Right, I just turned 18, 6'7 on the stages of getting fit. The reason why I tell you this, is so that if its affecting my dilemma I can understand it better. PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS EXPLAINS MY WHOLE SEXUAL STORY! I'm not very good at getting the point down and I tend to waffle but if you can pick the waffle out and help me, I would very much appreciate! At the age of about 13 I've wondered about touching my self, and I have been rubbing the head of my penis and I've noticed that i have a sensitive area on my penis that if I relentlessly rub, I lose control of my ability to hold back whatever the build up is and it comes out.....as urine. Now the first time I laughed it off thinking that it's still new ill try it in the shower with soap, which gave the same results. A bit worried I researched on stuff like how to orgasm until I came to a post saying that I just need to let my body go. However since I realised that rubbing the top of my penis brings about something that I didn't quite enjoy I changed how I did things by gripping my shaft and slowly moving up and down, or I only using the tip of my fingers with my thumb rubbin one side ( closest to your stomach/body) and my four fingers going along the bumpy looking parting the looks like it connects my scrotum ( please excuse the crude description but I'm sure you know what I'm on about) and I found that letting my upper body go but clenching my thigh and calves brings about my orgasm. And to this day I still do that. Then almost 10 months ago just after a lonely valentines day as I've never had a girlfriend, I met this beautiful amazing girl of my dreams who I fell deep and love with and she loves me just as much!!! In the first 3 months we spoke about sex and our little activities, basically opening to each other and building our relationship. Obviously we didn't just talk about sex. I was still a virgin at 17 (not that I cared, I was waiting for the right person, which I did) and I found out that my girlfriend was not a virgin but she had had really bad experience with sex with her previous boyfriends. So I was a little scared about my first time and then I also realised about my dilemma, but feeling a deep connection with my girl, I opened up to her and spoke to her about it explaining it all. It was after that we decides that we wanted to try sex for the first time in our relationship, so I took her out to chiquitos (Mexican restaraunt) and we had a good time, we walked to my home (nobody was there as I bought my family tickets to watch ice age at the time we would be home) and we chatted and cuddled on my sofa and the love hormones did their bit and we made love. I was happy a I didn't have this sensitive problem during inter course (considering i was wearing a condom) but when we moved to do oral, and when she gripped and touched the top, I jumped and warned her about it, to which point she smiled and said she understood and continued doing it slowly. It got to the point where I asked her to stop otherwise I will lose control. Months down the line we have enjoyed a rather heavily sexual relationship and we were nth extremely satisfies and we were always up to trying new things, During these months we both have been rubbing the top of my penis in an attempt to stop the effect, but there seems to be not much change. So we now come to today, I still mastubate regularly with and without my girlfriend, and I still find that I still have this dilemma. While I was researching our sexual things, I noticed this website pop up in my recommended, and is poke with my girlfriend and I decided I was going to ask for help/advice from here. Apologies for spelling mistakes I'm Using my ipod at 2330 at night :P any suggestions and explanations would be amazing! Is this sensitiveness permanent? Or can I change it? It's not affecting my relationship in any way, I just want to make sure that if I need or want to I can change this. NOTE: when I was 2-3 years old, I poured some disinfectant on the top of my penis (stupid kids do stupid things) the reason I remember is because of the intense pain. Nobody really knows about this as its quite embarrassing. Would this have affected me? After nearly 16 years?