My mom only drinks when she is having problems in her life, like she didn't get enough attention from the family, or a relative said something that make her feel bad. She will talk about it over and over again and then start drinking. Then blame all on me for I wasn't polite enough to the relatives, or didn't give them presents or didn't say hello to them from time to time.
Well her dad left her when she was a baby, then her brother cannot talk to her frequently because his wife is trying to separate all the people, then her husband left her too....now that she worries I am going to dump her too (I am the eldest daughter), that at the moment I am the only economic support.
Sometimes I think it is my fault, that I didn't give enough attention to her, or according to her, I looked at her like I hate her...(what am I gonna do?! maybe it's true...I am just tired of her...) I don't understand why it's always me making the problem worst, why my younger sister and brother will not make her crazy???? Sometimes I did things purposelessly made her drank but i never knew she would be so over-reacting....so it is my fault I guess....