i always fear ive done something wrong after drinking

The reason you feel like you have done something is wrong is because you have. You've drank too much. It's very common.

Im having the same situation i cannot get past it just because i havr a fiance we have a son if i go out im afraif i did aomething i dont go out often at all anymore ..sunday i did and had someone drop me off he was 16 lol im not afraif i did abything with him i know i could never xheat in cody my fiance bit i am making myself paranoid like sick feeling i cant remember jumping out of the car did something happen in the car ?? Its like 3 min drive ..to my house from where we were but i just cant stop thinking or get past it my hraf just keeps playing scenarios in my head as if something did ..when i know i would never jeapordize my family or relationship .. But please help how do i just get over this stop thinking about it when i know i didnt do anything

Hope you got over the guilt i can relate at the moment i got home from a work xmas party guilty for no reason going over all the conversation in my head i think my problems come from not trusting myself drunk i think i will have to limit myself to 2 drinks

I eventually got over that guilt but over the past year had at least 2more occasions where I got blackout drunk and can't remember a thing,I know I have a problem.i have tried stopping drinking and failed.both situations were where I went out without my fiancé,Iv been in situations where Iv not remembered a night after drinking at a friends or something but not had the anxiety next day cuz I have been with friends and my fiancé,but the 2occasions that are torturing me currently I have wondered away from friends and been on my own-not having anyone to reassure me and remember things,so of course my mind has made up my worse scenario-that Iv had sex somewhere and now I could be pregnant.its ridiculous as I
Would never do anything like that and I have no memory of anything like that or even being with anyone. But it won't leave me alone.one was in August this year and the other around 4 weeks ago. I am aware I need to stop drinking so not looking for a lecture,but it's nice to talk to people who understand like you guys. I have been on citalopram for 9months I know drinking and the meds don't mix well,it's hard tho when u rely on something so much to make u relax even for just a bit. Iv gotten so much worse the older Iv got,I hate feeling this way and just want to be normal. I think Iv signed in as a guest by accident but this is Jemima.hope you guys are having a better time than me at the moment. X

I'm a dude but feel this nearly all the time it's starting to really get to me and stops me from enjoying and doing everything I love . Think I need help it does help reading these comments but still upset :(

I thought that I was the only one. All the bad things I have ever done in my life, it is because I was drug. The common one is crying when I am drunk, always looking for reasons why I cry but in truth, I cry for nothing. The second common trait I display when I am drunk is being an angry man, ready for a fight. The third one is wanting to be a criminal, I just feel like doing something bad to anyone. And disrespect is another one but in a form of sarcasm. Therefore the aforementioned traits make me feel really down after drinking, even if I did not commit any of these. I cannot say I am addicted to alcohol but its really hard to stop. The following day after drinking alcohol, I often get paranoid and stay indoors for days until I get better. Fear, fear, fear, fear and I even experience bad dreams at night, like people bewitching me. I have never succeeded in anything every time when I am drunk. I really need help, maybe medication if such exists. I cannot take this feeling anymore.

Hello everyone, on one hand I found it comforting that I am am not the only one who feels like that and on the other hand I feel sad that we all have gone through this. I know that this leaves a filthy memory, which can pop into head anytime and can make you feel sad about yourself. There is a girl I just met a few months ago, after just 15 mins of meeting her I realized that I truly like her  ....everything was going smooth for next few weeks, until she invited me over at her place for dinner with her friends. I was a little bit nervous about making everything right so that she and her friends like me and in pursuit of doing that I went hard on wine and whisky. I wont say I was totally wasted but yes something happened and when she was me showing her home around I put my hand around her waist and put my finger on her lips and said her to not say one more word(probably what I remember "in a sweet way"). That single moment has changed everything. She now is  a little bit reluctant of meeting me. This single incident changed the course of everything that could have lead me to happiness and now I am terrified of drinking at all. 

Any word of advice will be appreciated.

Yes, quit drinking!

Well aren't you hilarious.why don't you quit making sarcy comments? Quitting drinking for some people is easier said than done,we are all trying to help and support each other and insensitive comments like yours aren't appreciated thanks

Sorry you don't like the truth. I quit 35 years ago after the cop who stopped me tested me at .29. I decided I'd had enough of that shxt but you have to decide that for yourself. Until you are willing to do that not much is going to change.

Incidentally, I shook his hand and thanked him as we left the court room. I feel he truly saved my life.

Good for you.i think we know we need to quit the drink-as I stated ages ago-I don't need the lecture.its talking to people who are in the same situation at the moment,if I wanted to speak to someone whos managed to quit drinking I'd have asked for that?not a smug "yes quit drinking" and that's it.hardly support.not sayin it isn't the truth

I'm so sorry to see everyone suffering from this same drunken paranoia as I am, but at the same time I feel immensely comforted to know that I'm not alone. I know that's probably horrible. I hope my story helps someone and/or I would love any comfort or advice that anyone can give.

So here's my story:
I don't drink often because of an anxiety disorder, but this past Thursday I drank more than I had planned on and, because of this, I experienced short periods of black outs. It seemed like a normal night; a group of friends I'm comfortable with, no funny business, everything seemed fine. I woke up the next morning super early, as I usually do when I drink, took a shower at 6 am to wash the smokey smell from my hair and went back to sleep. But I woke up again, I felt some discomfort; albeit not right away but in the morning. Long story short, I woke up with a vaginal infection and now I can't stop thinking those two horrible words: "what if". What if something happened and I just don't remember it? Despite the fact that I felt I was getting a bacterial infection earlier in the week anyway, and the fact that all of my friends have reassured me that there is no time, place, or person that I could have done anything with and that I was acting normal and fine all night, and the fact that hooking up with someone would be completely out of character for me, even in a drunken state... But I still feel so paranoid that something happened. Let me rephrase that, I don't actually feel like something happened, but my mind keeps telling me, "it could have happened and you and everyone could be wrong".

And I know it's not logical but the sheer coincidence of the infection worsening after that night has me paralyzed with fear I can't shake. I keep trying to remind myself that it's all in my head but I've never had post-drunken anxiety this bad. Is it all in our heads? How do you deal and move on / shake that horrible, nagging, guilty, "what if" feeling? It's been a week now and it has me completely crippled with anxiety to a point where I can't sleep or function normally. I know I wouldn't be feeling this way about that night if the infection hadn't worsened the next day. But I still can't help but wonder "what if". What do I do? How do I get rid of this anxious worrying and move on? Please help.

I had a few drinks last night and today I came home spent the night crying, woke up to the conclusion I would be better off dead. I am sorry for the things I said. I wonder was I as bad as I thought. I wonder have a manifested a situation which is much worse in my head. It is an awful feeling and there is nothing you can do. I would have thought this morning I'm very ugly, my life is pointless , I am only a liability to my family and have not brought them any pride,

I've just read through this post and feeling so much better. I feel horrendous after drinking and experience all the same stuff, panic, disgust with myself, the fear I've ruined my life with the stupid stuff I do when drunk, I also make things up and panic I've cheated or been really rude to someone even though these things aren't in my nature. I got really drunk last night and haven't done this for years. I'm so ashamed. I hate being this person and living like this. I'm definately going to try not drinking. Good luck everyone and thanks for making me feel better! Xxx

Hi everyone, Hope you're all feeling a bit better.My anxiety is sky high at the moment again from a heavy drinking session, again my mind convincing myself iv done something awful and out of character, I keep analysing how everyone who was with me when we were drinking is acting around me,convinced they are acting different around me and I must have done something. Anxiety and depression is so tiring I wish it would just do one :(