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I too have been an opiate addict for a couple years now, I can't tell you how many I look back and think how did I get here? I've been clean from them for going on 11days only a 1mg suboxone every other day if needed, the first week sucked major balls, and I admit I smoked a lil green to help with anxiety ( which it does ) I don't advocate smoking it but I have for many many years and have never had a problem with it, like I did with Opiates, so green is the least of my worries in reality. I also take 1mg klonopin if needed to help me sleep at night, which works like a dream. I'm prescribed the klonopins monthly so I don't have to worry about running out. Those things and the support of my husband who is also WD ing from Opiates like me is soooo helpful. I don't know where I'd be without him truly he is my savior despite the fact he's going through the same thing I am, We both keep inspiring the other to keep going when one of us is having a bad day the other jumps in and hugs the other and says it will pass and everything will be ok ( that helps so much to have someone to hold you and reassure you ), also I found a concert he would LOVE to go to so I brought it home showed him the paper and said this is what we eat when we choose those horrible things over life, we miss out on fun one time things like this! It struck a cord with both of us and we haven't looked back, now 11 days later the worst is over it's just the mental part that is hard, the thinking about them constantly wondering " oh maybe it's been long enough that if I just take one I'll be ok " yea dream world, once you relapse you relapse and your back on the bad road. Trust me I know it sucks now but just imagine ALL the things you can do with the $$ you'll have and the life waiting for you. I went 2 years without anyone knowing my problem but my husband and to this day him and I both have told no one about the issue or us stopping all together we feel it would be safer that way. I hope everyone makes it through the other side, just always know you're not alone, alot of us go through it and if you just get up everyday and say to yourself " pull myself up and do it " you can! reading everyone's stories even helps keep me going on the right path, we all can do it, it's just a matter of taking the responsiblity in knowing the after will suck but won't last forever, it will get easier and better. You have to believe in yourself know that you are better than this, that you once were someone else and how much you miss that person you used to be. I can say I've never resorted to H I fear needles like nothing else in the world so I refuse to even acknowledge it. Don't let something literally a thing take control over you! take back your life, you won't believe the wonderful feeling in knowing you MADE IT! and I believe we all can! God Bless and Good Luck to All!!!!!! <3
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i ahve been abusing oxy for maybe 2 years now. before is was all fun and games took small doses maybe 60 mg for a few days quit for a week and come back to it. however the past 6 months, ive lost all control. at my peak i could smoke 15 pills of 30 mgs a day and wake up the next day just chasing that high. about a month ago i quit cold turkey, after bingeing the hardest ive ever binged. the withdrawal was frikkin hell on earth, frikkin jus counting the minutes. i knew if i could make it outta the first week i was free and i did. it took so much to do that and i was sooo happy again, i felt normal full of energy and high on life. yet i always had cravings to go back to it. finally after being sober for about 2 weeks, i fell again, into a black hole. now its more than ever. now its gotta hold of me stronger than ever, its running my life. its so hard to quit again i swear. anyways, im longing for that soberness again. that high on life feeling. i was to go back to being happy without oxy.
this my 2nd day of withdrawal, it feels like an eternity. i dont know how i made it through the night last night. i keep grabbing my phone wanting to relapse but im tryin to stay strong. god bless all u guys..
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