Hi my names mark and I’m 15 about to be 16 and I’ve read a lot of peoples experiences and I’ve had some similar and different but for me I see to have a distorted view of the world and my life everyday some better than others but some are worse it all started because I started to smoke marijuana a couple times a month maybe a couple a week but after like 2 months or less I was up late the night before a trip to Reno and smoked really strong stuff that I’ve been using and started with and I had a panic attack so I went to sleep so I didn’t have to feel that it felt like being drunk but without the nausea and then the next day I drank a cup of milk that was in coffee and Found out that I got sick because sick because I was lactose intolerant and had a miserable ride to Reno then I had a panic attack in Thebes lobby and in the arcade then when I got home it’s stayed the same the feeling never went away and now I feel a bit better but I think that when I smoked that night I had taken my ADHD meds called methylphenidate and that could have been a cause but now I feel a bit better and told myself that I never want to smoke again but now I feel like I do want to but I not want to ruin my good feelings and go back to square one all I want to know is how can I deal with this and can smoking again bring back these feeling or help them i just can’t live with some of this like I always get scared about ever going to travel to far from home and I start rambling and can’t remember where I was going with it then I seem to not be able to remember things much and I can’t even think about traveling or my trip to Reno which I can’t stop thinking about and it’s been almost 2-3 months now and I want to try smoking again only if it can help me if not then never again any tips or ideas
Start running or biking regularly and you will feel better.