I’m only 10 months off so I have a long way but glad you’re feeling better! yeah kinda discouraged because they said nothing was wrong but I know I have some type of imbalance because of the ROCD. I’ve come a long way but the doubting of my relationship is terrible. I hoping to see better days soon
I have really good days too but usually I forget the good days when I’m having a setback which happens way to often! I would say it’s 50/50. And I don’t see a correlation with my period when I do have set backs. Also, my set backs will usually last about 3 days and then I’ll feel good for a few days and then I’ll have another one. It’s an on going battle.
Do you guys sometimes think about having a moment (weekend getaway, intimate moments, etc) with your boyfriend and then THE ANXIETY spikes up because you imagine yourself not wanting to have this moment or not feeling in love ? :( I used to daydream about these moments... Im so worried, starting to think I might be slowly falling out of love. Im 7 months off, and before I would cry a alot and panick a lot. Now I'm much calmer and can accept these thoughts but still panick inside because IM NOT PANICKING AS MUCH AS BEFORE. As if I was okay with these thoughts... Its awful. I think Im getting used to this. I need this to stop soon.
Yes yes and yes completely terrible! Everything just feels different now. It almost feels like I’ve gotten so used to this feel and I’ll never go back to the way I was because honestly I kinda forgot how it was to feel that love and be happy all the time. Now I just question everything and feel nothing.
Also, I went away on vacation for about a month with my girlfriends and I felt like I didn’t miss him as much as I usually used to.
Hi this is Mare and I have been posting here for a long time but have not done so in a while. I started this madness 23 months ago almost 2 years. It started with a change to a lower dose of orthotricyclen because they found I had a benign liver tumor which is affected by synthetic hormones. I didn’t put 2 and 2 together when I started crying for no reason or why i started panicking but it was my change in hormones I stopped talking them at once at the end of March 2016 and for a few days I felt good then all hell broke loose. You girls know exactly what I mean. The sadness, depression, panick clouded head light sensitivity anxiety, stomach pain, insomnia, ocd galore. I could list more but Im sure you’ve all been there. it has been rough and I am still struggling. I am nowhere near how I was at the beginning and You kind of learn to identify the patterns and it does get easier to tell yourself stop this is not you. The worst to me is the anxiety and mood swings. The set backs especially because you remember how bad it has been before and the fear of going backwards terrified me. I hace developed health anxiety mostly as many of you. Please be careful on the supplements you take. I have twice taken supplements that are mostly natural herbs for pms and after the second month had to stop taking it because I was alergic then the withdrawals after you stop are not nice just like going back. I started doing acupuncture yesterday and Im praying it will balance me out. Sometimes I feel like this will never go away but we have to be hopeful. Sometimes I think I’m weak but in reality we are very strong to have to endure through this. Im in the Miami FL, area.
Wishing you ladies the best. Lets keep strong.
Wishing you ladies the best. Lets keep strong.
Hi! I am sorry you feeling this way. I completely understand it though. Have you looked into CBD? it is an oil, it similar to THC but you do not get the same effect has getting high AT ALL. I know a lot of people who take it and I am looking into as well because I am active military and suffer from anxiety due to trauma. Your body is adjusting and this could just be one of the long term effects and now its time for you to tell yourself you are okay. like I said look into CBD oil and maybe give it a shot.
You will be okay, some days are harder than others but at the end you are alive, you are here and you are worth it.
Stay Strong
You will be okay, some days are harder than others but at the end you are alive, you are here and you are worth it.
Stay Strong
So you’ve been off for almost 2 years? Wow! I can’t imagine what I’m going to feel like after two years. I’m almost one year off in May and I’m much better but I do have ROCD! it’s been my main issue along with the other things u mentioned! I got blood work done and everything came but normal and I can’t belive it! Something must not be coming up. It’s not a coincidence we all feel similar ways for so long.
hey guys, just starting my 6 months (i got my last post wrong, geez i guess i cant count fml) anyways, i swear to you all its like as soon as my period is coming (tomorrow) a floodgate of thoughts just come through. its crazy i can see the distinction, but they still feel believable. which is the thing, anxiety is all mental it wants to trick you, so you gotta try and welcome it and then brush it off as best as u can.. most of the fears , will not happen. and if they do happen it wont be as bad as you thought and things will naturally run there course! i am not with my boyfriend anymore, NOT because of birth control/anxiety, but because of another reason so NOTHING RELATED TO ANXIETY! now the funny thing is.. i still get anxiety:) so thats great (im being sarcastic) its not your relationships ladies! its LITERALLY hormones. its annoying because i cant pay for therapy anymore and its always before my period i get the most anxious. thanks for listening to me guys! ugh i want this all to be over.. i literally cannot even distinguish between a certain yes or a certain no anything.. its like i do not know who i want to be or who i am!!! so frustrating. good thing though, i have gone back to work and am able to do normal things again.. i guess its when im alone and at home alone i just think away, and school stresses me out which induces bad thoughts :) wooo thank you God for teaching whatever lesson i will learn from this.. but im annoyed of you right now.
Hi nikki! How are you? This is martha. Havent talked to you for a while. Im almost off 4 months this coming Thursday.
