Home Remedies For Opiate Withdrawals

One thing I have found that works for me to combat tolerance is a supplement of magnesium, calcium, and zinc.  I don't know why it works unless it helps when crossing the blood brain barrier, however when I take them daily I find that my tolerance stays where it is at instead of it increasing.  All of us are different so what might work for me may not for someone else, but seeing that it is a necessary supplement for good health it won't hurt to try.  Nothing extreme, just the recommended daily intake of mag, cal, and zinc.  Best wishes to those battling addiction and my hope is that you all can beat this thing with natural healthy remedies.  Kratom has been a life saver for many facing addiction or depression and especially in the first months of withdrawal. 

I didn't go back to work today. i was just to tired or more unmotivated. I don't feel that bad...

; ) your music gets better and better. Georgia I'm glad that incident didn't turn into a run, but it scares me... It is a long way down. It's hard to get my motivation. I know that the motivation I get from opiates is short lived and fake. Awhile ago well back in April I could picture myself on the steepest mountain holding on to the side by just my finger nails. I knew that it was the time to chose let go and plummet to the bottom or somehow start moving up this mountain. I was already falling when I grabbed on and knew I cant go any lower. 5mg perks turned to bags of dope.....progression they say. Well since April I kind of made myself comfortable while neither goin up or down. Now it's like I have a firm foot on where I was once dangling and I'm looking up desperately trying to move up.......Georgia you want to hear something sick my friend (this guy I was dating when I got back from Vegas) who knew little about addiction saw me one night before I was about to cop from another ex. My anxiety was crazy I was not myself. I went grabbed my stuff and came back. When I got back he said "you shouldn't even be seeing him." I said something like I know I'm gnna get arrested. He looked at me like I was crazy and asked "would you rather be in jail or beat up in the back of his truck high." The answer was easy and scary without a question I would rather be beat up in the back of the truck high......

; ) your music gets better and better. Georgia I'm glad that incident didn't turn into a run, but it scares me... It is a long way down. It's hard to get my motivation. I know that the motivation I get from opiates is short lived and fake. Awhile ago well back in April I could picture myself on the steepest mountain holding on to the side by just my finger nails. I knew that it was the time to chose let go and plummet to the bottom or somehow start moving up this mountain. I was already falling when I grabbed on and knew I cant go any lower. 5mg perks turned to bags of dope.....progression they say. Well since April I kind of made myself comfortable while neither goin up or down. Now it's like I have a firm foot on where I was once dangling and I'm looking up desperately trying to move up.......Georgia you want to hear something sick my friend (this guy I was dating when I got back from Vegas) who knew little about addiction saw me one night before I was about to cop from another ex. My anxiety was crazy I was not myself. I went grabbed my stuff and came back. When I got back he said "you shouldn't even be seeing him." I said something like I know I'm gnna get arrested. He looked at me like I was crazy and asked "would you rather be in jail or beat up in the back of his truck high." The answer was easy and scary without a question I would rather be beat up in the back of the truck high......

Yeah, most people don't understand how strong the hold can be, only other addicts really know what it’s like, it will make you do and say things you never could have pictured yourself doing before.

When I got laid off last year from my job, (due to low performance, because of the drugs) I wasn't worried, since I had just got 6 scripts from one doctor and 4 from another, I was sitting there figuring how much money I had left and how long it would last, and even budgeted in for my addiction, then started taking things off the list, moving the money to the drug column..... that is when I really started thinking about what I was doing to myself. Even then it took me another 5 months, to try and quit again. I had got a new job, and it was slipping through my fingers. I had found a pain clinic here that you pay 300 bucks cash and they fill you up for the month. The worst thing was I just seemed not to care anymore, about anything.
Then I started getting these weird memory/feeling flash backs, kind of hard to explain, but something like that feeling when you are a real young teenager,(before all the BS) when the world just felt right, you had no real worries, and the only indecision you had was what to do on the weekend with your friends. Just quick little flashes, like a day dream, and then I would catch myself and the feeling/memory would slip away.
I started thinking how I missed that. What ever happened to that sense of peace, of belonging and not having dread all the time? The drugs did not give me that, not any real peace. I would look at people around me, which seemed happy and feel if I was already dead, that I was just going through the motions, but that it really didn’t matter anymore. That’s when I said no more, that’s not going to happen to me, I am not doing this anymore. Like you I felt that I was slipping away and I could either fight or give in.
Now, even if I cannot find that feeling, that peace again, I’ll take what I can get. Because at least, for now, I care again and maybe, just maybe, that’s enough.
Since we are on the topic of Rivers :)

Youtube, Motopony performing "Seer" on KCRW

“Staring at that cold river, hanging on to the roots of a broken dream, I said, Can you control your shivers child?
cause whatever that cold river takes, she keeps.. Don’t you know that… that river plays for keeps!”

living dead girl by rob zombie........used to be my theme song. You will have that peace again if you stay clean. I believe that. A sense of belonging......we all need that, but alot of people don't realize. Rivers is an interesting theme and holds great meaning to me. I think it's strange how well you know me/my disease as I know yours. It is enough, you are living right and that's all you can do. Sorry so choppy.

"Are you still afraid to drown?" I need to be afraid.

huh, synchronicity :-) For some reason rivers are throughout my songs, and the ones I was finding for you. Guess I was meant to find them and for you play them. Here are a few more of my favorites;
youtube search MOFRO "Brighter Days" or a for live performance “JJ Grey - Brighter Days (Live in the Bing Lounge)”

And of course Nataile Merchant, River. youtube search “River (Natalie Merchant) Lyrics”

Yeah, no kidding, not being afraid is what got us here...

