I have a question, do you think since I developed ROCD while on the pill and now have it 1 year off the pill, I will just have this forever? I almost feel as if it’s not ROCD now just because of how long I’ve had it but there has to be a reason why I stay in my relationship. If I really didn’t love him wouldn’t I just leave ??
I’ve only had anxiety. Ever since i can remember and i was diagnosed with GAD my senior year but i think i was in such a bad position everything scared me. It wouldn’t ever control me from having fun and loving people though. I have been with my wonderful boyfriend for over a year. We were in love freshman year and dated but he moved so we broke up. He moved back and I know i loved him the whole time he was gone. Now we live together and still are in love! I started nexplanon in december of last year. Everything was fine for about a month but then i started spotting a lot. We ended up moving into our own place and i was stressed but still so in love with him. I also worked two jobs and it really stressed me out. I started to get the very anxious feelings again but like times 10. Everyday i would argue with him over the dumbest things and i didn’t know why i was like that with him. I would cry constantly everyday and would be close to having panic attacks. I felt hopeless. I felt like nothing really mattered. It was so sad to feel like that. I didn’t want my boyfriend to be with me because i knew i made him sad even when he wouldn’t admit it. I ended up figuring out that maybe my depressed anxious self was from my birth control. It had to be! I ended up finding a bunch of girls with the same symptoms. I called my doctor and she told me these feelings were normal for about 3 months. I stayed til the 3 month mark but was so down and hopeless i got it out. The month after i felt so much better! No more fighting arguing everything was good until i got my first period. I got it a month later. I had a question in my head. “Do i love my boyfriend?” I FLIPPED OUT. i couldn’t handle that thought. From then on it escalated to the point where i couldn’t look at him because i felt like i couldn’t recognize him. I think that was just a way to cope with the feeling. I cried constantly feeling crazy that i fell out of love and what if he dies and what ever happens when we die???? blah blah blah. I felt like that feeling would never ever go away. I felt like we wouldn’t ever have our love back together. It ended up fading away. That feeling of doubt. Until i just got my period again. It’s not as bad but still hurts. the thoughts hurt. I thought maybe i’m just anxious and i can never have kids because the hormones would effect me like they have now and i wouldn’t be able to take it. And i freak out because i feel like i can’t be with my boyfriend because i feel like this. I know it has to be my hormones! It has to be but it hurts too much to the point where i feel like it’ll never end. Someone please reply!
You are me girl. Started feeling like this on the pill stayed on it for 3 months hoping things would get better although I knew I just felt completely off and weird about everything. Once I got my first period everything went down hill from there. The worst anxiety related to my boyfriend! it’s been a year and I’ve had so many ups and downs but still trying to feel better. I wish you the best, if you ever need to talk I will give you my email.
It hurts because it feels so strange to feel what we had. I wish this goes away soon!
Yes it’s definitely a sad feeling. I find myself not knowing what to do with myself. I kinda feel like I’m forcing happiness into the relationship and it shouldn’t be that way because I should just be naturally happy with him. I think I’m just taking it Day by day and hoping for better days ahead. It’s weird feeling though and I know what you’re going through. ( I even felt like I couldn’t recognize him at first. I would look at him and feel so so weird!)
I’m so happy someone else feels it. I’ve looked up everything. I’ve gotten that i’m depressed and need to go on meds to fix it. I even read about depersonalization and it kinda fit that, i felt so lost and my anxiety freaked out as soon as i looked at him. The first couple days before my period i stared crying and crying over my bf. I cried about what would happen if he died. I was so emotional and i think he didn’t know what to do. All of a sudden it was like a click and i couldn’t recognize him. I’ve always felt safe around him but recently i feel anxious about something and i’m not sure what it is. I linked that to i’m crazy and i’m never going to feel the same love for him anymore. It is really hard to explain and i wouldn’t wish this on anyone who loves their so so much! i’m on my second period now and i feel like my anxiety is leveling out and so is that weird feeling with my boyfriend. It does come and go and i know within a couple months it should be gone. He tells me it’s just my hormones and i believe him. I hope it’s working out for you!
I’m over a year off and I still feel like this on and off. I’ve had a lot of good days and a lot of bad days but I don’t know if I’ve felt like I did before all this yet. I’m in love with him but I feel like it’s a completely different love & completely different relationship. It’s weird and hard to explain
I’m anxious now it’ll last over a year. how do you do it????