Were the same way now..im spotting so i must be getting my period soon. That explains the high anxiety for almost 2 weeks most esp today.. I know how you feel.. sometimes it gets the best of me too. I cried just the other day because i just feel so tired of feeling ok then boom bad days again. But i just keep on doing what i do to make myself feel a lil better everyday..I pray and meditate a lot.
Were the same way now..im spotting so i must be getting my period soon. That explains the high anxiety for almost 2 weeks most esp today.. I know how you feel.. sometimes it gets the best of me too. I cried just the other day because i just feel so tired of feeling ok then boom bad days again. But i just keep on doing what i do to make myself feel a lil better everyday..I pray and meditate a lot.
Hi everyone!
I am almost 2 and a half months off and am starting to feel normal again (even now when I am on my period). A week before my period the head pressure was back and now I have some increased eye floaters but all of the mental symptoms seem to be gone so it is much easier now considering that almost 2 months were a complete hell for me.
I didn't suffer from ROCD but HOCD was pretty bad. I think I am over that now too.
I just wanted to share how I got over this and how I made it much easier to cope with.
I exercise at least 3 times a week
I quit coffee
I avoid sugar as much as I can
I drink a lot of tea with honey , also plenty of water
I was drinking maca root for almost a month now (seems to help a lot)
I took Magnesium, B-complex and Omega also for a month
I had night panic attacks so i took theanine before going to bed and that helped me to sleep
I started taking Artichoke tincture (which was a recommendation from my gynecologist) - I am drinking it only for 2 days now so I cannot say if that helps, I will update on my next period
I hope I can help someone with this, I had a really difficult time during first month and a half but 2 weeks after taking maca I started to feel less anxious, I didn't panic and stopped thinking I had some serious health issues. I had a setback before my period (which was nothing compered to my first period and pms off the pill), I thought it would last trough my period but I started to feel normal and better and now almost everyday is good. I have some small anxiety attacks but they don't last more than 1 hour now. It seems that every period really makes it easier. I will stop taking maca after my period is over, all the vitamins and minerals as well, I will take artichoke until I get my next period and theanine if my sleep doesn't improve. I will update on my progress when I get my next period.
Wish you all a quick recovery!
I am almost 2 and a half months off and am starting to feel normal again (even now when I am on my period). A week before my period the head pressure was back and now I have some increased eye floaters but all of the mental symptoms seem to be gone so it is much easier now considering that almost 2 months were a complete hell for me.
I didn't suffer from ROCD but HOCD was pretty bad. I think I am over that now too.
I just wanted to share how I got over this and how I made it much easier to cope with.
I exercise at least 3 times a week
I quit coffee
I avoid sugar as much as I can
I drink a lot of tea with honey , also plenty of water
I was drinking maca root for almost a month now (seems to help a lot)
I took Magnesium, B-complex and Omega also for a month
I had night panic attacks so i took theanine before going to bed and that helped me to sleep
I started taking Artichoke tincture (which was a recommendation from my gynecologist) - I am drinking it only for 2 days now so I cannot say if that helps, I will update on my next period
I hope I can help someone with this, I had a really difficult time during first month and a half but 2 weeks after taking maca I started to feel less anxious, I didn't panic and stopped thinking I had some serious health issues. I had a setback before my period (which was nothing compered to my first period and pms off the pill), I thought it would last trough my period but I started to feel normal and better and now almost everyday is good. I have some small anxiety attacks but they don't last more than 1 hour now. It seems that every period really makes it easier. I will stop taking maca after my period is over, all the vitamins and minerals as well, I will take artichoke until I get my next period and theanine if my sleep doesn't improve. I will update on my progress when I get my next period.
Wish you all a quick recovery!
hey martha! i hope you're doing so much better then when i first talked to you. i know i am definitely doing better, but like you said it sometimes gets the best of us :( i meditate too! and started to workout again.. running helps SO MUCH! i think i just have to push through the bad time and just let my period pass.. thats all i can do
Hi Nikki! Yes I am definitely much better now compared to 2 months ago when we first talked. I've been really following my diet and sleep cycle well. Drinking L theanine helps me a lot as well as my Vitamins and Supplements. The only thing I havent done is exercise :( I know I should do it because I know it will help me but i dont know why Im scared to do move so much. I think I got traumatized because weeks ago I had a panic attack when i got so tired.
Yeah we really cannot do anything more than let it pass and wait til we are completely healed from this trouble bcp caused us. If only we can turn back time... i wouldt even touch that pill!
Yeah we really cannot do anything more than let it pass and wait til we are completely healed from this trouble bcp caused us. If only we can turn back time... i wouldt even touch that pill!
Hi Martha! I think you should definitely go on some walks outside or on a treadmill! I started small like that and now I got a gym membership and am lifting weights. I can see and feel the relief after working out, but the first few months I didn't want to do anything! I also feel like I am still able to live but now I just have an anxiety disorder .. so I'm trying really hard to figure what is causing it but I guess I will keep going round in circles :(
I always come her for reassurance. I’ve had a really bad week. I’ve just had terrible ROCD. I’ve been overthinking everything and actually layed in bed and cried looking at a picture of my boyfriend and apologizing for everything I have put him through. Like I love him because I feel like I need more and idek what I would want. I always feel like someone is better than him and it’s so unfair. Idk what to do girls I need some reassurance :(