Now for some more upbeat music check out this set, Pickin up the pieces, Dear Mr. President, and Money Grabber
livefromdarylshouse.com/currentep.html?ep_id=48

By the way, I love Grey Weather Gregory and the hawk!

I am hitting the road for a couple of weeks, my job, heading down to the panhandle of FL, which is good, this is my neck of the woods, grew up in this area and my sister is stationed in Panama City, so will be good to see her and look up some old friends (hopefully still alive!)
Keep the music selection coming! I love finding new artist, some I knew others I did not!
Hope you had a good weekend!

I hope that you have a great time!!!! Oh boats and birds by gegory and the hawk is a favorite of mine. JJ grey is amazing!!! oh by the way weekend was rough. I was offered sh*t twice yesterday and didn't bite. Im changing my cell. It happened not to b hard yesterday i might not be so lucky. Bad night sleep and very uncomfortable morning would b hard to bare without the K. I try to live my life the way I know is right for me and live the way my best fiend (he passed) would want me too. I was traumatized by his death and never dealt with it. I can hear him now "Where's that tough girl I met???" He would tell everyone "she is the smartest girl and the stupidest girl in the world." He just wanted me to be happy and use my brains instead of looks that fade. Actually that song he left on my table he was a writer and would come around when my world unswirled. He would fix everything and leave, he always felt the need to"get out of dodge" I don't speak of him though I think of him all the time. Well on my table was a note about how I didn't remember last nights song it was "boats and birds" I never remembered last night.....I remember countless nights of him playing me music while playing with my hair till I passed out. Sometimes the context of the night before was blurry....We used to joke that the universe didn't want us together. We created our perfect place on another dimension. He believed in that kinda stuff. On our perfect dimension whee we could have anything in the wold we chose a field that had a windmill on it and all my dogs. If only we realized we could have had that here easy........I find letters from him now alot of them referring to how he lost his friends to pill formed happiness. Well this is where things get strange it's a thurs. Im living with truck ex I referred to I'm up all night shaking with this uncontrollable feeling that my ex(truck guy same name as my BF) was going to die. I woke him up after four years this was first time I asked him not to go to work I was shaking saying I have never had a feeling like this in my life. He told me he had to go it was pay day, I didn't care he went. He came back I thought k these 30s really messing wit my head. Next night we had friends over it was getting late and I flt need to jus get away so sat. night I lock myself in my room start looking around and crying thinking i have to call my BF he thinks I'm doing good he doesn't know how bad

I'm doing I hadn't spoken to him in a year cause his girl was jelous. Well this overwhelming horrifying feeling came over me that he had no idea I'm living here with this s**m bag. Last he heard I was engaged and happy. He said he knew I was good when he didn't hear from me. Well, Sunday comes along it's Easter I watch Gone with the wind which I never saw. I read this book that messes with my mind I again start thinking of my BF and how this was somehow from him to me....I don't think like that. Monday my world changed it was around 4pm my mother showed up she has never come here. What is wrong who............WHAT he died that Friday. I start screaming bout the book and sighns. I was crushed he was what I knew of love I just didn't know myself well enough then. He was a part of my family. My mother always said I'm so complex she can't even undestand me, but he always did. Well it would be nice to believe we are on that field, but I'm so crushed by it I can't see that. We spoke of how we shared perfect moments and he believed somewhere we were still in those moments. One night I told him I could not live without him and asked him if anything ever happened to him to come back to me as my next dog then I said know I won't know it's you send me ladybugs. Well I got what I asked for ladybugs come to me at the worst and best times in my life....like they never had before. On birthdays, holdays, winter, summer. I  believe my trauma around it forbbidds me from seeing it clearer. Well, I know he woud have suffered everyday of his life to make me smile...I put him on such a pedastil noone can live up to him. I feel emty and worlds away from him, but maybe he was right and him and I are on that field. To say the least this is when I went from bad user to over the edge don't care all I can do. With times of sobriety mixed in. I did eight months once and not for me for him. Well Geogia guess I had to tell someone. His ashes were put in a river in Maine.

I do hope you are safe and enjoy Florida!!!

be careful with the subs, in my opinion, the sub withdrawl can be just as bad, if not worse. Especially if you take a good amount regularly. I would say just take the absolute minimum you can and try not to take them for too long. I used them to get off 30mg roxys, but i when i tried to stop the subs, i found it harder than the roxys and i have actually switched back to the roxys and i am trying to quit those cold turkey (starting tonight). Ugh, its going to be a rough week but I have to do. Just try to stay strong and try to use your kids as motivation. Everytime you want to take something, think about them, that might help you out a little bit. Best of luck to you and your wife. Stay strong, just keep in mind, youre not alone. Hope you can kick it, cause i know i really hope i can kick it myself. And when i do, i will never make that mistake again!! Cheers!!

Hey Purrrpill,
I arrive safe :) I will try to make this a workcation!
It is hard loosing someone close to you. I don't think we ever say goodbye, we just eventually make peace with their ghost. Maybe it is him, sending you these signs, telling you to stay strong :)

Youtube--- Susie Suh Why
A little sad, but it is soup for the soul, and again, another river reference. Hang tough....