I was a heavy smoker when I was 19. I quit for 10 years. After 10 years, I took a hit on a couple different occasions and I did experience mild anxiety, but nothing that ever lasted a couple hours. I quit it again for another 10+ years.
I'm 46 now and led a pretty clean life. I don't smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol, eat very little sugar, gluten frre and dairy free. I recently had 3 buldging discs in my neck and radiculopathy running down my left arm. I can't take opiates for pain so I tried to manage using Excedrin. It wasn't helping at all. If anything it was hurting my liver. I was taking 6 Excedrin a day just to cope with the pain. So I tried using just CBD oil. It kind of helped but it wasn't enough. I read that you need THC along with the CBD to effectively help pain. So I got a MM card and bought a single joint of a strain that was supposed to help pain. I took 1 puff each day for 2 weeks then eventually upped it to 4 puffs (micro bat) per day. I was pain free. I was able to go to PT , do exercises, and I resolved the 3 dics and radiculopathy without needing surgery. So after 2 months ( 1 joint) I quit. I was fine for the first 6 days, after the anxiety and panic started setting in. Days 8-10 were horrific. I was dehydrated, nauseous, and went through intense withdrawel symptoms like coming off of benzodiazepines. I had cold sweats, uncontrollable shaking, rapid heartbeat, shallow rapid breathing, burning skin sensations, blurry hazy vision, and insomnia. There were a couple days my urine was dark copper color, I'm assuming dehydration. The symptoms were intense for a week, then would ease for a week, then intensify the following week. The symptoms cycled weekly. I just suspected I had gerd along with anxiety and things should clear up. I eat healthy, drink a lot of water, took omega 3 suppliments, detox teas, lavender oil, frankensce oil, lemon grass oil, no coffee or sugar.
Its 65 days later and I still feel horrible. My vision is still blurry. Even though its technically impossible, I still feel high non-stop. I started taking .20 mg of Meletonin to help me sleep at night and slightly boost Seritonin. It helps with sleep and kind of took the edge off the panic attacks.
I've had mild improvement since I quit. I can deal with the constant sedated feeling, but the anxiety, nausea, and physical symptoms are taking a toll and its hard to keep "sanity". I just keep telling myself its anxiety and it's all in my head. It doesn't help that I deal with this all by myself....no real support system. Guess my next step is to go to the doctor and run a panel of tests to make sure my liver, kidneys, gallbladder are working, and my vitamin levels are ok. Need to rule out underlying medical issues. If everything comes back normal then I'll know my brain chemistry is out of balance.
I'm happy that MM helped me avoid surgery and got me through the pain, but I regret ever taking it due to the side effects. I can only guess the symptoms are caused from MM being so reduculously strong vs the marijuana from back in the day or its chemical residues left behind on the flower. My intent was not to get "high", I only wanted pain relief. Now I only want the horrible physical side effects to go away.
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I've been smoking for roughly 3 years and I was an extremly heavy user. Bong rips all day some times. I'm typically a shy and reclusive person so this was my way to have fun without really going out and doing anything. I noticed the panic attacks were getting worse when my parents came into town and they had planned on staying 3 weeks (I think this may have triggered anxiety because I like being alone in my own house) and since then I have quit. It's been about 6 days now and it has been really really tough. I program for a living, which is nice because I don't have to really deal with people, but it's been hard getting work done due to the massive amounts of anxiety. When i first wake up in the morning is the worst. It's starts in my stomach and over 2 hours it just becomes almost unbearable.
I decided to look into the natural medicine route. I heard promising things about Kava Kava and decided to pick up a bottle of it from Natural Pharm. There are some combinations that can make it more effective (like Chamomile) and I have to say...it actually works. I keep my clonazapam as an "emergency" medication which also helps soothe my mind.
I'm a rare instance, and weed may have not been the culprit. Like I said, I've been dealing with this stuff for years. When I first started smoking 3 years ago I felt like it was the magical medication. i was cutting down on my medication, started working out, got really in shape and then one day the chips fell. I still continued to smoke after that point. Anxiety comes in spikes and normally, at least mine, is associated with being out of control. The OCD on top of it is what fuels the fire so it's a matter of learning what to change.
Looking back on it now, I feel maybe if I go back to a proper diet and excercise may cure my issues again. This is biology so it makes sense.
Either way, don't give up and don't think you won't get a break. Everyone has demons to deal with and sometimes it feels like we got the crappy end of the stick. I look around in jealousy just wishing I could be calm like everyone else, but then I realize: maybe they're not so calm? The don't call it the silent suffer for nothing.
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Everyone has tragedy in their life. Some bottle it up (brain chemistry) and end up reflecting their anxiety through their actions (drugs, reckless behavior, alcohol) and others just can't rid the anxiety and have to deal with it. It's those anxious people that push the hardest in life.
I know it's hard, man, but you WILL make it. Throw yourself into a hobby...be a nerd...play games...HELL...MAKE GAMES! Find a joy you can always pull your mind to in times of worry. I used to always think about coming home and playing EverQuest (think world of warcraft but much older) and for some reason that always helped. Not saying just play video games, but find something that genuinely gives you joy so when you find yourself in the dark, cold depths of anxiety, you have some light to help you come back.
You got this buddy.
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About a year ago I called myself smoking marijuana. I wasn’t being pressured or nothing I just wanted to see what being HIGH felt like. So I kept puffing back to back to back and it went on and on after I was done I started Galton my friends and I started to feel real funny it’s just a feeling I never felt before and it started with feet to the upper part of my body I couldn’t feel nothing at all so I jumped up screaming because I thought I was about to die , lol I don’t even know what death feels like but I felt as if I was dead . My heart was pounding and I was praying out loud , crying , and trying to call 911 I actually thought I was dead . All along I was high but never knew what it felt like . My cousin told me that that’s who you going to tell your first time especially if it’s loud so I tried it again and I’m the samething happened and it’s like while I’m panicking no one takes me serious and my heart be racing as if I’m about to die . That was my first time experiencing panic attacks !! My second time having one a man that was on pcp came and got in my cousin car while we was at the store and he was acting real strange but at the time we didn’t know he was on drugs he just got in the car and wouldn’t get out and he told my cousin to drop him off somewhere so my cousin took him so the whole drive there he was acting really strange I looked in the back seat and seen him eating a lot cigarette and instantly got scared and said that he was on something and when I said that he started curing at me and I was curising back at him but the whole time he was on pcp and I didn’t know so he pulled a gun or on me and hat when I got scared as if I smoked weed again so I knew then I was panicking real bad but my cousin was scared to we couldn’t talk or nothing we was among eye contact Or text through our phones he was telling me to just be quiet and agree to everything he say because he’s on pcp . Every since that day I been having panicking attacks everyday of my life and I regret smoking weed but that was god letting me know I need to get my life together yes I regret that deeply but you I’ve and you learn and that changed my life forever because every day my heart is racing and I’m crying and panicking for no reason . I hate this so bad and wish it could go away!!!
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