Thanks this helped im 13 and always loved girls a year ago i knew i was straight i was happy and i couldnt get another girlfriend so i watched porn daily masturbated alot no thought of being with another man now i dont kno anymore i keep forcing my self to look at guys and say they are hot but i hate thoughs thoughts and thinking bout not being with a girl makes me upset and deep down i kno im not gay and i also learned that hocd can cause false arousal to i dont get that but its where all the fear and anxiety turns u on and im scared that i might be turning gay wen i always knew i was straight
THANK YOU SO MUCH, I as a male sufferer of hocd at age 13 can finally say after a month and two weeks of nonstop anxiety, I am a heterosexual man. If you ever get aroused while watching gayporn and your suffering from hocd, its the fear and hocd making you get aroused so you worry further. SUCK IT HOCD, NO ONE LIKES YOU
Someone I dated just came out gay and since then I've been worried I am. I keep feeling very anxious/fearful about it so you are saying this means I am straight as I thought I was?
Thank you for this post! I've been struggling with this for years. Occasionally I'd fall in love with a man (I'm a woman) and everything would be fine, but as soon as a crush went over, I'd start obsessing about my sexuality again. I like all kinds of porn (gay, straight, lesbian... I could even get off to transgender...) and have experienced exactly the same thing as you, but reversed. I became a bit homophobic, not that I dislike homosexuality, not at all! I'd fight for gay rights, but I get extremely uncomfortable around lesbians (especially). I somehow believe (still haven't gotten over that stupid, stupid, irrational fear) that they'll have some gaydar and see that I'm actually a lesbian, and they will tell me, and I will get extremely confused and unhappy... So it's not a fear of actual homosexuals, but a fear that they might see things that no one else sees... I know, it's really stupid. I don't know any out-of-the-closet gays, so maybe I need to get to know some to get over it... I hate that I feel like this, I want to be cool about my sexuality, but somehow I'm not. I'm not saying I'm 100 % hetero, I think girls can be beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, and I easily get jealous of them. I'm not ashamed of what I feel and who I am, I just don't want to be confused anymore! If it came down to me being gay, I'd be cool with that, as far as I know it really is what I want.
Anyway, you, my kind lady, made it just a little bit easier for me, so thank you once again!
Funny coincidence: My captcha told me to enter the word "relief", hah.
Anyway, you, my kind lady, made it just a little bit easier for me, so thank you once again!
Funny coincidence: My captcha told me to enter the word "relief", hah.
Thank you. Just thank you
i watch straight porn and lesbian porn ...Iv never been with a girl or anything but iv always thought i was bi-sexual ... Im confused now after reading your post as i play it out in my head that i am the male when watching straight porn could someone help me cuz im now really confused ????????
I have never seen gay porn tho, like I'm just terrified in general of turning out to be lesbian or bi. I'm a girl and i have liked boys my whole life I'm 19 years old and I've kissed a girl and it felt weird I've never really kissed a boy a tho. Does this still mean that i can have that disordee?
Well i know exactly what you mean. I came here because those thoughts are torturing me to the point of me crying. I don't want it. I thought about what you said and you are so right.I don't even think about what other people will think. i am scared of my obsessive thinking. I dont want it. Also i took your advise and quit porn. And now its getting better with some severe cases from day to day of HOCD thinking. Like when i see a lesbian couple in movies, or series. But i am positive i will get over it. Also a psychologist friend of mine told me recently that porn is literally screwing with your mind. It's bad and its stops uou from experiencing your life as it should be. The other day i started crying because i was watching something and the thought kept popping in my head "what if i am a lesbian" and then i staretd crying because i didn't want to be one. I want a man. And i will get better, i will be ok. I meditate a lot now and everything will be ok in the end. I hope that all of you who are writing here and are tortured will be ok too in the end.
honestly, I can't thank you enough.
I don't think you're quite exactly right. I've known many gay men for example who were scared of the thoughts, and scared of being gay... but once that closet door finally sprang open they pounced with a grin on every penor within a hundred miles.
So as a potential lesbian scared to death of these thoughts, your words do not come as much comfort. I'm 46 and I've been around.
Most gays are terrified of even indulging the thoughts, babe. That's why they call it THE CLOSET.
So as a potential lesbian scared to death of these thoughts, your words do not come as much comfort. I'm 46 and I've been around.
Most gays are terrified of even indulging the thoughts, babe. That's why they call it THE CLOSET.
That did help me but why do I think I'm gay when I'm straight
Ty so much I was so confused
This really saved my life
Oh my god I completely get you. 100%
Speak for yourself. Some people who are afraid of it ARE gay. Just because you are gay yourself doesn't mean you know everything about it. I was terrified of being gay before I accepted it. We aren't all the same.