i havent took my zoloft in a week and a half an havent smoked weed in 3 days im am cripppled by the ocd anxiety ptsd and sucidal depression my insurance is cut and i wont be able to get into doc until march 8 ive been taking 100 mg for two months and saw improvement i am 26 and have tried to commit suicide about 10 times ive been abused beaten molested and lost my dad from lung cancer 8 years ago i recently lost my grandma and grandpop in last year my ocd i have sexual ocd which is the worst also my hand bleed from washing im very impulsive and if i fight the thought or compulsion the anxiety drives me nuts i talk to myself more than people and its hard for me have a normal conversation almost impossible to conctrate i havent worked in 3 years and am appealing for ssi if i dont figure somthing out soon i will be back on streets i was drugged and molested and i wont get into detail on a job interview when i was trying to find some work when i was 14 so goin threw the interview is rough for me im the black sheep and only talk to me is my mom i gave up being a big brother to my siblings i just need some positive feedback people who can relate my problems and suggestions i also havent slept in 3 days i exeperiance anger my ocd has gotton so