Hi
This is my first time here and I've been reading through some posts and I feel like I'm not alone...finally. I abused percosets for a couple of years and quit cold turkey 4 years ago when I found out I was pregnant. That wasn't fun. It took me a month to finally stop twitching and sleep at night. Work was a nightmare EVERYDAY but I knew I couldn't take anything for my baby's sake. Suffice to say, once I delivered my baby boy, I started right back up. Didn't even have to leave the hosptial b.c they supplied me with percs b/c I had a C-Section. I was on that road using up until Jan 2012 when I finally confessed to my husband and family I had a problem. My problem was, I ran out and didn't know what to do! Of course I scored that night and now that the family knew, I had to make like I wanted to quit. I started tapering the percs with the help of my husband who would hold my pills and give me what I needed each day and we agreen to lower 1 pill per w/k as to not put me into w/d. Well when the pills got to low for my liking I found where they were being hidden and I started stealing them and taking what I needed. Cut to July 2012 when my husband found out I had a bottle of percs in my purse. I had to beg, plead and cry to him. I got onto Suboxone with my primary doc, who was prescribing me my perc rx. I took the sub for a month- 6 weeks on 8mg a day. I was also taking xanax b/c i still wanted to feel some kind of high. I also started using perc again and stopped w/ the sub on my own. Sept 2012 I have a seizure at work for mixing Tramadol, coming off percs, and taking xanax. I broke my nose in 2 places and ended up in the hospital and in an outpatient program. I'm prescripted 8mg of Suboxone the moved up to 12mg. I then started using percs again for a few weeks in Nov 2012 when my husband found out AGAIN! That was it. 11/20/12 was the last time I took a percost and I was on the subs until 3 days ago. I lowered myself down from slowly from about January until now. Saturday 3/9 I had only a sliver left a 8mg tab which was about 1-1.5mg. Sunday I thought I was really going to use. I started ransacking my house for pieces of subs and going crazy and just crying on and off all day. I didn't eat that whole day, I just couldn't even force myself. I don't think I even drank anything. I got very dehydrated. Definately drink water even if you can't eat. Especially if you're crying like I was. Monday I braved it and went to work. Sitting at home did nothing for me but make me dwell on everything negative and my disease just continued to talk to me and tell me I needed to use. I def had some leg aches and creepy crawlies but NOTHING like commeing off the percosets. Definately much less but the mental part is the worst for me. I'm going to my psychiatrist today just to talk it out. I'm also taking multi vitamin, b-12 sublingual and 1000mg of L-Tyrosine. I'm making it through for me and for my family. I have to. They mean everyting to me and they've supported me so much I can't let them or myself down now...now that I've come so far. Good lUck all & stay strong! We can all do this.
Hey April, Just curious how everything is going?? Im right there with you. This is my first week trying to get off of subs and its a Bit** lol Just was curious on how your doing and if you went to talk to your DRs. Hope all is going well and Good Luck!! Your defentily not alone
Joshakavix