RE: I'm sorry to hear about your experience. I
posted mine on the last page and I'll let you know that the after
effects can be pretty effective. You will have that negative thinking
occur many times because I remember after my attacks i fell into a deep
state of depression and distraught. Don't feel like you won't ever be
happy again though. I felt that way at times but it's going to be okay. I
haven't smoked since i went out of town with my cousin which was almost
two months ago, but i have thought about starting back up again but
working on it slowly and smoking in moderation, but on that, I'm still
contemplating. All i can say, if it means anything to you, is that
you're going to be okay. Don't let those paranoid thoughts take over
because you're in control of your mind. You just have to learn how to
use it. Be sure to stay positive, and do things that you enjoy, whatever
it may be. Keep your mind occupied and it's hard not to think back on
those experiences because trust me, to this day it still sometimes feels
like a living nightmare. The feeling is so overwhelming you truly
believe you're going to die...It's scary. But don't worry, okay? Just
trying to help in the best way possible and i hope i did. Peace and
Love.
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Mainly, I would like draw upon the point that it has a lot to do with your mindstate. As the herb makes whatever you are doing more intense (hence increasing pleasures), it can obviously do the opposite. So, if you are in a bad state of mind, for example, a bit sad or depressed, then it can make this worse. An important thing to consider is not to get too worked up on the fact of smoking up. I used to love it and look forward to blazing in my earlier days of using, but at times now, I feel if I think about it too much, it's like I am setting myself to be anxious. To begin with, I am quite the shy character and it sometimes just makes me feel more compelled to think about this in itself. For me, when I get these paranoid attacks, it's like I am thinking too much about one thing and this lead to the downward spiraling. I've learned to deal with this and thats just to embrace the high. Why do you even get high in the first place? It's so that you can enjoy it. So just embrace the fact that you are high and people around you are not. I generally don't like the feeling to be around sober people when I am high because I feel like people are judging me. I even judge myself and it feels like I am focusing on other people's thoughts too much. Like "Oh, these guys are talking about me" but in reality, no one probably gives a sh*t to begin with.
I don't want to keep writing about this because I know I can write a whole novel or something. I've been through the bad trips with the increased heart rate, unable to breathe, and just the feeling like the high will never end. I get paranoid around people and I feel like everybody is out to get me. The worst feelings came to me when I go out to the masses like a comedy show. I actually got so high smoking a blunt before watching Louis CK once I felt like his whole act was directed at me... Crazy, right? A lot of you have talked about needing to go to hospitals. That's one feeling I don't share. I just get paranoid and very uncomfortable but at the end of the day, I've learned to just go with it and deal with it. I think it's very manageable. Be comfortable with who you are blazing with, be in a good state of mind, and just enjoy that sh*t. Last point is to not OVER think anything. Once I get into an analytical state of mind, I crumble.
These are things that work for me and I hope everybody here can find ways to deal with bad highs. It happens to the best of us. Maybe people like us posting on this forum a bit more, but it does happen. Wish everyone good luck to find peace with the herb that we fell in love with at first use. Like I said before, I've always appreciated weed and what it does/can do for you. For that reason, I think I will always use. Just use it in moderation, keep balanced, and enjoy that sh*t.
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The worst feeling I ever had is all I can say about it. Last night
i was smoking with 2guys, I met one of them for the first time. Earlier, the
other guy called me and told me that he want some stuff. I arranged it and it
was the same stuff which I smoked a couple of days ago and my friend told me
that the stuff is paranoid. Without giving him much attention I bought the same
stuff because I heard that word for the first time and I didn’t knew what he
actually mean. We started with a big fat one. The new guys took like 5 o 6
drags then he said stuff is good n he is getting so high. Every time it’s his
turn, he repeats the same thing until he gave up after 5 turns. I offered him
to sit and relax on the bed and he replied that he would prefer lying on the
bed. At first we were laughing on him but later when we tried to move him n
take him back to his home, he continuously resisted it saying he doesn’t want
go anywhere. At last we carried him to his home and when we reached there; he
said "Call an ambulance, I am going to die" and that was the moment
when my laughter vanished. He was not moving at all. He kept on saying that he
is going to die. Because of him, I got myself paranoid too but at first I didn’t
realized it. I called one of my close friends, he told me that he is just high
and is going to be ok but I doubted it. I had some worst thoughts like I am responsible
for everything and I will be sentenced to death if anything happens with that
guy or if this matter gets into the hospital or police (The place where I live
carries a death sentence for any illegal drug, and weed is one of them). On the
other side, his condition was not improving and he was still asking for an
ambulance. I was thinking that there is something going to happen for sure. My
friends told me to relax and go to sleep but my fear was not under control. At
one point I realized that all of us smoked the same stuff, which made that guy
paranoid and because of him I also got paranoid. Unlike him, I was totally
under control but the thoughts and the fear in my mind. My heartbeat was too
fast, I was continuously shaking. However I managed to come back to my place n
tried to change my mood as I got familiar with the matter. I slept and woke
this morning totally normal. I have been smoking for 7 years and it never
happened. For that guy, it was his 5th or 6th time so he was totally stoned and
couldn’t control himself.
So what I learned from last night is that if it happens with anyone, try to
change your mood and keep that in mind that this is nothing else but a panic
attack. If you really know that you are being paranoid then your mind will try
to eliminate your fears and will bring you to reality.
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