Hi, I'm 14 years old and I'm a girl and I have been masturbating since I was 12. When I was around 13 I found that I couldn't or didn't know how to orgasm so I googled it and it seemed like everyone said to try porn. So I did and didn't really enjoy it, it made me feel pretty awkward. Maybe a couple of months later I was home alone and really turned on so I masturbated but still couldn't orgasm. So I tried watching porn again to see if I could have a proper orgasm and I found a video of a couple and the female was being choked and and hair was being pulled by her partner. After watching this video I certainly did orgasm and later realized that I liked feeling dominated even though I have never had sex. I guess I pretty much fell in love with the hair pulling, choking, being smacked on the ass, listening to dirty talk and so on. Does this make me weird? How do I get the same feeling if I don't have a sex partner?
As for how you can get the same feeling during masturbation have you ever tried just using the power of your mind and fantasize about it during masturbation?