Hi im 15.,I feel as though I have a "conscience" or "voice" that tells me negative things about myself, convinces me that i do not deserve to eat and/or to be happy, or that tells me that I am or deserve to be fat and ugly.i have been diagnosed with clinical depression, attentive deficit disorder,post traumatic stress disorder,and other psychological/neurological illnesses., I often feel numb or empty inside, like my life lacks fulfillment and happiness, like something is missing or there is a void inside. I self-starve or restrict, when i am feeling lonely, badly about myself or about a situation, or when I am feeling emotional pressures. I typically feel aggressive after any snack or meal, like i have almost instantly gained weight, like i am a failure, like i have sabotaged myself. I am on many medication. I don't know how to tell my doctor. I lost 125lb in a month of doing this. What do I do.? I don't want to tell my mum she will just say she told me so.,and yell.im awkward telling people.