An example of my problem sitting down watching tv with my wife for no reason at all get a nudge in my brain hit her now keep in mind no one said a word then i start arguing with my thoughts about hurting her it gets bad enough that it throws me into an anxiety attack and i have to leave home cause i feel like im losing the battle and the nudge is going to win when this happens it scares me very bad and here lately when it happens i get scared of myself any thoughts from ayone would be of great help
Two things you might try. One would obviously see a doctor/therapist but they are going to probably put you on a shitload of medicine that is or may be unnecessary. The second would be to try a diet change for either two or three weeks, gluten is a culprit of many disorders including psychosis if you are willing to try a gluten free diet for the two or three week period and see if that gets rid of the voice in your head. A lot of people are going natural these days with small children in dietary changes instead of therapy/medical help including medicine as a lot of the medicines cause more disturbing thoughts and behaviors then before. Give it a thought and let me know if it helps, hope it does as living this way with a loving wife and the voices telling you to hurt her has to be hard on you mentally and physically as well as her as she is doesn't understand why you keep disappearing for awhile. Good luck