Thanku for ur story!! Im on day ten and was getting discouraged. I read ur story and i hope i can b as strong as u. Please prAy for me!! God bless u!!!!!
I'm on day 5 and I will be reading this everyday. I will not look back. Thank you for the positivity!!! I have children and you only get one chance to make sure they turn out to be good people!!! Thank you thank you!!! I too have asked God for grace on me. My life is in his hands and only in him I can have true support.
best post ive ever read day 3 for me long stretch ahead of me but I know I can do this will be my second time detoxing was clean for 2 years and now am kicking myself in the ass for putting myself through this c**p again cant wait for day 18 it will come soon enough great post though
back again just posted a few hours ago im still on day 3 but I figured I had to let some people know I actually got the motivation to hike 6 miles up a mountain and im not a outdoorsie person at all just couldnt lay in bed anymore it was killing me it really helps ive never had as good 3 hours in the past 3 days im hoping it will help me sleep a little better tonight to I know laying in bed all day most definitely does not help the insomnia which in my opinion is the worst part I really suggest everyone try it or something strenuous to the body it really helps take your mind off things oh and I saw a bear very nice visual site was actually pretty cool
Hi, this is Mary...just wanted u know I'm 18 days off sub! Woo hoo!!!! It sucked and was hard, but definitely survivable! I'm still struggling with yawning, sneezing, and just feeling like doing ANYTHiNG is so much work. But mentally I feel great, like 'why did I even need this expensive drug' sometimes I get discouraged tho, that on day freaking 18 I'm not feeling amazing. You sound ahead of me time wise, so when does it get even better? I hope everyone is doing Great, it's so awesome to talk to people who KNOW!
Hey mary DAY 18!!! that is freaking awesome im on day 5 today feeling so so actually got 8 hours of sleep last night but ive been taking clonidine to help with sleep and throughout the day it really does help ALOT! still has been hell of a long 5 days but I know I will get through this im sick of spending every last dime on this drug and I found out a week ago that my girlfriend is pregnant as I stated before 2 months ago I had 2 years clean under my belt was a very very stupid decision to get myself back at this point but I told myself that I could just do it once well once turned to twice which turned to 4 times which turned to 8 which turned to 16 and by then I was already to far into it well now its now and Ive been using for 2-3 months and decided 2 weeks ago that im done and tapered off with suboxone reading posts from people that are 18 days in well it makes me feel awesome to know that its possible to make it the initial post I read on this thread I read it every single day twice a day once in the morning and once in the night. Thanks for all the support guys/gals ITS MY LIFE SAVIOR RIGHT NOW ITS ACTUALLY WHAT KEEPS ME TO PUSH THROUGH BECAUSE I KNOW THERE'S AN END TO IT!
Oh my gosh, well good news for you the worst is over by day 6. On day 6,7,8 I made myself go for a bike ride or walk (easy pace) and it made me feel better mentally I think. The rest of it is just having not that much energy or motivation, but ur so lucky to to be able to take clonadine and sleep, I think that makes a HUGE difference in how quickly u feel better. So rest easy knowing you're thru te worst of it!!!! And i know its hard to believe this right now, but i was just thinkinh today that damn, 19 days went by pretty fast...it wasnt thAt awful and miserable u know? Dont let all the negative quitting stories influence your mind, bc alot of it is mental, ad you dont have to be a negative story. Any of you!!! And, prob for you too, a huge motivator for me quitting was wanting to be a good parent, not that you're a bad one if you're addicted to something, but it just feels good to know I'm going to be a clean, normal mom. I'm not really religious, but i did pray alot for strength to get thru this, and I'll pray for you right now too!!!!!! Hope ur doing well...everyone :)
Hey guys its me again posted a couple days ago just wanted to let everybody know im on day 7 and feeling awesome not 100% though probably around 75% which I can totally deal with that compared to the first 5 days I slept a full night last night with absolutely no wake ups which was unbelievable may have been because I only got about 2 hours of sleep the night before so I may have just been far to tired but I guess I will find out tonight and ill definitely let everybody know for everyone that reads this and is in withdrawals please push on do not ever give up I promise it really really does get easier and you will absolutely love it I guarantee DON'T EVER GIVE UP! it does end and dont listen to them horror stories 30-60 days and there posting that they still have all the sick symptoms I know everyone is different but even 30 days is a ridiculous number and I can promise you that its not that long not physically at least mentally you will battle your addiction the rest of your life im going to take it day by day this time and never forget what I went through
thanks a lot.........Charles P.S. I will be checking this forum daily if anyone wants to talk
thanks a lot.........Charles P.S. I will be checking this forum daily if anyone wants to talk
This ‘Thank God’ narrative is truly inspirational. Wonderful!
Long story short. I used to live in Canada with my wife who was a smoker. In the winter, naturally, we kept the windows closed. I really did not understand passive smoking, at the time, and developed a dry hacking cough. So I went to the local drugstore and was recommended Codeine Cough Mixture. Looking back - from the first dose I was addicted. From that first spoonful, over a period of about 15 years, I got up to 90 Codeine tablets for breakfast and 90 for dinner. I will not disclose how I obtained this supply. Suffice to say - it was easy.
