Failed Surgical Abortion

I feel so devastated it's just so annoying my partner forced me to kill the baby I am going through mixed emotions he ain't emotionally supportive at all he says what's the big deal sick of trying to be normal ended up smoking and he has a problem with that don't know how to handle the situation I feel if I couldn't protect the purest bond between me and my child what else will I ever do I hate myself so much for what I did I wake up and cry in the middle of the night and say please get me my baby this state of me really disappoints me I feel pity on myself perhaps makes me a looser but I guess I didn't try hard enough to keep it alive though I never had an option but how should I get rid of that feeling it killse every second of my life . All of you take care

Hey girls, like all of you I had an abortion exactly a week from yesterday! I have always been against abortions and I have a 9 month old so I know first hand how amazing it is to have an baby.. I cried for a week straight before I made the decision to have an abortion then another week sreight before I got it done. I had it a week ago and I feel the strongest I have ever been.. I will always hold a special spot in my heart for that baby!! I still stand tall and believe I made the right decision for myself esp my son, I understand how you all are feeling I do have my moments how I wish I didn't get it done. I want to say that you all are very strung ladies we all are we made the hardest decision to protect our "child" im so proud of everyone no matter what or why you had the abortion for!!

I had an abortion done 2 years ago.. My now fiancee held my hand through it all.. And it wa a lot.. I was in college in a different city but was gettin it done in my hometown (Nola).. By the time I had my date set and could be home I do the abortion I was 10 weeks. They told me it would be fine.. And the odds of somethin going wrong.. I guess I was that one in whatever the statistic is. I didn't want that abortion but We were scared. I loved my baby an I prayed every night he would forgive me. I went it and got it done. The people were soo nice. I went home and it was fine the first two weeks. Some bleeding and mild cramps.. No big deal I suffer from heavy bad periods.. By the end of the second week. The cramps got much worse.. The bleeding was comin out in large clots the size of 5in long pancakes pretty much. I would lay in bed and not be able to move except rock myself to sleep and lay in a hot hot bath(although they said not to) it was the ony thing that helped and even then I thought I was dying and God was punishing me. It was a month after the first abortion that I went back for my check up. I was still pregnant.. I tried to reassure the other girls I was in the waitin room with that it wasn't that bad and they would be ok.. When I went back in for the second operation I was hurting so bad I cried just from them opening my vagina.. I screamed through the whole thing and I'm one that usually handles pain with a straight face an a smile.. It was horrible.. And the grief that followed me for the next year and a half was worse than all the physical pain combined. 2 years later I think I'm finally back to normal although I have this constant want for a baby ever since..

I had a surgical abortion 10 day ago and deeply regret this so much feel very upset an emotional i was 10 weeks gone but still feel pregnant as I have no bleeding cramps or pain is this normal ? Can any help

daisy you should of giving your baby for adoption instead of aborting tjeir is alot of people that would take your baby i would of God bless you i hope you still are

Can I just say thank you to all you woman out there who have written on this site it has helped so much. I had a surgical abortion at 12 weeks pregnant 2 days ago. I didn't know I was pregnant until I was 11 weeks pregnant- I had missed my periods but the doctor said it was due to stress because I'm a 19 year old student trying to work my way through a full time university degree with no help. I took numerous pregnancy tests and they all came back negative at first until I experienced extreme morning sickness while at my boyfriends house and was taken straight to a clinic were they confirmed I was. The next day I was referred straight to the hospital and they told me I was 11 weeks and that I would need surgical and if I wanted the procedure I needed to do it in a few days or otherwise I couldn't have it done at all, the date was non negotiable it was now or never. Due to being told this I freaked, I have no money being a student and live off toast and beans trying to feed myself and only got pregnant due to failed contraception. As soon as I told my boyfriend he told me to abort, he said he was going back home 3000 miles away to help his sick mum who only had months to live. Feeling a lack of support I was lost with no family to turn to, I was alone. It came to the day so soon without having time to think about it and as I knew there was no support, money or time to wait about I went through with it. The minute I was taken to the operating theatre they put the general in and before I nodded off I thought to myself 'stop you can't do this but I was paralysed and couldn't speak. I woke up feeling like no time had past yet I knew exactly what had just happened and I went in to shock, it took 4 doctors to calm me down and I need oxygen mask to help me breathe. I'm not sitting at home more lost and confused than ever and all I think is 'I want my baby back' but yet I know I did the right thing it was impossible to raise this baby and adoption wasn't an option, I miss my baby incredibly and nothing in my life any more makes sense without it. I just feel like iim struggling to live without it and I wish so badly more than anything and would give up anything to have it but it was just impossible. I'll love it every single day, but I know I did the right thing as I wasn't mentally prepared or financially stable for her.

