I have no idea and that scares me as well. Next month I’ll be a year off so we aren’t to far apart in quitting times. I know how terrible the feeling is and I truly think I will NEVER go back to feeling the same. I don’t even remember how I used to feel about it! I was seriously a completely different person and the way I would think about things changed significantly. I worry about everything with him and will seriously rehearse in my head how I’m going to break up with him and what I’m going to do and then I think “oh wait but I love him” and it’s a constant battle. I question if he’s attractive or if he would make a good husband and little things about him bother me. This is so terrible and I wish I could fall in love again
I am 16 months off! My symptoms didnt start until about 4 months off the pill tho so about a year iv been feelin anxious and emotional. Its been the worst year of my life. But i hope an pray i am startin to come out the other side now. Its put a real pressure on my marriage. I was constantly questionin an accusing my husband of things, thinkin he was lying an being paranoid. It was horrible. But my husband has been amazin throughout. Im surprised he hasnt left me lol what sorts of things do you worry about?
I worry about if I still feel love for him, if our relationship is going to last, if I find him attractive etc. I worry that I don’t want to spend time with him and I just overall don’t want him for my life partner
Yeah, same for me... It really spikes up my ROCD when i see, for example, tonight i heard that a youtube couple i follow that have been together for like 8 years just split up... And like, it makes me question everything. Do you girls think this is truly the pill that makes us feel this way? Im scared! I wish I could just wait and feel better eventually but Im scared that I have this forever and have to learn to live with it. I cant live with it anymore...
I hope it’s not something that we will have to live with forever because I think it’s impossible to be with someone forever that you feel so distant from. I really just want to feel in love again it’s like so exhausting trying to feel if there is any type of love there and there never is.
Won’t have to live with forever *
Hi ladies, I have felt nervousness in my stomach all day. It's strange, I still have trouble with intrusive thoughts but they have been a bit easier to brush off lately however, i feel so nervous for no particular reason. THIS WILL END, we have got to remain positive in order to aid our recovery.
In May I’ll be 1 year off so I’m coming close to that mark. I go through weeks of sanity and then about a week or so of feeling low. The ROCD thoughts are always there but sometimes they are much faint then others. I think the worst is just feeling such a disconnect for so long. Like it almost feels like he’s my friend and I don’t have that romantic love with him anymore. Idk I just hope for better days and I don’t lose encouragement because I know one of my favorite girls from another forum dealt with this for 17 months and now she is okay. the one thing that worries me is that in 5 months I still won’t feel okay and then I won’t know what to look at because usually this stops within the first year.
Hi my loves, I’ll be a year off in June so I’m on month 10. I feel a lot better, I’m happier and less anxious. I do still have intrusive thoughts but they don’t bother me as much and they are not as intense. So I’m learning how to not focus on them or laugh at it. Trust me at one point this was not the case. This past year has been a nightmare. But praise God I’m almost back to my normal self. Yes, set backs do come and go but I longer beat myself up over it cause I cannot help that. I can not control was has happened or what may happen I can only change how I react to it. Real quick things that have helped: meditation, Naturopath/herbalist, prayer, CBT, exercise, paleo diet, knowing that I’m a overcomer and can beat this and this thread. My heart and soul goes out to all of y’all. Im just about fully recovered and did not go on antidepressants or anxiety meds. That was a personal choice. Trust everything you have thought or felt or struggled with I’ve been there. And it sucks !!!!!!!! Prayers for y’all . I was only on bc for 5mo and was on 2 different kinds during that period. All of my physical symptoms vanished about 2mo ago. But the ocd has definitely been the toughest to deal with. It’s like I had to rewire by brain.
What type of symptoms do you feel? I’ve been off for almost a year and I think I’m having a set back. I felt great last month so this is discouraging. I think I really just have good and bad days.
My physical symptoms were: ovarian cyst, acne, no libido, no energy, dizziness, joint pain, nausea, problems with my eyes. And then of course depression, anxiety, ocd, mood fluctuations. And I had months where I felt good then a month where I felt bad.
How long have you been off what's your ocd like everyday
10 mo off and it’s hard to explain. Mines not rocd like others here even though I’m in a committed relationship. Mine is religious ocd, I’m a Christian and that’s where my ocd focuses on. And it tends to be more feelings or sensations that I’ve done something wrong versus thoughts. But I have ocd thoughts too at times.
I’m so glad to find this thread! I went off of Trinessa in January, and became a completely different person. Severe depression, lack of motivation on top of many other issues. My husband and I hardly even talk anymore since I’ve had these issues. I feel like I’m losing my marriage, my career and everything from going off of the pill. It was at its worst last month, and so I decided to get back on the pill last week, and I’m already feeling back to myself. I know it’s probably not the right decision, but I didn’t want to lose my marriage! I actually laughed and smiled today, which I forgot what that felt like. I don’t even know who to go to to get help, because all the doctors do is give Rx for your symptoms.
Hello everyone, I'm on here for a different reason than most of you but I am hoping to find some encouragement or insight from those of you that have been through this. My girlfriend is going through this after coming off of birth control about 2 months ago. She is normally super happy and nothing can bring her down but now she is depressed and acts very distant at times. It has gotten way worse in the last 3 weeks For example she wouldn't even hold my hand when I was driving to my family's Easter. (I know its a really small thing to notice but it was very noticeable.) She has said a few times that she wants some space because of how bad she is feeling. In the past whenever she has been sad she needs me to be with her and make her feel better but now I feel like I'm the very thing making her sad. She wants space because she feels like she is hurting me too much. She says things like:
I'm not sure I can do this anymore
You are too good for me
I feel like I'm crazy
I don't deserve you
I've done a little bit of research on all of this birth control stuff and found that it could be coming from the hormonal imbalances. She is becoming very depressed and very distant. She says that she has a lot of anxiety and doesn't know why. Whenever I think that things are getting better they get worse. This weekend I didn't see her at all by her choice and we have hardly talked at all.
I want to give her the space that she is asking for but I also want her to know that I love her deeply and I am here for her. She will not see a doctor or anyone about the depression and she has hardly told any of her friends how she is feeling. I don't know what to do and I feel like when I give her space that she is just slipping away from me and that kills me. Sorry for ranting but I'm hoping that by telling you all what is going on that you can help me come to terms with what I should or shouldn't be doing.
Thanks so much and to those of you out there dealing with this, always remember that your loved ones want nothing more than to be there for you and to help you through this.
I'm not sure I can do this anymore
You are too good for me
I feel like I'm crazy
I don't deserve you
I've done a little bit of research on all of this birth control stuff and found that it could be coming from the hormonal imbalances. She is becoming very depressed and very distant. She says that she has a lot of anxiety and doesn't know why. Whenever I think that things are getting better they get worse. This weekend I didn't see her at all by her choice and we have hardly talked at all.
I want to give her the space that she is asking for but I also want her to know that I love her deeply and I am here for her. She will not see a doctor or anyone about the depression and she has hardly told any of her friends how she is feeling. I don't know what to do and I feel like when I give her space that she is just slipping away from me and that kills me. Sorry for ranting but I'm hoping that by telling you all what is going on that you can help me come to terms with what I should or shouldn't be doing.
Thanks so much and to those of you out there dealing with this, always remember that your loved ones want nothing more than to be there for you and to help you through this.