Hey guys, Dani here. Between the last time I made a post and now I've gotten my period twice. Spotted like two weeks before my period finally showed up the first time. After that I had around 20-25 days before my second period came and I'm still on it.
My question is, does getting your periods actually mean there's been some progress? Up until my second period my anxiety hadn't gotten any worse but due to external situations it hiked up again during my second. Went to my psychiatriatric nurse yesterday and was able to go from a 10mg antihistime to combat my anxiety to 25mg and it's helped. Starting a magnesium glycinate supplement too as I've heard it does wonders for stress.
But I just often wonder since I've gotten my periods, as well as reading here about women being a year off and them still having some problems : is my body really making any progress?
My question is, does getting your periods actually mean there's been some progress? Up until my second period my anxiety hadn't gotten any worse but due to external situations it hiked up again during my second. Went to my psychiatriatric nurse yesterday and was able to go from a 10mg antihistime to combat my anxiety to 25mg and it's helped. Starting a magnesium glycinate supplement too as I've heard it does wonders for stress.
But I just often wonder since I've gotten my periods, as well as reading here about women being a year off and them still having some problems : is my body really making any progress?
Hi Dani, I spotted too! Like, it was even hardly a period coupled with various health symptoms. Magnesium helped a lot because since then my anxiety attacks lessened at a great extent to make you functional as individual- so i suggest go for it ASAP. Best to take it in the evening for a very relaxing sleep. I suggest you take it with B complex since this is actually the vitamins for stress. In fact you may not need an antihistamine if you take these supplements.
Anyways, just to assure you that everything will be okay, went to an endocrinologist who specializes in hormones and mentioned that symptoms may vary per person. To some it may take awhile to normalize but yes, things will get better. I remember myself not being able to work at all (I had to take a 2-week leave) just because of fear that I might faint or what (since there are withrawal symptoms I feel which even worsens my anxiety).
She also mentioned that the spotting may not be a period yet, but at least our body is trying to work it out. observe the days in your cycle where you spotted- it may be the period of your ovulation or during the time of you supposed to be- period.
By the way, what are you anxious about? Is it health or relationship anxiety?
Hope to hear from you soon!
xoxo Flow
Anyways, just to assure you that everything will be okay, went to an endocrinologist who specializes in hormones and mentioned that symptoms may vary per person. To some it may take awhile to normalize but yes, things will get better. I remember myself not being able to work at all (I had to take a 2-week leave) just because of fear that I might faint or what (since there are withrawal symptoms I feel which even worsens my anxiety).
She also mentioned that the spotting may not be a period yet, but at least our body is trying to work it out. observe the days in your cycle where you spotted- it may be the period of your ovulation or during the time of you supposed to be- period.
By the way, what are you anxious about? Is it health or relationship anxiety?
Hope to hear from you soon!
xoxo Flow
Hi Flow! Most of my anxiety has been due to worrying about health. Like you mentioned sometimes things would get so bad I couldn't really function at all. That two week spotting in particular kind of freaked me out. A 10 month consistent length of spotting is what got me on HBC so I could regulate my hormones. Had no clue spotting could also happen during ovulation.
I started a vitamin complex supplement a few weeks and I gotta say it has definitely helped. And I dunno what it is by my anxiety is usually worse at night so I'll remember to take magnesium in the evening!
I started a vitamin complex supplement a few weeks and I gotta say it has definitely helped. And I dunno what it is by my anxiety is usually worse at night so I'll remember to take magnesium in the evening!
Same here dear - health related anxiety. What symptoms have you felt by the way? And how many months are you off the pill?
Yep! You can have spotting during ovulation and spotting when you are stressed too. I was told it’s pretty common after post BC so don’t worry.
- Flow
Yep! You can have spotting during ovulation and spotting when you are stressed too. I was told it’s pretty common after post BC so don’t worry.
- Flow
I've been off the pill since late January. Been having symptoms like heart palpitations, mood swings, near constant intrusive thoughts (on bad days), low energy, tachycardia and GI troubles.
-Dani
-Dani
I still have the feelings where i look at my boyfriend and feel like i don’t remember him. Do you think that may be because i can’t feel a lot of love, i try to block him out??? it’s so hard to explain i feel like he’s a stranger sometimes!!
I felt like this for a while too. It’s such a weird feeling but i think it’s definitely part of the process of feeling out of love. Trust me I know how weird it is and it has completely changed my mentality and our relationship. I still love him it’s just different and I’m sure you can relate.