I've had sexual related dreams since I was about 9 or 10. However after a trip to the emergency room and a doctor checking to see if my overies worked, i've had them more frequiently. I began to surf the internet about what sex was, because even at 17 I had never really had a Boy friend or really any need for the information I was looking up. I began to settle for watch cartoon related sex as well as cartoon games. Anything to help me figure out what on earth this feeling was, and enjoy some of it myself by myself (masterbation). I didn't want to look up real person porn as admittedly I couldn't bring my self to it, and still can't. That just made dreams make more sense and more accurate to what was actually happening.
Just this weekend I was with my boyfriend, whom if asked i'd marry, and it seams to have shot off dreams of deep sexual feelings about him... or Masterbating with his picture. I had dreamed of him before but not as elaberate. I'm thinking it is due to the fact we played around some (through cloths of course) pretending to thrust and what not, and if no cloths had been on, he would have went in. Which even with cloths felt some how the most amazing of all the land.
My biggest conserns is that the saying "A dream is a wish your heart makes" and if thats the case i'm turned on as hell when it comes to him. I guess my questions are as follows:
We both are christians so we are trying not to have unmarrital sex, but i'm wondering if dreams like this could blind all for thought and just make it happen?
Why so many dreams about sex so suddenly? Why do I hurt in some areas when I don't fix them after a dream? How should I deal with these dreams? What could these dreams be pointing to? If God forbid we chose to do it how would we prevent preganancy? (nieghter of us could afford to raise a kid right now and abortion isn't an option or adoption) As well as any other help you can provide.
Thank you,
S.R