Hi everyone, I’ve been a member to this site for years, I also had one myself when living in San Francisco, mainly dedicated to men who permanently kept their foreskin retracted, some of you may have been members, I’d also set up a webpage, I’d to give it all up, for a number of reasons but the main one, not having a computer for years, and when I finally did, there was so much spam on my site that I just decided to close it. My fascination, curiosity, interest, whatever you might want to call with circumcision begins from a very early age, and for many many years I’d a want in me to be circumcised, but more than anything else, the cost was prohibitive, so I never had it done, as I am now in my late fifties, I doubt if I ever will, I am quite happy with permanent retraction, so don’t see the need to, but this took some training to achieve, especially in my younger years. My earliest recollection of noticing a difference in penises, may have been my father, who sometimes walked around without pants on, and it was noticeable that his glans was visible, (I’d thought for years that he had been circumcised but he wasn’t). We were very young then and had no knowledge of anything about our genitals. When I began school around the age of four or so, it was an old school and the toilets just a normal toilet, some of us would go use it together, and notice each other’s penises. I don’t ever recall seeing one different than mine except that maybe it was bigger or had a longer foreskin. On the very rare occasion the odd older boy joined in, and as he was reaching puberty, he’d be bigger, the odd one retracted his foreskin in front of us. When we moved school and more pupils joined us, it became more revealing to say the least as we now had a long urinal, up to ten could stand at it at a time, and all ages. My best friend at time was a year younger, but as regards to penis size, I had a small one, but he wasn’t much bigger, against the rest of the boys. But he would have his changed and so would a few others that year, we’d all had a medical and a number of boys needed to be circumcised. Including him. They’d a great time showing of their new penises, even the young girls were in awe. I don’t ever recall been shown to retract my foreskin, by my parents or anyone else, but may have been, or remember when I may have actually started doing it myself, or if it occurred itself. (reason mentioning that is, a woman who used to Babysit us, was drunk in a pub, and mentioned that she remembered my penis because when she changed me, and I sprouted an erection, the little head protruded, and it never happened with the other boys she changed. I used to wet the bed when I was a child, as well as peeing in a twin flow, and neither hitting the bowl. On seeing the difference in my friend’s penis, and the others who were done, and also aware the way my fathers was I believed with many others it was only a matter of time for us. When I could move my foreskin back a little way, and did so when peeing, it made a huge difference, one flow dead straight. I was barely exposing the glans at the beginning, as time passed it wasn’t long before it would go back to the edge of the glans, and this brought on an erection, and it would stay there until the erection subsided, I loved this feeling especially when I put it back in my pants and felt it rubbing against the fabric, but it would always crawl forward. So every chance I got I’d retract my foreskin, enjoy the erection the and the amazing feeling it produced, this went on for a little while, until one day it didn’t crawl forward all day, and I can still remember that day where it happened etc, I was about seven years old. (at one time I tried to circumcise myself with a scissors luckily it was blunt). There were times when I was caught by my parents, with an erection and the glans exposed and got severely chastised, and I stopped for a while, but then hid what I was doing, I’d have my glans covered at home or anywhere around members of my family, but outside of them, or elsewhere it was exposed, including school. I also discovered the immense pleasure I could give myself, by massaging the glans with my thumb, and experienced many pre-ejaculation, orgasms this way, they were awesome, my body used to tremble. This went on till about the age of eleven or twelve, where two things occurred, and both scared the sh*t out of me. Which actually came first I can’t remember, the first time I ejaculated, it scared the hell out of me, still can remember it. The other was when I tried to push my foreskin over the rim for the first time and it got stuck (paraphimosis) and I got into a panic, cold sweats the lot, scared to go for help, managed after a while to get my foreskin forward, frighten for days to retract again, finally got courage, and it slid back and forward over the glans easily after a fews day or so. Now that I was ejaculating I wasn’t having those great orgasms anymore, when I began growing pubic hair, it became cumbersome as it would catch between the foreskin and glans. Although I could keep my foreskin retracted during the day, the odd time it might crawl forward, especially if I was sitting for long periods, I tried the old tape trick, or rolling it back in itself. There were also periods in my teen years when I had to go periods (days at a time) when I feared retracting my foreskin, and the build-up of smegma and the smell of it was unreal. Cleaning sometimes twice a day. Morning time was always disappointing, as I’d wake up with my foreskin forward, even if it was only covering 80% of the glans (erection). Then one morning that all changed I awoke completely retracted, and stayed that way for days, only having to pull it forward when I had a medical appointment. This was now near enough perfect for me. I could go months, fully retracted, only covering for medical or hospital check-ups, and then it went into years Later years I’d stretch my foreskin back as far as I could, and hold it as tight as I could, naturally I’d have an erection, this put a strain on the glans, and the frenulum, and over a period of time the glans swelled a little and the elasticity in the frenulum disappeared, and its’s even hardly noticeable, so there is no more pull on my foreskin. Another friend of mine had to be circumcised in his twenties, he had a long foreskin, never knew it was supposed to retract, had many girlfriends and sex up to then, I was gob smacked. For those who have never retracted their foreskin, or experienced what I’ve experience over the years with the pure pleasure of an exposed glans and the ability to stroke, caress it for the mind-blowing feeling it gives, you are missing so much, and if circumcised men have experienced the same they know what I am talking about. It will be super sensitive at first and many who have had the operation can testify to that, but it will soon customize to surroundings. some soaps (gels) irritate but generally over time, even this is over come, Denim (jeans) and some other fabrics can be very hard on the glans, especially without underwear, I’ve found that my sensitivity can change or be different sometimes because of this. But where it might be dull sometimes it can be great another, might be the mood as well. My experience with the few women I’ve shared my life with, they prefer it, and I have never asked for oral sex, they really enjoyed doing it. The glans is pretty much like your tongue, even to the colour, so there are certain things you can apply, to make it taste better, feel cleaner, lubes etc, I use toothpaste (add a small drop of water make a paste in your hand) now and then, gives a slight tingle at first. If you think of the effort which most women go through concerning the hygiene of their genitals, shaving, using powder deodorant, etc men should do as much, if not more. Considering of where I’m from and that circumcision is pretty rare, I seem to have met or known more people who are circumcised, than the norm. Two of my best friends, one from my childhood, another later in life, and many other pals, one woman I was involved with had two brothers and both of them were, and she was unaware that they had an operation, believing all men were like that. loved my manhood, another woman was willing to pay for the circumcision as a Christmas gift to me, aware of my desire at the time. (sadly it never happened) I actually felt quite alone unique in the world believing that I may be the only man who kept his foreskin retracted, thank GOD for the internet, where I discovered I wasn’t and there could be tens of thousands like me, maybe even millions. But the shame of it all is the lack of education, regarding the working of our genitals, ignorance and fear.