Depersonalisation and anxiety after smoking marijuana

i actually had something like that ..

but mine was different , i bought some coke ( the best i ever had ) and i was chillin with my friends at night , drinking some whisky and i did only 4 lines and i was cool for some time , but suddenly , i started feeling my heart racing, thinking all the time about it, short breath,  and i was " wtf ? " . i walked a bit to calm down and for that day it calmed down.
next day , in the afternoon i did the same thing , without whisky this time , and i started feeling the same things with some dizziness when i put up , i had to calm down for a while so i can went home .
in the night ( i already had in my head the thinking of no im not doing it this night ) , i went to the home of a friend of mine, and we were chillin there ,smokin some joints , so i decided to do some ( just 3 in a space of 1 hour ) . that was the deadline . suddenly i started sweating , heart racing , losing forces , alot of dizziness , like i was totally crazy i was thinking " omg im gonna die, im having a heart attack " i went out to get some fresh air for 3m or so , and i started to feel a little better but hitting in fullforce in my head , feeling the heart, a bit dizzy , so i decided to throw up thinking that it could make me better , i was like 2 hours "bad tripping" . i went home , just drinked some water and went to sleep .
the next 3 days were all ok , smoked some joints with my bros , no problem . in the 3 day , when i came back from school , i always had a habit  , smoke a joint alone at home ( can't be better ehehehe ) .. i don't know what happened , but it happened again .. my mom arrived , and i was moving all around the house, feeling the heart racing ( i was all the time thinking about that ) , with some problems to breath , problems to focus, and i just telled my mom " come with me for a walk , im not to good " , i walked for 20m or so , and it wont pass i was just like , f**k take me to the hospital , we went to the ER and the doc just told me that i was with my heart beat high ( 91 ) and that it was anxiety and prescribed me victan to calm down .. this was 1 week and a half ago , i already did a ECG and nothing , just heartbeat 85 , and i went to another doctor and he told me that it is anxiety and prescribed me propranolol ( beta-blocker ) , since that day i stopped smoking joints and tobacco also, because it makes me feel worse , and i feel just like my mind is all the time thinking in what i have, i have like feelings of panic attacks sometimes ( my hearts starts racing , my breath different, dizziness ... ) , problems to sleep ( some days )  , i dont get out like usually i did , i feel strange in some places like im going to have it again .. 
i would like to hear some oppinions , because this worrys me , im just 16 and i feel that i wont have fun again like i had , my friends are all chillin and i feel awful ..

Life sucks long and short, if you do something you enjoy everyday it won't be long until that sucks too, physical addiction is a lot harder to deal with than a mental addiction, so you should seek as much help as you can, to be honest since I've given up weed I think I only enjoyed 1 tv show since, which was a south park episode..

Go for a run everytime you feel very anxious, thats exactly what I did, now i'd say I was better...

im thinking of going for walk some days, but what i really want is to just smoke tobacco i only ask that. i don't ask weed or hash , just tobacco .. but i can't do that also because it is a stimulant and brings anxiety since i suffer from it ... its a sh*t i tell you ..

I have been smoking every day for the past 2 weeks now and I am feeling fine. A little anxiety, sure, but f**k it. There is nothing wrong with any of you in this forum, it is all a mind game. You just have to think positive and face your fears, that is what is helping me. You aren't going to die or develop a serious mental disorder. It just won't happen. Everything is starting to fade for me now and it is because I am saying f**k it and I am living my life. Just live your life even though it may seem really hard at times. Why run away from a fear of smoking weed? I am really starting to enjoy it again, so why would I stop? If a traumatic experience happens, you don't run away scared because that makes it worse. I say get high, sit down where you can think about anything and just tell yourself that nothing bad will happen because nothing will happen. If I would have continued my break from marijuana I would have been more frightened than ever if I had decided to smoke in the future. Why stop smoking after a real bad experience? That just shows fear and increases fear. So what if you panic, you're not going to die, its just an uncomfortable feeling that is harmless. It gets easier and easier. Now I am able to get high and sit around with little anxiety. It has gotten so much better since I have decided start again. I appreciate everyone's advice, but I am a smart guy and I am just going to continue doing what I am doing and enjoy myself.

man you are really strong i tell you , i would like to think like you , for sure ...

but didn't you have problems with sleeping? during the day didn't you felt like a bit dizzy from nowhere and problems to breath ? its just that i want to know to feel more secure .. btw im going today do a check-up with my med to see if is everything allright

oh, and didn't you felt some dizziness when smoking tobacco ( or weed , whatever ) the first times ( like anxiety , heart racing a bit , short breath, your head a bit strange ) ?

i just want to get sure of it , because if it is all a mind game , im gonna pass through it and start smoking again ..

p.s. sorry the bad english , im portuguese btw xD

It's all 100% a mental thing, I think people can suffer mental disorders from weed depending on what paths you take your brain in whilst high, you might be delusional when ur high, which makes the road to recovery harder, because U have to separate the facts from fiction.

