heart, heart palpitations, vision problems, chest pain ... all were anxiety. This morning I felt nervous and felt terrible, almost had to lay down and experience another panic attack but I decided to get up and wash the dishes, make my self something to eat and listen to the music. It took some time, but I felt better. I was so relieved to finally convince my mind that I am healthy, that nothing is wrong with me and that all of the things I was experiencing were just anxiety. I know it is hard and the anxiety caused by pill withdrawal is a real struggle but only you can help yourself.
I also feel like this person is not me, especially since I never had anxiety and never felt depressed and unmotivated but I won't let myself become this person so I am doing my best to overcome those feelings. The main reason I was depressed is that I am not myself and I cannot do anything to feel normal again, that made me so desperate. But today I made this huge step by fighting this and was so proud that somewhere deep inside my old self was fighting trough this :)
Be brave, have faith, and don't let your mind go to this dark place.
I am working out 5 times a week and I won't let it change me.
I am currently almost 2 months pill free.
I wanted to share an update from last week about my current state. I had a rough week, couldn't concentrate on my job but after my period finished I felt ok, not 100% myself but better. The most important thing I noticed is that all of the symptoms I feel are caused by anxiety. Ear pressure, head pressure, racing heart, heart palpitations, vision problems, chest pain ... all were anxiety. This morning I felt nervous and felt terrible, almost had to lay down and experience another panic attack but I decided to get up and wash the dishes, make my self something to eat and listen to the music. It took some time, but I felt better. I was so relieved to finally convince my mind that I am healthy, that nothing is wrong with me and that all of the things I was experiencing were just anxiety. I know it is hard and the anxiety caused by pill withdrawal is a real struggle but only you can help yourself.
I also feel like this person is not me, especially since I never had anxiety and never felt depressed and unmotivated but I won't let myself become this person so I am doing my best to overcome those feelings. The main reason I was depressed is that I am not myself and I cannot do anything to feel normal again, that made me so desperate. But today I made this huge step by fighting this and was so proud that somewhere deep inside my old self was fighting trough this :)
Be brave, have faith, and don't let your mind go to this dark place.
I am working out 5 times a week and I won't let it change me.
I am currently almost 2 months pill free.
Haha no worries, it's better that we are experiencing similar things because then WE KNOW it's caused by something (aka birth control/hormones). I paid out of pocket for every one of my therapy sessions so.. 140$ x 7 LOL I HAD TO! Talking to her after each one of my setbacks always picked me back up
Hey! No I forsure know that this will slowly fade away over time and you just naturally become who you are again without any questioning! I remember one thing I learned as a kid with anxiety was "time heals all" you just get over it will time and it slowly dissolves into a distant memory! But never forget the tips and tricks you learned throughout the experience. So I know we will find ourselves soon, hopefully coming out of this better
It's definitely fading but just very slowly lol like I feel like I've lived 10 years these last 6 months kind of slow! May I ask if your therapist knows and understands that this all escalated after you got off the pill? Does she approach CBT in a particular way because of it? How did you approach telling her it's birth control withdraw/hormone imbalance? I feel like mine expects me to have some kind of emotional event to talk about like a breakup or something, but it's not that something particularly happened to trigger this. I also feel that doctors may brush me off because they assume something in my life is why I'm depressed/not feeling myself.
The birth control TRIGGERED the anxiety, like i dont have anxiety over birth control.. I have anxiety over all different kinds of things, so we try to dissect that and conquer that. For the birth control i take Progesterone pills! You know what i mean like the anxiety is its separate entity now, so i have to figure that out and beat that stuff. My naturopath doctor deals with the hormones. And most therapist might find a trigger in your childhood or adolescent that brings up your anxiety, like mine is self-esteem
Does any of you have bags under eyes? I also found some lumps on the back of my neck. Anyone experiencing that? I don't know if that is caused by not sleeping well and stiff neck.
Does anyone find themselves sufferin from paranoia an overthinkin things leadin to you questionin your relationship? I find myself thinkin horrible thoughts like my husband etc is lying an i get paranoid even though i kno he is a good person. It really annoys me cos i feel it tarnishes my opinion of my relationship :-(
I’ve been having a lot of trouble with my relationship. It’s been about 10 months and I still doubt my relationship. I actually have complete trust in him but I still just doubt my relationship.
In what way do you doubt it?
I kno i can trust my husband an i kno he loves me unconditionally but i still get these irrational thoughts at times an i dunnno why :-(
I kno i can trust my husband an i kno he loves me unconditionally but i still get these irrational thoughts at times an i dunnno why :-(
I just always doubt my love for him. I feel I’ve fallen out of love. I also doubt his attractive, personality and our compatibility
Hi, I've been off the pill 6.5 months now. I've noticed that my anxiety/depression have significantly improved in the last 2 months. But when I drink coffee or caffeine, I can feel the anxiety, panic, and heart racing again. I recommend that everyone completely cut out caffeine...it might help!