I understand where you are coming from in your opinion of abortion and I agree with you to a certain extent. I myself did not approve of abortion, and would never do it. But all that changed when I got pregnant, me and my boyfriend have been together for 5 years and plan on getting married. I am 28 and have never been pregnant before and looked forward to having children and a family with the man I love. So you can imagine how happy we were when we found out I was pregnant. I found out when I was 8 weeks. I could not wait, I wanted a little girl and had her name picked out and everything. It took me a few weeks before I could get to a actual obgyn, versus a pregnancy refuge place who confirmed my pregnancy. Anyways at 15 weeks I get to my first obgyn visit, I go in get a pap smear, have blood taken, and they go ahead and give ultrasound that day instead of having to make another appointment because I have transportation issues. So I get my ultrasound, and heat my babies heartbeat for the first time and see it's little face. They tell me the doctor is going to meet with me and talk about the ultrasound. So I'm happier than ever until the dr comes in and tells me that there is extra fluid under the babies skin, I immediately start crying, they tell me I need to see a specialist within the week and they would make the appointment and they couldn't answer my questions, only the specialist could and they didn't know if it was life threatening. I get scheduled for specialist the next day. That night I could not stop crying, and did research online and found the condition to be hydrops. Everything I read was heart wrenching and the outcome was not looking good. I prayed and prayed that everything would be OK when I went to specialist. Unfortunately, the diagnosis was confirmed. And I was told my baby had either down syndrome or Turner syndrome and was very sick and the heart best was already starting to skip a beat. and not expected to live to full term and probably only a few more weeks. I was crushed! They did lab work so I could find out exactly what it was and the sex of the baby. Finally after a long dreaded 10 days I get my results. To find out I was having a little boy, that unfortunately would not make it to this world nor get to hold in my arms, he had down syndrome and trisomy 18 and trisomy 13, he received 3 extra chromosomes of 21, 3 extra chromosomes of 18, 3 extra chromosomes of 13. The birth defects would be mental retardation, failure to feed himself, curled hands and feet, thin and frail, abnormal shaped head, close set eyes, extra fingers and toes and much much more. My financial state is very bad right now and there was no way I would be able to avoid the medical expenses if he did happen to survive, which was a very unlikely chance, and I also could not see myself bringing a baby into this world with all those issues, for that would not be much of a life to live nor could handle him having to suffer his entire life with his issues which in the rarest cases would only be to 1 years old. So I had decided to just wait until he died in the womb, rather than have an abortion and just prayed for a miracle and it would go away. Until I got to thinking of the day I go to the dr and there is no heartbeat, and how traumatic and dramatic that would be, and how that would effect me mentally even more. So me and my boyfriend decided to go ahead and terminate the pregnancy. It was so hard, and emotional for me, because I wanted my baby, but would not get to have him and other people were aborting theirs just because they didn't want to be pregnant, I was heart broken and angry and envious of them all. I kept thinking and still keep thinking how can they be so lucky to have a perfectly healthy baby and not want it and give it up, when I'm here wanting mine but will not get to have him, it is not fair! What did I do, to not be able to have my baby! I had finally gotten pregnant for the first time and was going to get to stsrt my family, just to have my dreams crushed and my chance of being a mom taken from me. I don't believe in abortion at all, but my situation was different and difficult, but I do believe I made the right choice, and it was the most responsible choice, plus on the day of the procedure his size was indicating he was 15 weeks. When I was really 17 weeks 5 days. So I believe he might have already died, and shrinked, although I'm not certain since they did not have it set up to hear a heartbeat nor do I think they checked for one. But I like to think that he was because it makes it some what easier to handle. I am now on my 5th day of recovery from the abortion and started bleeding again, I had only bleed 1 1/2-2 days after procedure. Bit now it's started again but only when I wipe and it's a brownish red. I no longer cry when I see the blood, so I believe I'm starting to accept what was and what is now, but it still gets to me and I break down and cry in private. I don't like to talk about it and won't with anyone really. And I find myself being more blunt and straight forward with people at work when I am asked at w how far along I am now. Or they call me prego, I just say I'm not anymore and walk off as to avoid talking about it and ignoring it. I don't want to hear people say they are sorry and show compassion towards me because it hurts to much. I appreciate their condolences and support but it is just not something I can handle or deal with. I'm trying to just bury my grief and sadness as much as I can and hope it will just go away and I'll forget it all. Me and my boyfriend are going to try again and I will eventually get to be a mom, but as of right now I have no desire to get pregnant right now, out of fear there will be a complication or issue with the next one, and I would not be able to handle that kind of news, nor go through it again. I have just been keeping myself as busy as possible to keep my mind off it all by doing major cleaning when I'm at home, and by picking up extra shifts at work, and putting in applications for a second job. Anything to keep my mind off everything that has happened. So you see abortion has two sides, i feel as though you should not get an abortion to end a pregnancy just because you don't want the baby, but I think it is a option and a good choice to get one if it's due to medical complications. Although the effects that. It has on you is intense, and over whelming and alot to endure, but in those cases it's really your only option and you just have to take things day by day until it gets easier.