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My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 1-2 years. We began living together 4 months into our relationship and two months later I became pregnant. We were both happy and planned on keeping it until he told his mom. He switched up his entire attitude and accused me of trying to trap him. So his mother payed for my abortion. My boyfriend is not my first sexual partner he is my 4th. I openly told him about how I had sex once on ecstasy when I was 20 but it wasn't a great experience. I told him that in the beginning of our relationship because he made me feel as if I could express anything to him and he wouldn't judge me. Well I found out I was pregnant around July 9th 2013. We were happy and living rent free with his mom and going to school. We planned on keeping the baby and told all our friends and family members. He even proposed to me. But with his proposal he told me he will never be able to get over my sexual past. While I was pregnant he became distant emotionally. He started asking me degrading questions over and over and I got fed up and told him I was unhappy. He said he can not get the image of me having sex three years ago on a drug out of his mind. I felt that he would never get over it and why should I marry a man that I feel is judging me on something that occures before we were together. He signed up for counseling and therapy but I had signed him up 6 months prior and he never went. But not he wanted to go when he realized I was sick of him. I felt that he wasn't trying to change. We went to the fair and he was just distant all day and it made me question if I wanted to be with him. My sister kept telling me he isn't right for me and just putting doubt in my head. I began hating him. I now realize it was just my raging hormones So I planned on breaking up with him and having an abortion. I told him that I was getting it done for Tuesday on a Sunday night he begged and pleaded and cried for me to not kill our baby I became so cold hearted towards him. The only person who truly loved me and supported me. I kept texting and calling telling me not to kill our baby and I did out of my anger towards him. I got the abortion on 8-13-13 I regretted it about 5 hours later. I wish I would have kept my baby. I don't want to break up. I miss him and my baby I should have given him a chance to change. I want to be pregnant more than ever now. I wake up crying I am very sad by the loss. His friends and family hate me now for what I did. They don't want him around me but we still hang out everyday and I love him more than ever now. I want to get pregnant as soon as possible. I regret my mistake.

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