My Doctor introduced me to Subutex and I was on a maintenance dose of 4mg for about 4 years. I was a carer during this time. It was thought that because of the specialized nature of my responsibilities - sustaining my addiction with a synthetic opiate was the best option (that’s one way of putting it!).
The family member I was caring for died last October. And immediately I started reducing my dose by .4mg every month or two. I finally reduced to one .4mg tab a day and had my last dose 3 weeks ago.
Looking back reducing was OK. I had a week or two of discomfort. But I was not climbing the walls. When I finally quit - that was not so easy. For the first 2 days I was alright. Then overwhelming fatigue, lethargy and discomfort. This has all gone now. However, I still have a cloud in my head. Albeit getting smaller. I have tried to work during this time. And, have to say, made a complete screw up of it. Bad decisions, wrong actions, odd behavior. My colleagues know nothing of my history. They think I am a man from outer space! I will probably loose my Job.
All in all, I am thankful to have survived. Now here’s the weird part. I am still an ‘ict’. Something in me wants to be an Alcohol ‘ict’, a Drug Addict, a ‘Something’ Addict. I want to get off my face and fly. I want to be blasted to oblivion. Everyday reality is hard for me.
It is embarrassing, it’s pathetic and self destructive. But it is real. Codeine and Subutex stopped me from feeling this way. At a dreadful price.
So, I have achieved a lot - which I am proud of. It’s just that I am a little shocked, and surprised, with this odd architecture of confusion and emotion that I am left with. Somehow working this out though. i think?
When will the hell be over
Hi, I'm suffering thru day 5, no sleep and found yr post inspirational considering some of the others I've read. I think I can make it to 21 days and then see how I'm doing. How are you feeling now by the way? How long have you been off it now?
I had an addiction to oxycodone for 2 years,never injected it or did unbelievaable amounts,but Enough I couldnt quit cold turkey or I was sick.I finally went to a suboxone doctor,my first dosage wag a half for two weeks,a whole strip for 30 day,3/4 for 30 days,1/2 for 60 days.Now I ma nervous about all the negative thinga I have heard about getting off.I could go back for one more visit and take a 1/4 for a month,but I am wanting to just get it done and save my money.How bad do you think I will do?I do have xanax for sleep,but if it doesnt work I have the internet to keep me busy during insomnia.Thank you for your help.
sorry for the spelling,I should have proofread..lol
Hello my name is Richard,
Due to lack of time currently, I'm going to make this short, sweet, and hopefully possitive for anyone listening. There is unquestionalably a light at the end of the tunnel. I was on high doses of doctor prescribed Oxies (400-480 mg a day from 2000 - 2006, when I switched to Subutex. I was on Subutex (32 mg a day)until last year when I made the decision to get off completely. Had a doctor tapering and was down to 4mg a day when my world came to an end like many of you. My best friend and wife of 15 years asked me to move out of our home and had no INTENTIONS of taking me back. Like so many our relationship(communicatio, trust, love life or lack there of, intimacy and overall bond of one was shattered!) I'm currently on a 3 day stay with them so again will get to the point. When I left June 1st, I went off the deep end, spent 5 days County Jail and ended up at not so traditional drug and rehab facility out in the middle of nowhere. I was beat up, couldn't walk, hitting full withdrawals and the policy is no meds on sight. The rehab is more focussed on our walk with the our lord (Jesus Christ Who Strengthens Me And All Things Are Possible) than your tradition 12 step program. It took a minute before I understood and still fully cant comprehend all that has happened ( only to say it's Gods work and truly a miracle. Tommorrow with be 4 weeks, but I'm here to tell you with faith constant prayer I mean around the clock with all suffication not only will the 1000 pound gorrila fall off you back, but the stetching pulling of muscles and overal withdrawals will pass after 7 days with which IBUPROFIN AND TYLENOL. I get back but time is short here and i really need to be there for kids.
I so agree with u. Im on day 9 and am starting to emerge from the suffocating and painful experience that is detoxing from suboxone. I'm thinking that maybe those horror stories are coming from people that may b in bad shape despite the addiction. For example: obese, sluggish digestive systems, slow metabolisms, or just plain unhealthy with high suger, refined carb diets. I have a few thoughts for people to ponder: now I'm no scientist but 1. If u can speed up yr metabolism faster then yr body expels the risidule suboxone faster. Now I kno u don't feel like eating most of the time during WD but foods proven to speed up yr metabolism such as chilli peppers and certain spices ( its true, google it) only prob is it burn on the way in AND on the way out! Ouch. Also, I'm thinking chilli peppers and the likes also work to speed up the repair of our damaged neural pathways because it focuses the brain on real pain other than the pain of WD. I also agree no one should use Imodium, not unless yr trying to make yr WD worse!!! I don't kno if anyone else noticed but the exhaustion cycles we suffer seem to directly correlate to our digestive systems. Usually I would feel tired and sick after eating and better after I'd expelled what I'd eaten or when my body has digested it. My answer to helping diminish these cycles is to eat whole foods ( fruits, nuts, unprocessed grains, veggies etc) in small amounts and graze all day. I found the highs and lows I experienced started leveling out when I started doing this. These foods also have nutrients like omega 3s that aid the brains repair and other benificial proprieties.