The best ways to get high is you should have a ritual/routine like it says on HALF BAKED and stay away from people coz there are alot of buzz killers out there...

Watch movies something light, not too emotional...

Yeah, I still have problems. I still have problems going to sleep and I still have shortness of breath. You just have to think, once you go to sleep you are breathing normally obviously. It is only when you are awake, you create a bunch of negative thoughts and you are just lying there doing nothing which brings back anxious thoughts. That is what happens to me. I notice that if I am really tired, I just pass out. When I am high, I do think about anxious thoughts all the time. But, It is getting much better than it was before. The more you smoke weed and enjoy yourself, the more you won't even think about anxiety any more. The first few times were frightening, but you get used to it. It almost felt like starting to smoke weed all over again.

    I'm a little late replying, but...

Thanks, I appreciate your reply. I am going to see my doctor again in a month. I have already had my heart tested and a physical. I am waiting for blood tests to come back currently. I am going to ask to see a psychiatrist when I see my doctor again.

I smoked my first full 3.5g baggy in 6/7 months over the weekend, I put a movie on laughed and enjoyed it, I was expecting to get sooo high like when you first ever smoke weed, but it wasn't like that at all, what i've realized is important is a cold glass of water, the only time I felt anxious was straight after I had a hot cup of tea...

I have tons of munchy food, when you're eating and focus on the T.V., it can only result in pleasure, I also notice I am actually happier and funnier on weed also, when i'm sober I can't think straight with weed something comes in my head and I do it, resulting in alot of laughs and this has lasted a few days after I've smoke it aswell, so when I next feel sh*t again I just smoke me some weed..

I forgot to tell you when I was having my anxiety attacks I lost my appetite, completely, so i think I'm on a winner now I have it back, I'm not gonna smoke every-day, but defiantly more regularly..

anybody reading this give up weed for a few months then you'll enjoy it again..

I hear you there.

Dude I know where you're coming from (I didn't read exactly what entailed in your story but I got the same effects). About what 2 1/2 months ago I suffered one crazy ass trip while high (almost like an external panic attack where I had no physical affects (that I can remember)) and then a week later had a panic attack, but only felt depersonalized/de-realized after the panic attack. But I've always suffered from a low lying depression, which got better once I found a great girl. Long story short, we break up and I drop into a severe depression which I denied until I was subject to the panic attack and trip. But yeah, what I'm trying to say is that weed does not directly cause a mental disorder (unless you're already on the verge/ pre-disposed like schizophrenia), but it just brings out the problems you do have in life because you start thinking about them, and sometimes they freak you out so terribly. But you're exactly right, you gotta face your fears, because that's all they are, just fears. And having a mental disorder isn't the end of the world, it doesn't mean anything is wrong with you, it's just the way God made you. But for me, I went on a super messed up 2 months just questioning everything and fearing that I would go crazy and start hearing and seeing c**p. But hey, it never happens, and I'm actually gonna go smoke with my awesome buddies tomorrow(tonight) to go face that fear of smoking again, because I know that's where my last bit of anxiety stems from. 

I found a way to naturally beat cannabis anxiety that I had for about a year.  In my experience the key was strengthening the adrenal glands which are important for the bodies response to stress / anxiousness.  The best way to do this is using a natural vitamin C product every day like acerola cherry power, amla berries, or kiwi, etc.  Synthetic vitamin C (ascorbic acid) that's sold in most stores didn't do much for me when I tried it a while ago.  Pantothenic acid would also be helpful. 

Hi Wardzig.

Hope someone can help you? You seem to me to be rather together and well on your way to becoming a successful psychologist who will truly understand on a personal level many of the issues your clients are facing.

Your experience with marijuana is not abnormal and quite regular for people with a history of trauma. People begin using marijuana thinking it's nothing but a euphoric escape from reality. This is not really Use but Abuse. As the french poet Charles Baudelaire stated "The brain on marijuana will never deviate from its predestined disposition nor be driven to madness. Marijuana is a mirror of man's deepest thoughts, a magnifying mirror it's true, but only ever a mirror."

You are going about things the right way, make sure you control your dosage and expect that, on occasion, cannabis can induce a temporary psychotic state, or, perhaps a magnified illustration the trauma you carry around with you. This is not necessarily a bad thing so long as you don't slip back in to abuse of marijuana, using it to try to escape from your problems, you've learned now that marijuana will not let you escape permanently. You are becoming an adult, marijuana is a drug, like alcohol, but perhaps a good degree safer, it will not solve your problems, but may provide a temporary alternative vantage point you may use to assess yourself.

I do twice a week, usually small dosages. I would recommend using marijuana in a safe place where you're allowed to be paranoid if you like. Take peer pressure out of the equation until you become comfortable with the rhythms of your paranoia.

Best

Bryan

Thanks for the reply man. I am doing a lot better. My depersonalisation is going away little by little, I can tell. It is still there because the anxiety is still there but it's slowly going away I think. I am going to see a therapist so I can get some help though, I think talking about it and opening up is something I need to do.