I am 23 and got hooked right after I graduated high school. I got my wisdom teeth out and was prescribed hydrocodone, thats all it took. I took HC's for the first 3 years everyday. The last year I took 50-60 HC's a day, usually the green monsters but blues and yellows I was fine with. Then I went to the methadone clinic like a dumbass. I finally worked my magic on the doctor at the clinic and he prescribed me the 40 mg methadone waffers. I was on 7 of those a day and yes i do know thats 280mg. I did this for 6 months or so, then stopped getting high. I started using 80 mg Oc's and usually did 18-20 of those a day and those were great! Finally.. I went back to methadone starting at 240mg's. Gradually over 8 months I got down to 40mg's of methadone cause the doc. I Am seeing now wants me at 30mg to go on suboxone. So this Monday I finally said I was going to mann up and do it. Monday and Tuesday I went to 20mg of methadone. Wednesday and Thursday I went to 10mgs, I started getting sick and said screw it I want to stop. Friday took 5mg's at 5 a.m. I tried to make it to the end of the day but didnt, took another 5mg at 9 p.m. Now, today i was still just pretty sick and took another 10mg like a dumbass, but will hopefully make it till Sunday mourning without another dose. Then i have to stop using until my doc. appt. on Monday. I have started reading about suboxone and it does not seem like any answer! You are still addicted to a way more expensive drug and from what i have read it is hell getting off, maybe worse than any other opiate. I also have been so depressed the past 7 or 8 months usually dont get out of bed unless I have to. I am afraid I have screwed myself up so much that I will never be normal. Should I do the suboxone or just try to get off methadone now? Will my depression subside once I am clean? Any thoughts would be great! Sorry So Long!!!
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Sorry, but if it matters after the Oc's I went to I.V. drug use with heroin for about 6 months. I do not know how I left that one out. I was probably using 23-30 bags of tar heroin a day, then went to 240mg's of methadone.
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Hi I totally understand where you are coming from I too have been on hydrocodone for headaches my doctor cut me off cold turkey and it's been a living nightmare I have been sick, too but have to agree that the leg cramp are the worst. I have been sick now for 3 days with 3 days clean. I can't believe I have gotten myself into this mess either. I hope the home remedies help, too. Good Luck on your recovery!!!! :)
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Withdrawal sucks. I am currently not withdrawaling becuase once again i went back after I sweared that I was done. My brain once again sabotaged me and said, " 2 more 40's 2nite wont be bad". I love the OC. I've always liked drugs but never, i mean never have came close to becoming addicted to them like OC. Coke has no comparison, especially after a week of withdrawals. It's pretty sad when I cant tell the difference between a bad cold/flu from withdrawaling. All I can say is those of you who have been staying strong, please keep it going. It is the best motivation for me to quit. To know that someone else like me has gotten addicted to this wicked stuff due to crazy circumstances, or stupid circumstance, was able to shake it and stay clean is one of the reason's why my addiction is no where near what it was 4 months ago. Thanks everyone for posting their comments and advise. Peace and good luck to all.
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Hi..My names michele..and Im in the same boat as u, or how u were, wit the oxycontin addiction..I really need help and you seem like you could give me the support i need..i cant do it cold turkey, i just cant..i got nuts, suicidal..its horrible..im a good gurl, and I got caught up in the wrong ****..i never did heroin or anything..i would never..i just hope i can have a lil help from ya..thank you so much..
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Michele
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and you can email me from there..i rather not talk to this site ya know..its personal..but thanks again..
---michele
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Hang in there everyone! These forums DO WORK! But, like everything else YOU have to do the heavy lifting. I am recently clean from an awful OC habit. I did have Suboxone for 2 months, which delays your w/d process. By day 5 I was able to get up and walk the dog and help around the house and minimal stuff like that. Taking off of work is good since you most likely won't be able to go. I also had Immodium ad and Tyenol PM at bed side which helped with sleeping and anxiouty. They say it roughly takes about 15 days to get through the worst... for me it was around 7. Detoxing from suboxone is way more manageable than oc and other opiates. Hope this helps you guys to stay strong. You arent the only one thats going through it... and you'll only get better!
