Hey all, wish i had seen this website about five days ago... maybe i might not have gone through with the you know what... the pain is still fresh and i am scared every time i think about it that i might not make it through to the next day, the next week and then energy to push on surges through me and then expires as quickly as that.. i can relate to the emptiness and the agony... tears fill my eyes at random times, i have to walk out of rooms or turn away and i feel so much pain when i hear babies crying and all.. i live in a third world country, there was no possible way to secure a good future for my baby and i know this but it doesn't take the pain and the guilt away.. if anyone knows anything that has worked to get them through please help... i don't really have anyone to talk to, i don't want to go whining to people coz no one really likes people who do nothing but cry and talk about their own problems which is how i feel all the time. writing this actually helped a little bit but i know this little is going to go away and teh emptiness and teh pain and the regret and teh tears are going to come back and i wont know what to do.. i am conformted by the little things like being grateful that my baby doesn't have to go grow up in a shitty world or go through crappy stuff like i have and that maybe she's with angels right now... does the pain ever go away? it's so much it seems so forever... HELP?