My hemorrhoid was not really that bad. It was internal but had prolapsed and was swollen,it was big, but not too painful. It started as a minor irritation one morning at work. My job wouldn't let me go home and by the end of the day it was the size of a golfball hanging out. I had the next 3 days off, so I know 4 days of taking it easy while it was only at the irritated stage would have kept it from blowing up like it did, if they had just let me go home. Anyway, the doctor suggested surgery for the next morning. I was not told it was as excrutiatingly painful as it was, i would rather die than feel that again, and I was not told that it would be as disfiguring as it was, i have all kinds of lumps, even on my inner buttcheeks, and flaps of skin hanging off, i seriously don't think i can have sex again it's so hideous. I also wasn't told how long recovery was. I have lost my job, my car, my apartment and my phone because I missed 3 weeks of work, unpaid. I thought a few days to recover at the most. If i could take it all back, I'd rather have hemorrhoids that swelled all the time than to have to gone through this surgery. It was the worse decision I've ever made in my life.
I had just had my hemorrhoidectomy operation last Nov. 22, 2008. I decided on it right after I had my consultation with the general surgeon and that was 3 days prior to the operation. I did not hesitate to undergo the operation because I got worried or scared when the doctor told me that if I will not have it remove, conditions like mine which already bleeds a lot everytime I make BM are sometime the cause of rectal cancer... I am 45 years young ( ;-) ). I had already undergone a kidney transplant operation which lasted for 7 years. I am back to dialysis since then which was last May. I m on dialysis mostly twice a week. I am always anemic and no matter how much Recormon or blood hormone I inject my self, including (sometimes) blood transfusion, still my hemoglobin easily depletes. One of the reason, we suspect was the cause of bleeding everytime I made BM during my hermorrhoidectomy period. Other than the blood, it was not that serious as their was no pain and the tissue that protrude can be manually pushed back (also, it was not that big). I guessed I got this during that time (about 2years agor) when I had chronic diarrhea due to that maximum steriod that I was taking at that time. I remember my nephrologist prescribed to me 60mg per day of steroid, I believe that how it all started. He did that to try to save my rejecting (transplanted) kidney.
Anyhow, I did not regret the hemorrhoidectomy operation. Contrary to what some poeple told me about about the pain and other complications from post-surgery that actually resulted to my worry about the effect after the surgery (I was not exactly afraid of the operation itself but the post-operative effect)... Thank God in my case, there was no pain at all except for very minor discomfort on the 2 succeding days. I also did the hot seat bath which I find very helpful. Also, I put the cream everytime I make my BM, after bath and hot seat bath. On the 3rd day I was already on my feet and practically. I was back to normal activities. The only minor pain which is controlable was that everytime I cough it create some kind of very mild pain on that operated area itself but after 4 days everyting seems to be normal and no more pain!...
The only dissapointment is the appearance and feel. Before, whenever I clean my anus it was smooth to the touch and (no malaise aside ) it also look alright. But now, there is one small flesh hanging just outside the ring of my anus and there seem to be a cut on the side. I do not like it. I feel hurt, why on earth the doctor did not even considered putting it back properly and aesthetically, if this is possible? I am hurt, I wonder if I could still be intimate with my bf. It really does not show that much but hey why that abnormality. ... I thought after the surgery the appearance would even be better.... Anyhow, I am going back to the surgeon and ask him (respectfully) why it became like that and if its possible to rectify it. Although, it is another expense for me but what can I do. Sometimes, I do not understand my feeling, sometimes I am thankful with that surgeon but sometimes I am upset with him. I feel like, he did not do a good job at least on that part.
Anyhow, I did not regret the hemorrhoidectomy operation. Contrary to what some poeple told me about about the pain and other complications from post-surgery that actually resulted to my worry about the effect after the surgery (I was not exactly afraid of the operation itself but the post-operative effect)... Thank God in my case, there was no pain at all except for very minor discomfort on the 2 succeding days. I also did the hot seat bath which I find very helpful. Also, I put the cream everytime I make my BM, after bath and hot seat bath. On the 3rd day I was already on my feet and practically. I was back to normal activities. The only minor pain which is controlable was that everytime I cough it create some kind of very mild pain on that operated area itself but after 4 days everyting seems to be normal and no more pain!...
The only dissapointment is the appearance and feel. Before, whenever I clean my anus it was smooth to the touch and (no malaise aside ) it also look alright. But now, there is one small flesh hanging just outside the ring of my anus and there seem to be a cut on the side. I do not like it. I feel hurt, why on earth the doctor did not even considered putting it back properly and aesthetically, if this is possible? I am hurt, I wonder if I could still be intimate with my bf. It really does not show that much but hey why that abnormality. ... I thought after the surgery the appearance would even be better.... Anyhow, I am going back to the surgeon and ask him (respectfully) why it became like that and if its possible to rectify it. Although, it is another expense for me but what can I do. Sometimes, I do not understand my feeling, sometimes I am thankful with that surgeon but sometimes I am upset with him. I feel like, he did not do a good job at least on that part.