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Don't do it!!! If you think your DH will be in and out over the course of a weekend you are seriously missing something. I was sooooo sick after the Isreali treatment (ultra rapid detox) that I was bedridden for 2.5weeks not including the time spend in hospital - 6 days, when I was expected to be in for maybe 3-4 days. See a doctor about Subutex, easy transition, not much down time and easy to taper. Naltrexone is harsh, nasty and causes all sorts of depression and lethargy etc. He won'[t be able to work on naltrexone at least not for a while after that URD anyway. Suggest you look at alternatives, specifically subutex. Intewrested to know how you went in the end as I see your message is not super recent. Good luck and keep up the support, he will need you there.
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:'( just finished inpatient 5 day detox . I left ama before going to rehap.I feel horrible they have a clonodine patch on and 300 mgs of neurontin 3 times a day. Is there anything else i can take to feel better that NOT is addicting im so sick of being sick. HELP thank you 3
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i have just completed my 6 days of cold turkey detox. I have used this site as well as many others to help keep me moving forward. I started using oxycontin in jan 08. it was all down hill from there. i work as a car salesman making very good money....at times too much money than i know what to do with and that enabled my problem. before long i was spending more than i was making and became so addicted i thought this was going to be a lifelong thing. i would try to quit cold turkey for a day or two but became too sick i couldnt do it. it stared out 1 pill a day but 5 months in it became 2 to 3 a day. Growing up i was always know as a very pleasnt kid. hard worker did great in school high school football captain. Everyone around me had nothing but nice things to say. all my teachers, friends, family, friends familes...everyone thought i was the one that would set a great example and succeed in life. unfortunatly my choices let a lot of people down. i stoped going to family events, blew my friends off. i turned into a rotten person. i remember my little cousin christopher, who thought the world of me, told my mom all he wanted for his birthday was for me to show up. i didnt make it. i had "better" things to do. this went on until slowly but surly i burnt many bridges w friends and family. i was up gaainst the wall. i tired using suboxone but i always ended up back. of all the things i lost in the year of hell. the one thing that hit home the hardest was the one thing i cared about more than anything. I had the most beautiiful girlfriend who would do anything in this world for me, and she did. This girl was the girl i wanted to spend the rest of my life with. She was my world. I have had many flings and girlfriends my whole life. this girl was different. eventually she saw thru me. the addiction made me lose my girlfriend. i feel bad because she had nothing bbut the best intentions for me, and knew about my problem and always wanted to help. i lied to her, hid it behind her back, and before long...the girl i would kill for....left me. It was at that point i had enough.
it was about a year of this drug before i found enough was enough. i spent over 20,000 dollars over the year on this drug, losty friends, dissapointed everyone around me, and lost HER. Fri dec 5th, i called my best friend who is in theUS Airforce stationed in dover de, meanwhile i live in new hampshire. he told me to come down. i told him everything, and i was ready to fight this. I packed my bags and left without telling anyone. i called my mom and my brother told them i loved them and i needed to chnge my life. they were upset, but understood. i drove down with a uater of a suboxone and that was it. i got down around 230 am...after an almost 7 hour drive. by monday the withdrawals started.
i have never expeirenced anything like this every. by tuesday morning the leg pains started. i began to sweat and became very uncomfortable. by weds no sleep and it got worse. Weds night i was at the peak and my eyes were runnign my nose was gushing, i was sweating yet shaking cause i was so cold, but i kept going...if i was home i would have found an oxy...thats why i moved for this because i had no other choice. i spend 4 nights researching this in and out of crying and ogoing thru the worst pain i have ever had in my life. by fri with 5 days of no sleep and pure hell, i was laying in the fetal position on my bed, and thought i might die. i was reflecting on this whole thing. around noon time i fell asleep and woke up an hour later not feeling any pain whatsoever. i couldnt believe i made it. after this expeirience, i would never ever touch an oxy again. i still have the insomnia acute withdrawals, but i know that its almost over. i cant believe i did it. i have a few friends back home that are still struggling. its sad it took me to lose everything and hit rock bottom to understand i needed a change in my life. i have never wanted to go back to the old j so bad. there is hope for everyone who wants it. good luck to everyone and thanks to everyones post they have helped on this site as well as a few others.
