As the time goes on i feel more and more discouraged that I️ won’t get better. I love this and i know i do so it really makes it hard when i doubt everything about him.
Love this man *
Yeah i understand where you’re coming from! Just now that everyone’s journey varies! So don’t think that just cause it’s taking you longer you’re not going to get any better. Focus on the progress that you’ve made thus far :) easier said than done trust me I know but don’t ever give up! There’s a reason we are fighting all of these feelings so hard!!!
Thank you for talking to me and for all your help! I may go get my hormones tested because I’ve been noticing some numbness in one of my legs for a a couple months now which is weird! I wonder if it’s related to coming off the pill or i just relate all my problems to coming off the pill! Lol. Anyway, i think I’ve felt so bad because it’s my time of the month and that’s really when i doubt everything the most.
Another thing is, I’ve felt all of these feelings a week after going on birth control! I remember it was at the week mark and my feelings suddenly changed for my husband and have yet to come back the way they used to be.
I remember reading a few woman from earlier on that experienced numbness as well! Definitely consult your physician to rule out anything else! I’m happy to help, talking to others going through it helps me immensely so thank you as well :)
Yes i agree! I am really not sure if i have stuck with my relationship if it wasn’t for all of this.
I feel like I’ve been writing so much in this forum but I’m sorry I’ve had a rough couple of days! The biggest thing that’s getting me right now is that i just have this strong doubt! Idk what I’m even doubting about my future/relationship . I just feel like i can’t feel so distant from him. My biggest thing in this relationship was happiness and if I’m not happy i feel like it’s not worth it but then i can’t come up with reasons as to why I’m not happy it’s just a miserable feeling UGH
that’s how I feel as well like I have no reason at all to feel unhappy. Like in the morning I find myself just instantly trying to figure out how I’m going to feel that day, it’s so annoying
Yes it’s definitely annoying to wake up and just think about how you are going to feel that day and knowing that the thoughts will probably just be on your mind throughout the day.i speak to my husband about it but not too much because i don’t want him to feel bad about himself because he really doesn’t do anything wrong. Like i said, when I’m with him everything is “fine” but the thoughts are still there, he is just with me so they are kinda muted. But when i have alone time which is most of the day the thoughts come back full force and that’s just how my day goes and has been almost everyday for 6 months. One thing that’s get me through this is saying that if i really was unhappy with the relationship i would have left it in the beginning stages of this but something is making me hold on, as well as for you.
EVERYTHING YOU JUST SAID DESCRIBES ME TO A T! Sometimes I wish I could erase all of these thoughts and just be able to wake up with a “quite” mind. I feel like I’m jusy never going to let myself get past this :(
Also I feel like a phony, for example at work when I have interactions or out with friends or family or even good moments with my boyfriend I feel like I’m pretending to enjoy myself and I am not. I can be in the moment. Don’t get my wrong I may have a negative thought here and there but I can sort of let go for a bit and just be genuinely myself. But once I get into my freaking thoughts I can’t even describe the person I am it’s like Jekyll and Hyde, my mind tried to tear me down and I try so hard to not let it get to me
I get like that too.i almost feel like I’m pretending to be happy. When I’m having bad days i can’t even remember the good days before it. It’s so weird honestly! I’m super scared that since I’ve been thinking like this for so long that i will never be able to let go of these feelings almost as if they are a part of me. When I’m with my friends i seem to enjoy myself because it distracts me. Also, none of these negative thoughts are towards my friends and i guess it’s just because i obviously have a very different relationship with my husband vs my friends.
Yes I start to think the same as well! It’s the strangest thing i’ve gone through really.
To think that’s not even half of the ridiculous thoughts that cross my mind lol I’m just so over feeling like this like i can’t express that enough