i have been reducing off methadone one ml a month and i feel awfully alone, with no family support or understanding. I feel quite depressed and emotionally unstable at times suicidal as i feel though im going through a living hell and want to die as i am in so much pain and discomfort physically and emotionally. Why is this happening to me?
Separating from a drug, which gives you a sense of comfort can effect you in both a physical and mental way. It's a type of separation anxiety that comes with it. You're being reborn into the world and everything feels real. You have (however long you were on it) worth of emotional backup that tries to get out as well.
These feelings WILL subside eventually.. but it helps to remember that you aren't alone. There are people that are going through exactly what you are, and some in worse situations. But your desire to live and persevere is extraordinary, you matter to yourself and everyone else.
I know this seems like some generic thing anyone can say, and we're just people online. But sharing a horrible experience like what you're going through makes people more empathetic.
You're doing good for yourself, keep it up. The pain will pass.
These feelings WILL subside eventually.. but it helps to remember that you aren't alone. There are people that are going through exactly what you are, and some in worse situations. But your desire to live and persevere is extraordinary, you matter to yourself and everyone else.
I know this seems like some generic thing anyone can say, and we're just people online. But sharing a horrible experience like what you're going through makes people more empathetic.
You're doing good for yourself, keep it up. The pain will pass.