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it was about a year of this drug before i found enough was enough. i spent over 20,000 dollars over the year on this drug, losty friends, dissapointed everyone around me, and lost HER. Fri dec 5th, i called my best friend who is in theUS Airforce stationed in dover de, meanwhile i live in new hampshire. he told me to come down. i told him everything, and i was ready to fight this. I packed my bags and left without telling anyone. i called my mom and my brother told them i loved them and i needed to chnge my life. they were upset, but understood. i drove down with a uater of a suboxone and that was it. i got down around 230 am...after an almost 7 hour drive. by monday the withdrawals started.
i have never expeirenced anything like this every. by tuesday morning the leg pains started. i began to sweat and became very uncomfortable. by weds no sleep and it got worse. Weds night i was at the peak and my eyes were runnign my nose was gushing, i was sweating yet shaking cause i was so cold, but i kept going...if i was home i would have found an oxy...thats why i moved for this because i had no other choice. i spend 4 nights researching this in and out of crying and ogoing thru the worst pain i have ever had in my life. by fri with 5 days of no sleep and pure hell, i was laying in the fetal position on my bed, and thought i might die. i was reflecting on this whole thing. around noon time i fell asleep and woke up an hour later not feeling any pain whatsoever. i couldnt believe i made it. after this expeirience, i would never ever touch an oxy again. i still have the insomnia acute withdrawals, but i know that its almost over. i cant believe i did it. i have a few friends back home that are still struggling. its sad it took me to lose everything and hit rock bottom to understand i needed a change in my life. i have never wanted to go back to the old j so bad. there is hope for everyone who wants it. good luck to everyone and thanks to everyones post they have helped on this site as well as a few others.
J
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I'd like to start off by saying that reading the 6 pages of experiences you have all had really does provide me with hope that I can get through this, so thank you all for that. I started using OC at the beginning of this year, and at first it was once every two weeks, once a week, twice a week, one every 3 days, and now I have been doing an 80 a day for the past few months. Today is day 4 without an OC (two days ago the w/d were getting too tough to deal with so I snorted a perc 30 to alleviate the symptoms). Now I find myself in the same boat, hurting again. Last night I slept from midnight til about 3am, then woke up and laid in bed wide awake til about 4:30, got up and smoked some weed (which IMO does help) and that thankfully put me back to bed. Woke up around 8am with severe stomach cramps, diahrea, and vomiting followed. My main problem is I am a supervisor in an office environment and the stomach problems cause a major issue with me being able to perform whats expected of me at work. The restless legs and lower back pain are also a real obstacle for me. I spend down to the last dollar to be able to have enough OC's to last me every two weeks (costly habit at $60 a pop for a 20 year old in this economy) and I usually end up running out a few days short of getting paid and withdrawing the last few days before my paycheck. I'm so sick of this cycle of getting high and feeling great and then feeling awful and not being able to function until my next high. In a month or so I'll have enough paid time off to be able to take a little over a week from work, maybe then I'll be able to kick the habit.. Anyways this is basically a rambling from someone who needs someone to listen but doesn't want to burden any of my friends or family with my problems. Thanks for taking the time to read this, any suggestions or support are greatly appreciated, I'll surely be checking back on this topic often to see how others are faring in the battle against addiction.
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I'm thinking this is a much bigger problem than any health professionals ever considered.
I hope I can offer some hope for anyone that's going through this mess and thinks it's never going to end.