Hi i am kind of worried after reading all this.i just had a surgical abortion last friday and i was 9 1/2 weeks far..i had it with sedation..when i woke up i was in pain probably because of the sedation but i also had severe cramps and they gave me antibiotics and pain killers..as soon as i went to change i quite bled and even on my way back home from one train to another i had some blood but the blood eventually stopped and i only had spotting..the next day i only wiped brown blood and even today..i hardly have any cramps at all..slightly..before my procedure they told me blood might increase the day after which wasnt my case do you think the surgery failed? Thankyou

Hi everyone i would just like to share my expierience with you all it is only know a year on i am able to talk about it. I had a surgical termination at 9wks it was the hardest thing i had ever had to do i remember crying even to the point they put me to sleep.. I webt with my mum and boyfriend my mum was open minded and wanted me to make my own mind up as to what to do in the other hand my bf didnt want the baby at all anyway days after i hadnt really bled much at all but during the procedure i had a coil fitted IUD so i assumed it was to do with that the mental side of it was killing me inside i cried and cried told my self i was a murderer and everything anyway 2 weeks on i woke up one morning and was being horrifically sick this went on for 2 days i thought this was just food poisening after the 2 days it had stopped i had no other pregnancy symptoms so i just thought nothing of it.. Couple of weeks down the line i went to my doctors to get my coil check and to my surprise a pregnancy test the nurse did came back positive i told her i must of got preg again she took me straight to the scan room and did i full scan and turned out i was still preg with thr same baby but no longer 9wks i was 18wks we were both amazed i was too scated to llook at the screen i was in bits i didnt know wat to do!!! I had further test to cOnfirm my baby was ok as far as they could see i went on to have a perfect healthy baby girl on 9th oct 11.. The grief and mental side of this will be with me for the rest of my life as my boyfriebd of 2 years ended it as he found out again i was preg and this time there was no way i would ever go thru with it again not at 9wks and certainly not at 18wks we are now back together but i cant stress enough it was the wprst thing iv ever been thru in my life and i regret it deeply i had all the worry for 9months just incase there was anything wrong but i am one very lucky lady!! I just want to let you girls know no matter how hard life is nothing can conpare to my angel and god wanted me to have her i do really feel for all of you reading some of your comments made me cry and we will have to live with it for the reat of our lives but its good to know were not alone and i am here for u all to ask mw questions - i am also going on radio national radio 5live to help women and girls who have been thru or who are thinking of going thru a terminations xxxx thanks for reading x

