How do you move on from sexual abuse?

i went thru the same exact thing. when i was 11/12 years old my step dad sexually abused me. when my mom and brothers and sisters were sleeping he would come into my room at night and do things to me i will never forget. i hate him now and i cant stand to b around him. sex for me tho is just a despret way to feel loved cause i honestly feel cheapined and not worth anything. it a working progress to move past it and i cant say that im intirely over it. i cant trust him and i dont trust him around my family. i am also 17. but i have made progress. i used to be suicidal and i was a really bad cutter and i closed myself off from the world. but now i have friends and im haven cut in a year now. and most importantly im happy. and its because i have great friends and a strong support system and i was able to talk to girls and women that went thru what u went thru and it helps to know your not alone and its not your fault what happened. if you ever need someone to talk to im more than happy to be that person. i dont know why you dont remember anything and of course i cant tel you what happened exactly but its something you should confront him about but with people behind you that care about you. again if you ever wanna tlk message me or add me on facebook. i could reply alot faster on there than i could here.

When I was 10 years my 13 years brother abused an raped me repeatedly evever time my parents wasn't home. He kept on doing it even until I was in in high school. He only stopped doin sex with me when I went away to college. Even now that I am married when I do sex with husband I think it is my brother who is doin sex with me. When I masturbate I think about my brother doing sex with me when I was little. I think about doing sex with him alot. Even though he is married now, I want to do sex with him again. I think what he did to me really messed me up mentally. I have been going to a therapist for 12 years. Still I have these thoughts. Sometimes I think that if I can't do sex with my brother that I will kill myself.