I've been on some form of opiate for the past 4 years--some OC, but mostly suboxone--like 3 1/2 years, and lastly methadone...to help me get off of my last prescription of OC which I was using after a hip replacement from this summer. I wasn't abusing these meds--taking as prescribed but that DOES NOT make any difference. Addiction is addiction and physical withdrawal sucks. I'm also an alcoholic who most recently convinced herself that she was "cured", and could drink like normal people. Hahahaha!
I checked into a treatment facility for three weeks and detoxed off of the alcohol and opiates. Getting off the booze in a hospital setting was a breeze, but the opiates were a different story. No one told me that I'd still have withdrawal symptoms.
It's been over three weeks since my last tapered dose of Suboxone--not three easy weeks by any means. For over 10 days, I was sleeping about 2-3 hours a night...sleep deprivation is another whole story. I finally turned the corner on the diahrea after 3 weeks. I'm still sneezing alot and achey, but every day gets better. For the longest time, I was weak--like a kitten, which was frustrating because I was also depressed and bored and wanted to DO something--clean a closet, go for a walk--anything, but I had absolutely no energy. I'm happy to say that this is going away, and I'm feeling much closer to normal. I'm laughing again. I'm also going to AA and NA meetings which help a lot.
I could go on and on, but I won't. Just please, please know that it will get better. And a few weeks, even if it is 4 or 6 weeks, of being miserable is far better than years and years.
I hope I can offer some hope for anyone that's going through this mess and thinks it's never going to end.
I've been on some form of opiate for the past 4 years--some OC, but mostly suboxone--like 3 1/2 years, and lastly methadone...to help me get off of my last prescription of OC which I was using after a hip replacement from this summer. I wasn't abusing these meds--taking as prescribed but that DOES NOT make any difference. Addiction is addiction and physical withdrawal sucks. I'm also an alcoholic who most recently convinced herself that she was "cured", and could drink like normal people. Hahahaha!
I checked into a treatment facility for three weeks and detoxed off of the alcohol and opiates. Getting off the booze in a hospital setting was a breeze, but the opiates were a different story. No one told me that I'd still have withdrawal symptoms.
It's been over three weeks since my last tapered dose of Suboxone--not three easy weeks by any means. For over 10 days, I was sleeping about 2-3 hours a night...sleep deprivation is another whole story. I finally turned the corner on the diahrea after 3 weeks. I'm still sneezing alot and achey, but every day gets better. For the longest time, I was weak--like a kitten, which was frustrating because I was also depressed and bored and wanted to DO something--clean a closet, go for a walk--anything, but I had absolutely no energy. I'm happy to say that this is going away, and I'm feeling much closer to normal. I'm laughing again. I'm also going to AA and NA meetings which help a lot.
I could go on and on, but I won't. Just please, please know that it will get better. And a few weeks, even if it is 4 or 6 weeks, of being miserable is far better than years and years.
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I have been abusing Opiates for nearly 5 years. It began with Vicodin, but ended with Morphine - Norco - Oxycodone - Opana - and Oxycontin. I cant tell you the struggle it has been oduring this time. Never enough drugs to be "Ok". Constantly trying to figure out haw my wife and I would stay "Ok" from month to month. It is sooo f*****g tiring. I recently entered a rehab and stopped using Morphine at that time. i was dopesick for the first week. However, I was allowed to begin tapering off the Norco. As a reult, the withdrawl symptoms were tolerable. Now I am working on tapering the Norco. It sucks being a slave. I am currently taking 5 per day. Usually after 3 hours, I start to with drawl. I want to go cold turkey, but I also dont want to. I am so f*****g sick of this sh*t. It has cost me dearly. I also have a heart condition, which I have been told can be problematic if undergoing opiate withdrawl. If anyone out there has any information or experience in this area, any help would be appreciated.