Hey i am going thru wat u went thru but a lil diff. I had my surgical abortion at 5 weeks on March 31st but because my boyfriend n parents werent supportive n didnt want anything to do wit me or my baby (i wanted to keep it tho) basically i had no support n no place to live or any money at that to live of or get out of NY. I have grandparents who live in FL after my procedure i came out here cuz that was only thing y parents wud help me wit to get me out of their house ( long story short= my mom is evil n my dads an selfish a**hole, n thats being nice). I have been living here since n went to the e.r. June 8th and was told after bloodwork i was pregnant. I hysterically cried n sobbed that was the last thing i expected. I had hernia surgery in my colon a year before my pregnancy so i thought i was sick from that. As well as i was on birth control and have not had sex since the very night before my abortion procedure in March. I feel lik i hav been sh*t in my chest because i went thru that hoping to put it behind me and im not entirely emotionally recovered n wasn't recovered completely from my life in general I struggle with anxiety and bpd (borderline personality disorder if u dont kno look it up). I also thought i didnt get my period after my abortion because i thought birth control was stopping it. I work alot of hours n hav gotten my ged n started college here n got my life together but this is painful. I dont hate my ex bf but i dont lik him he let me down after almost 3 years of seeing me struggle n him as well n helping eachother out in the end he let me down when i needed him most. I also dont know if i am 16 weeks now from the abortion failing or if a new pregnancy formed from surviving sperm (they survive in the vagina for up to 7 days) reimpregnated me because u are extremely fertile after surgical abortion i was told by the people who did my procedure. B4 i left NY my OBGYN put me on birth control but didnt sonogram me b4 i left he thought if i had the procedure i wasn't still pregnant n i was fine. I hav been living here for closer to 3 months unknowingly pregnant but i dont drink or smoke or hav unhealthy habits so i hav been taking care of myself except ofr the birth control but my birth control is newer modern one that is such a low dosage it doesnt cause fetal defects or abnormalities. I am upset my mom wants me to get another abortion but since she is 1400 miles away i told her to p*****f. I told my ex bf he jus graduated n hates my guts cuz he says by havin this baby i am screwing his life away. I dont think it fair to me that i hav been thru enough abuse n hurt my hole life literally to hav to giv up my baby because he wants to party. he needs to grow n hav a reality check not saying we both arent repsponsible for this situation i hav already accepted my part in this but for him to attack me n blame lik its my fault lik i knocked myself? lik it doesnt take two to tango i told him u didnt hav sex wit their is sucha thing as abstinence or condemns we chose to be stupid n irresponsible but u cant say its all my fault. but yea i know what u went thru. i feel lik i am calmer now about everything but i was wreck thinkin y me? y the moment i am starting to forgive and let go i hav more c**p thrown on me? I hav an ultrasound due thursday so ill let u kno.

i am in the same position, they took extra blood from me today after my procedure yesterday to make sure cause they couldn't tell if they got it all at 6 weeks... can u tell me what the outcome was for you? thank you

what happened in the end?cause im goin through the same ive had no pains n bled for a day is it normal then as that was the 1st time n the last x

i had an abortion nearly 3 wks ago was put to sleep had no pain what so ever n a day n half of bleedin still feel very tired n sick waiting till week 4 to do test has anybody else been through this?

I didn't even know I was pregnant, I had taken myself off of birth control because It was making me very sick, I was off of everything for 7 months, I took tests etc all negative. I started a new job so I went back to the clinic and got the injection.

About a month and a half, two months after I was on the injection I felt sick all the time, wierd kind of nausea, the type that comes for no reason and stays all day, I was living on milo and rusks, that's all that would stay down. I had cramps and heartburn. I took a test, and it was positive, second test was negative. Started bleeding, off and on, cramps from hell. I went to the doctor and he said he thought I had had a miscarriage, took blood and confirmed my hormone levels were dropping and not rising, he prescribed me a hormone treatment, to flush the tissue out. I didn't have any follow up visits so a month and I half later I was very sick, worse than while I was pregnant, stayed tired, chest pains, my whole body ached. I told my husband something was wrong, I needed to see a gynea or someone. All the gyneas in port elizabeth were fully booked, so I took achance and went for a scan at an abortion clinic to see if there was anything left in my womb. The scan confirmed, there were still bits and pieces left behind. They told me to go to hospital and have it removed, I went to 3 different hospitals. Spent my entire day waiting for help. Eventually I decided to go back to the clinic and ask them to help me, R1500 rand later and an hour to do the paperwork, discuss procedure and doing procedure with neither painkillers or anesthetic, I was cleaned out. They did another scan of my womb and reported that it was now clean. I am in so much pain right now!!! Its nearly 5 am here, and I'm wide awake. When will it stop hurting? Am I allowed to bath ?

So today I has my first abortion nd it was kinda uncomfortable.. I was 18weeks pregnant and I seen my baby nd my eyes were pouring out tears, cuz for one I don't believe in abortions but I just got my own place nd im already raising my 2yr old daughter anyla,, I was pregnant with another girl, but I couldn't raise another child yet I hope god forgives me...