thoughts of hurting people

I have OCD and Depression.....? Its been taking over my life, sometimes I think of harming myself or others that I love or don't know!!! I have OCD where if I touch something with one hand I have to with the other hand. I sometimes count if I smoke like one two three four one two three one two one two one two one two. Then the same but smoke with the other hand.. Now I can sometimes visualize be hurting people or myself.. Its been scaring me i've told every one I know. Its been going on for a month now. I'm scared to be around my little sister I love her so much but because of this i've been sister.distancing myself.. I tell my mom all the time about the thoughts and she tells me to ignore them I do but they creep back, even when i'm having a great time. I think about this 24 hours a day, I get shaky at times when they occur and I lay down play a game or leave my house, work out, or just walk around until they calm down, I feel scared like i'm going insane.. I'm scared I don't Want to hurt anyone. I pray I read my Bible when scared. I do all I can. Btw this year i've also been screwed over, lost 2 friends by death and my ex fiancé.. He's no longer here either. My mom thinks it could.be built up anger. Help.. I will not take meds btw. I'm against meds.

I can tell you from experience that the thoughts are normal for someone with ocd. I was also against the message but I did end up taking them and so many bad thoughts and stupid rituals disappeared. My brain finally could relax and enjoy friends and family and just be a regular person.

Sorry spell check changed meds to message instead. When I said I was against meds but ended up taking them

Hey, I'm Emily. I'm this girl everybody thinks is happy & nice. But my mind is cruel. I can't stop thinking about hurting people & ending their lives. :$ Sometimes I thinks suicides the answer. Nobody will care if I'm gone. Then wait, nobody will care if their gone. I just don't know if I have a mental disorder or something. But is there? Or am I just something else.. 

Aleko,
I too have cried over the thoughts and bad feelings you get about loved ones. It is not you. It is your brain.
I had to break up with my girlfriend over it. I prayed really hard to the Lord about it and he told me, for me, that it is based in "self-pity". IF you have led a life of victimization and self-pity, then you have led a life most likely of emotional irresponsibility. So now that you have these thoughts, you what if yourself because you are now trying to be responsible after living a life of of irresponsibilty. Im not saying this is you, but this was for me. Shame plays a part in it as well. It comes down to this. Believing the truth, or belieiving the lies. Choose the truth.

Im  a bad person the things i have done are terrible. maybe the things i have done lead me to this point in my life in which i have feelings of hurting other people but if i was good would  i still see all the bad in the world or would i try and see the good thats in this world. in my mind people should die there are so many teribble people that ae in this world woudl it be bad if we cleaned it up.

 

I know im bad and if there is a heven and hell i would be the last name on the list to get into heven and probs the first to get into hell

I know i can not do right all the bad things i have done but i could hurt bad people that should make up for sum or the bad i have done

I have been feeling the same way lately. The only thing I can suggest other than going to a psychiatrist or getting put on meds it exercise. When you exercise, put the energy those thoughts provide you into your workout, and by the time you're done, you'll be so tired that those thoughts will disappear. It is only a temporary fix though. The more you work out and put that negative energy into something as positive as making yourself better, the better you'll feel. It will take quite some time, but the thoughts will eventually get to be less and less. I just recently had these thoughts return to me after not really working out for the past 6-7 years. I used to work out multiple times a day and when that was going on, I found it to be much easier to control the thoughts. Just a little heads-up for people out there feeling the same way.

hey its ok, im a teen and im constantly dealing with this.... but don't forget that this type of OCD is the total opposite of your true personality don't let it get to you! these thoughts are just things you would NEVER even try doing, its just a chemical thing in your brain. at first I was scare, because when this started I wasreally young, and did not know what was going on, so I told my mom and she told me it was going to be ok and that I should try to think nice happy thoughts and take the bad thoughts as a joke or ridicule them, my OCD or 'thoughts' appear when im stress or shocked by something. way before this I had gone through some rough times and that caused anxiety and 'bad thoughts'. but now im trying to get over it by ignoring them and appreciating the wonderful life I have. don't worry just make sure you have a healthy diet and do exercise. keep yourself busy!

You are in control of your thoughts. As soon as you witness these thoughts learn how to turn them off. The best thing you can do is beat those thoughts by doing something loving for the person you are thinking about hurting. It seems as if you may have dealt with bullying, neglect, and abuse for some time in earlier life. When this happen people tend to find a way to protect themselves by thinking of ways to hurt the person who is hurting them. If it is a constant thing it becomes habitual thinking. The only problem is the habitual thought tends to come back but has no one to attack when life seems normal so it finds the person(s) who are close to you or within reach. Just know that thoughts cant be acted out if it is not your will. Think of it as your enemy trying to destroy you. The best way to defeat it is laugh at it and do the complete opposite of what its trying to get you to do. If its trying to get you to fight or be violent do something that promote life and peace. Give that person a compliment and use their smiles as ammunition against your enemy. Open the door for that person, engage in a healthy conversation that pertains to peace, God, love, etc, if its a wife or girl friend offer a relaxing massage, and watch those thoughts weaken. It may not go completely away, but you will always know you are in control. Hospitalization and medicine is not the cure. It suppresses the problem. Mental health issues is nothing more than abuse from the past creeping back in and you can slam the door in its face.

You'll be fine

hi im 16 and i go through phases were i have no positive fellings towards my family, and i will have thoughts of killing my family, but later on i will love them and be terrified of having had these thoughts

What if you just think of someone or even an animal getting hurt, But it's by other people and not me? Is it the same thing?

For 20 years now I have been dealing with thoughts just like yours. Im not medicated,do not do drugs, never been to jail and have learned that if you want control of yourself you will have it. We are all animals in this world and gain pleasure from what would be considered taboo to anyone. The fact young man/woman is that you take pleasure in the sight of the image, no different than if it were a painting. You are perfectly normal as it horrifies you. You simply crave structure. Really you just want someone who gives a f**k about you. Those people are out there. But there is a catch, who wants to be friends with someone who wants to hurt them? Who is willing to tolerate a sadist who is slightly a masochistic explorer? The right young man or woman maybe the answer to your problem. Just know that you really are stronger than the average person as you at 15 naturally and unknowingly have a grasp of life and the appreciation of it. You do not need help, you need a companion. Get yourself active in something physical, running, soccer, football,baseball. If sports are not your thing maybe Martial Arts, Krav Maga, karate et cetera. Set small goals you know you can easily accomplish and gradually build them up to greater goals. Today and forever more you will face stresses of all kinds that will test your knowledge of tactics to relieve them, it is up to you to be better than your thoughts.

i havn't been diagnosed with anxioty or ocd or anything my problems kinda different its totally out of the blue i could be hanging with mates or with family family friends but usually wen people laughing or happy even if we both are i have flashes in my head of violently attacking them even tho i never have and never would ever want to people i love and people i like that i would never wish to do that to them iv had it as long as i can remember but never been a violent person im 22 and never even had a fight in my life i always avoid any agression from others and myself im abit withdrawn and have low confidence and am usually pretty low feeling

I'm James and I'm 13 years old, basically I don't suffer from anything but I always get thoughts about hurting people, for example I was at a Party the other week and People were smocking and drinking, the person who was having a party's mum was outside talking to some of us about how we shouldn't smoke ( I've never smocked, drunk or took drugs or anything like that before) and so she was asking us stuff and them mentioned one of the boys names and she was like I'm disappointed in him, so late reply came up to me and threatened me like don't ever do it again, for the past few days I've just bee thinking about badly hurting him like punching him till his face breaks or putting him in hospital, any help?