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Hi, I may be a little different but dependent on morphine irregardless. I have a brain tumor and I have been using injected morphine for 5 years without any issues. I don't get any buzz or high from it, it just takes away the pain. My trusted doctor is retiring and no one will write my a script for the Morphine. I am terrified of what is to come as I only have about a two month supply and then the horror begins. Even when you have legitimate pain you become dependent on these drugs. Now I am wishing the tumor just killed me because I'm afraid the withdrawal will. I have tapered off the dose slowly and I am in headache hell. I don't want to go on another drug like suboxone as it's just another med to get off of. There has to be someone that will look at serious illness and intractable pain and will help you. My hell is only just beginning and it is beyond horrifying for me to think of what will come in the next few weeks. Please send me some good thoughts and any suggestions. I am in desperate need of some kind of support. Thank you all.
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I can only imagine your fears. The sad thing is the dr.'s prescribe the meds that you need and then they leave ya high n dry. Even though you need the meds that are prescribed the end results are dependency/addiction. Without the meds you suffer withdrawls. If you are considering suboxone you must be considering getting off the pain meds. If so get into a clinic that offers counseling this will help with your goal to get drug free. With suboxone and counseling and working at your own pace you can have a comfortable way of getting yourself drug free. You aren't alone and many of the counserlors in the clinics have walked in our shoes. Be Encouraged and don't put off today do it the sooner the better.
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OMG IVE BEEN WITHDRAWING FOR ABOUT A 2 DAYS NOW. I'VE BEEN ON OXYCODONE FOR ABOUT 5 YEARS. STARTED OUT 10/325 PERCS WHICH WAS THE GATEWAY TO HELLLLLLLLLLL!!! I THEN GOT INTRODUCED BY A f*****g JUNKIE IN THE WAITING ROOM OF THE DR MIND YOU, 30 MG ROXICODONE. MY ROXI, MY GIRL, MY LOVEEEEEEEEEE. LOL. I MISS THAT b***h. SO ANYWAY GETTING OFF THAT, I'M AT WORK AND I'M ABOUT TO QUIT. I MEAN TELL EVERYONE IN HEAR TO f**k OFF AND I'M LEAVING. WHICH MIND YOU I LOVE MY JOB AND WOULD NEVER DO IF I WASN'T FEELING LIKE THIS. EVERYONE KEEPS COMING UP TO ME. WHAT'S THE MATTER, WHAT'S WRONNNNNNNG WHY AREN'T YOU TALKING??? CAUSE I'M A f*****g MESS THATS WHY. THE SAD PART ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING IS, YOU CAN LIVE YOUR EVERYDAY LIFE ON PILLS AND NOONE KNOWS WHAT'S GOING ON. YOU CAN FOOL ANYONE WHEN YOUR ON PILLS. MOTHER, FATHER, GIRL, GUY ETC. MY BOSS. LOL. SHE'S LOOKING AT ME NOW. I'M LAYING IN A BOWL OF sh*t IN PISS UNDER MY DESK. LOL. I REALLY WANT TO QUIT MY JOB RIGHT NOW. THEN I GO HOME RIGHT, GET REALLY HIGH, FEEEL GREAT AGAIN, CALL MY BOSS, BEG HER TO FORGIVE ME, SHE TELLS ME TO GO f**k OFF, AND THAT MY FRIENDS IS HOW PEOPLE COMMIT SUICIDE. ROCK BOTTOM CAN'T DEAL WITH THE PAIN. WELL IF YOU CAN'T DEAL WITH THE PAIN. DON'T DO THE DRUGS. IT'S ALL FUN AND GAMES UNTIL YOU WITHDRAW. GOTTA GO TO WORK GOTTA KEEP YOUR JOB, GOTTA STAY STRONG. I LOVE YOU ALL AND I HOPE YOU LAUGHED A LITTLE EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS CAUSE YOU'VE BEEN TYPING WITHDRAWALS ON GOOGLE CAUSE YOU'RE OUT OF DOPE. LOVE YOU ALL. GOING BACK TO MY BOWL OF PISS AND sh*t UNDER MY DESK. LOL. DAY 2 AND I'M A TRYIN
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