I just spent an hour typing in detail my story and it suddenly erased!! Ugh! Well...Sadly, my husband is also an addict. He prays everynight that God will give him the strength to get off them. As I read through all of these posts, I see that you're all reaching out to one another for advice, emotional support, and hope. I think its great to know there's others out there for support when it comes to this. I personally have never had an addiction, and can only imagine what it must feel like. I do know that it must be so over powering, because we almost lost our one year old 2 months ago, because of his carelessness and yet he still struggles with his addiction. I know he so badly wants to let them go...he says it everyday. Two months ago, he left his oxycotin 10's in his phone case, on top of the window seal, above our bed. He woke me up in a panic and said he thought our baby may have eaten them. I had no idea what the hell he was talking about at first. When I finally realized what he was saying, I flipped out on him. I immediately called 911. Long story, short...my daughter was omitted into the ICU for a couple of days. He admitted evertrying to CPS and the homicide detectives. He said he will pay the consequences as long as he knew his baby girl was ok. No doubt, he felt terrible guilt for what he caused, but unfortunately, the addiction is still a nightmare he's trying to overcome. CPS and the detective dropped the case. Its a miracle our baby survived! She's a true Angel! Now getting him off this sh*t is our next obstacle. It saddens me to see such a tiny thing, ruling his life! Not even love can over power this world of evil! Rehab is too damn expensive, and all it does is leads you into another world of addiction! He's tried doing those classes where people spill their thoughts, but he needs more than that! He needs real help!!! I want so badly to help him through this for our family and for his health. Its out of control. Please help!