I'm really hoping that I can get over this ptsd it causes me to be more emotional than I use to be. I never knew that I had this much locked up inside of me. I have a hard time at the therapist and that make me feel totally out of control and i don't like that feelin. It something inside of me that wants me to say just forget it but I know that will not help me but the feeling is so strong. Sometimes I get mad at the therapist for asking me the same questions over and over again and how do that make you feel. Most of the time I numb and have no feelings at all exspecialy when I'm asked things to many time but I guess it's a part of healing. I have been told that I'm to ridgid and defenceive but I've been programmed that way and it's hard letting that go because that has been my way of staying alive all this years and it just feel like everything is been taken away from me and i don't know the person that I'm becoming and we have a hard time getting along. She's okay but I don't know her and don't really know if I want to know her. To keep unwanted attention away from me I've been know in the streets as the one no one f's with and I've been comfortable with that because I don't have the pressures of he say she say. I'm a loner and that's being taken away and I don't know how I will react to this. %-)
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Hi:
I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles, but I believe that you can get better. Therapy is your solution. However, you've got to shop for the right therapist. It isn't always a match. Be honest with yourself though. Are you frustrated with your therapist because she is treading on difficult topics or because you don't feel as though you are making progress. This is an important question because therapy is not always pleasant or easy. Just make sure that you are actually getting the help that you need. Sometimes you may not be the best judge of that. Either way, stick with the therapy. Don't give up on yourself. Is there a support system for you. If not, it's important that you find one. I'm sure that there is a support group in your area....Try to get involved with it if you aren't already. I wish you the best....Let us know how you are doing.
I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles, but I believe that you can get better. Therapy is your solution. However, you've got to shop for the right therapist. It isn't always a match. Be honest with yourself though. Are you frustrated with your therapist because she is treading on difficult topics or because you don't feel as though you are making progress. This is an important question because therapy is not always pleasant or easy. Just make sure that you are actually getting the help that you need. Sometimes you may not be the best judge of that. Either way, stick with the therapy. Don't give up on yourself. Is there a support system for you. If not, it's important that you find one. I'm sure that there is a support group in your area....Try to get involved with it if you aren't already. I wish you the best....Let us know how you are doing.
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I know that I must be getting better. I just feel that my whole life is beening taken away from me. I really like the therapist. It's a man and I choose him because my biggest problem is with men. My father took so much from me and just left me there to die. It's a fight because I don't like men telling me what to do but if I get this out then maybe Ican be more socialible. I can bearly stand to hear a mans voice and that's crazy because I've been married for 10 years but the roles are backward I talk he listen and that's so wrong so most of the time he just leaves me alone. I love him so much because he is so humble but I feel so bad for the way that I treat him. I just think that he's on curise control and avoiding wrecks. I want to have a womans personality not that I think women are weak ot anything it just that I feel like a hard core rough man. I hate myself and the life that I has made I'm just so confused and numb. :-(
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I think that your first statement holds hope for you. That is: You know that you must be getting better. That's a start. You haven't given up on yourself, although it may feel that way sometimes. You're still going to therapy, seeking help, and that's what matters. Try making a list of the positive things about you and your life. We all have things that we don't like about ourselves, but we try to keep those negative thoughts in check. Make a list and put it somewhere so that you will see it frequently, i.e. your mirror, car dash, etc. I wish you all the best and I really hope you'll continue to communicate with us for support and updates to encourage others.
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I hear a lot of what you're saying here. You are talking about a lot of wants and needs but you sound very dissatisfied. I think that the best way for you to start to cope with this (and this is a tried and true method with PTSD) is to accept reality without judgment. So you're not "like a woman" as you say. Well, you're a woman, aren't you? How you behave is how a woman behaves because that's what you are! So accept yourself and love yourself. That's the first and biggest and hardest step. Please keep us posted on your progress.
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Hi Renetta:
How are things going since your last post? Are you feeling better? You said that you really like your therapist, is that still your feeling? How are things going with your husband? I really hope that things are improving, even if it's a little. Small steps are important. I am still wishing the very best for you. I know that things will improve for you. Please give me an update on how things have gone since your last post. I hope that all is calm.
How are things going since your last post? Are you feeling better? You said that you really like your therapist, is that still your feeling? How are things going with your husband? I really hope that things are improving, even if it's a little. Small steps are important. I am still wishing the very best for you. I know that things will improve for you. Please give me an update on how things have gone since your last post. I hope that all is calm.
