hey everyone, i used to smoke only marijuana and then one day my two "friends" told me to meet them and they would have a joint ready for us to smoke, little did i know they laced it with crack cocaine.
that was in 1997, it is now February 2009 and i am still addicted, in the beginning i felt very strange but i craved it anyway and it became very addictive, i stopped for three months straight only to fall back into it again when something went wrong or when i felt stressed, since last Thursday i had the flu and i was coughing a lot, i got scared thinking that i could have lung cancer from smoking this garbage, but it is the paranoia from consuming all these years, i am 34 years young and i have not consumed for 6 days now, i am so scared what this drug could do to my body i am scared to feel better so i might fall back into the trap, i beg god to help me and he knows i want to stop i hope i stop it is so hard because when things go bad i a m so tempted and money is no problem which makes it even harder.
i am considering starting na meetings next Tuesday because i respond to therapy very well, i hope i can beat this addiction so i can now enjoy the true finer things in life, good luck to everyone and god bless.