I smoked weed and I felt so high I tryna go to bed but I could’ve fall asleep but when I did I just wake up few hours after and I was feeling high again it’s felt like I was two different person I left so scared I wanted my life back , i couldn’t be focus on anyhitng my life is so screwed up i feeel like I’m letting my self down I don’t feel happy anymore , I have different type of mood , I search for answers and I couldn’t find , I talk to people about it but everyone just thought I was crazy I end up in a hospital for 2weeks , i let it take over my body I don’t kno myself anymore I don’t know who to trust ,it’s been since April 2017, and now we in January 2018 I still feel like this but reading about it right now made me think it wasn’t because of my pass or things I went through , I was smoking weed a lot I stop a week ago so I can gain weight, I was still smoking cuz my life felt so stressed out Nd too much to handle to think bout I try everything to find the reasons y I’m like this but reading I can tell it’s becsuse of weed being paranoid off it .i need help it’s been way to long I want my life back I want to feel alive again I wanna see things clear I wanna hear good I wanna smell again I wanna be happy , I wannna live life strong Nd not week , please understand and help me . I’m only 16 and I don’t wanna live my life like this. I going through so much I quit school and I don’t go anywhere I just sleep just hate myself and not eating good. If you understand me and you been through this help me fix my mistakes. I wanna wake up again Nd feel like myself again I’m just black out everyday I think too much I can’t sleep . I want a second chance again , I feel like god isn’t wt me my heathy is so bad eveything I do I feel like I’m already dead like I’m living seeing how I die. I’m just thinking crazy plzzz I beg for your help I will appreciate you .