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I just came from the therapist about any hour ago. things have been up and down but that's life. I got a new dx today O.C.D. I'm just confused and tired. I don't gey any rest and forget about sleeping it's none. I think I damaged a relationship that I just got back with the O.C.D. thing. I"ve been crying a lot because he won't return my text. I just needed someone to talk to but I guess it was to much for him. I didn't want anything else but I think that's what he felt. this person is not my husband but I thought that it was easied talking to him but something happen and all tha changed. I had something to tell him every hour on the hour and it got to be to much i guess. I just can't keep still and I always have to be doing something and he wasn't with that. So that relationship is over for right now. I see the doctor in the therapist office next week to get a handle on my many problems. I told my therapist that I didn't want to hurt myself but I really want to be admitted into the hospital so that I can get some rest. but I don't want to be medicated out of my mind just some rest. :-(
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Well I hate that someone has had you feel that way but I want you to know that there are always people you can talk to. I think it is better to talk to friends or family than some guy who obviously doesn't care enough about you to be supportive anyway. He is the problem here, not you, so please don't beat yourself up. Keep us posted on how your'e doing.
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I really do think that I'm blessed to have this site with people like u guys on it. i had a long talk with my husband last night and he told me the reason why he's been so quite with me was because he didin't know how to help me and he just wanted to fix it and he can't. I told him that i understand how he feels and just don't stop talking to me because I didn't know what was going on with him. I guess things with him will get better since I know what's on his mind now. everybody just stoped talking to me and I was confused. It made my whole problem worst when what I'm going through already is a lot. My husband asked me if I wanted to go back to school so that I could have something to do. I'm thinking about but I don't want to fail because I have a lot on my mind. %-)
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I am really glad that your husband understands that talking to you is helpful. Men always think that they have to fix things but they don't. They can just be there for you and listen to you, and I'm glad that you made it easier for him to understand you.
On the subject of failure--don't fear failure. That's always going to keep you from doing what you want to do. If you fail, at least you tried. If you fear it, you'll never succeed.
On the subject of failure--don't fear failure. That's always going to keep you from doing what you want to do. If you fail, at least you tried. If you fear it, you'll never succeed.
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I had a very bad time last night. I just sometimes get this feeling in the pit of my stomach and I can't handle it. My whole body start to shake and that's it for the night. I see the doctor in the therapist office in 2 weeks and I hope that I can get something to calm me down. If not I really want to go into the hospital for a while. No one thinks sthat it's a good ideal but I do. sometime the feel make me just want to cut myself up so that the pain will stop. I'm in pain today because of last night. I just hate that feeling and I want something to be done about it. :'( :-( %-)
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Those are REALLY serious emotions that should be addressed IMMEDIATELY. If YOU feel that you need to go to the hospital, then go. In this case, it doesn't matter what others think. If you are feeling like you want to hurt yourself, you must go and you must ask to see a counselor at the hospital. PLEASE do this. This is an immediate problem that should not be ignored. People need you and love you. Please go. Please update me when you are feeling up to it. I am rooting for you.
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hey m happy for your patchup!!! thing have resolved,now since you have got a 2nd chance,be xtra cautious with your relations...try to understand more and expect less thats how you keep your relatoins alive!!!!
last night you just had an anxiety attack,you are deppresed coz things are turning out to be realy weird......m telling you its a normal response,and it happens to all dear!!! dont think much about wat happened,get yourself buzy,coz more you think more you worry and its affecting your health....have faith dear,and be strong!!!!! getting yourself hospitalized is not a good idea i think,it will make other think dat you are sick,and they will treat you that way...and you are not sick!!! think yourself do you realy need to go to hospital
plz keep in touch
last night you just had an anxiety attack,you are deppresed coz things are turning out to be realy weird......m telling you its a normal response,and it happens to all dear!!! dont think much about wat happened,get yourself buzy,coz more you think more you worry and its affecting your health....have faith dear,and be strong!!!!! getting yourself hospitalized is not a good idea i think,it will make other think dat you are sick,and they will treat you that way...and you are not sick!!! think yourself do you realy need to go to hospital
plz keep in touch
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I am just checking on you. I hope that you feel better today. Do you? Every day is a new opportunity and with each day comes positive events. Try to focus on the good things of today. Go with that and find positive ways to participate in the day. I hope that this advise helps you every day. I wish you the very best. Take care :-)
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today was a great day. I think that I've figured something out. I'm not sure how to look it up on the computer but I've notice that since I've been taking provera for the first 14 days of the month that's when I start to feel that feeling of not being able to control myself. I knew that I needed help with the ptsd because I really want to be able to have a relationship with my father because I really don't hate him because something had to be going on with him to do something like that. Back to the provera I started taking it on the 1st of june and in a couple of day the feeling was right there. I will talk to my ob/gyn about that but she told me in the begining that she was giving that so that my period would come on because with out them it don't. I tried the bioidenical hormone but it didn't work at all but I just can't deal with the provera. Can you check and send me a link or something.Thanks :-D :-D :-D
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