I had ok days but mostly my month 4 is hard physical anxiety wise. So happy i passed the 4th month curse lol. Did u have that too? Ive read that the 4th month is the hardest setbacks wise..
I tried Reiki Healing and i feel like it helped me a lot :)
Martha
Yes, month 4 was rough with physical anxiety. I had derealization and felt lightheaded at work and like I was going to pass out. One day I think I almost did pass out and my mom had to come get me from work because I couldn’t drive, it was so embarrassing! Haha. Glad that’s over, just trying to stop carrying the trauma of all of that with me. Trying to tell myself it’s in the past.
I’ve heard of reiki. I’ve been wondering if massages help too. I don’t know if that’s because I like massages or if I actually think it could work!
Yes omg the passing out feeling. Ugh i hate that. I live in Manila so massages are fairly affordable so i try to get it every week. I think it helps me relax a little.
Martha
Hey girlies. I just wanted to update you all. I stopped taking the pill at the beginning of November and first posted on here 2 months ago. The last 4 months have been insane - if I had known before taking the pill that it would turn my life upside down when I stopped taking it I would never have touched it. From Nov to Jan was hell on earth, I'd never suffered from depression/anxiety before but my god did it hit me hard. I wasn't myself and was so so worried about what happening to me - if it hadn't been for my husband reassuring me it was the pill doing this then I don't know what I would have done! I would sit on the sofa next to me new husband (got married in sept) and question whether I loved him, whether i was in the right job - just constant negative thoughts that weren't me!!! I was so down and as i had just started a new job I couldnt take any time off. I was having huge panic attacks daily and would sit in the toilets and cry. BUT... it does get better!! End of Jan I went to the doctor because I just couldnt cope anymore - she recommended St Johns Wort, the tablet. I started taking 1 a day and I've never looked back. That was almost 2 months ago now and I can honestly say I am 90% back to my normal self, I'm happy, super duper in love with my perfect husband and am excited for the future again. There are still occasional days where I can feel the bad cloud creeping back but I dont let it! So to all you ladies who are struggling with demons and wondering if it will ever get better, I wanted to let you know that IT WILL!! 100%! I didnt believe it would, and even thought at one point that it wasnt even the pill and I was just depressed. But honestly once your body gets the pill out of its system you will get back to normal, there is a huge light at the end of the tunnel :) so heads up, plow through and keep smiling! The key is positivity - dont let the pill b***h beat you!!
Im gonna ask my naturopath abt St. Johns Wort.
Thanks a lot