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Today is only the second day living with the actual reality that I had miscarried. No one treats me or looks at me differently but I feel like a totally different person and moreover I feel completely empty like there's nothing left to live for. Whenever I eat, I feel like I am never going to be full, and I cry spontaneously all the time. It's going to be a hard journey but I can't wait to try again; I want one so desperately!
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Sorry so long, needed to talk to someone!
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I spotted and and cramped early on and had these fears. However that doesn't mean the same will happen to you. As previously mentioned there are other reasons including gestation for early spotting.
Following an ultra-sound that confirmd the miscarriage, it was also shown that I still had 'debris' left behind and that we would wait in hopes that it would pass naturally. I am still passing 'debris,' light bleeding now and cramping- but not as bad as the contractions.
It's a tough road whether you are at 4 weeks or almost 11 weeks like we were. We were lucky to have a really good doctor who had been through 3 years of trying to have a baby- with 3 losses- and his wife was due with their 1st child the next day. He gave me a tip for the next time we are pregnant- to have a baby aspirin a day to assist with clotting. Something to think about next time you see your doctor to discuss.
Good Luck- and do know that that this too shall pass, and this is the work of Mother Nature, it's not your fault.
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My heart just goes out to all the women who posted on this board. Reading your experiences brought more tears to my already tearful eyes. Being able to relate is oddly comforting. I know everyone's experience and physical/mental pain is different but we are all survivors. We did nothing wrong and we are not defective. Life doesn't work out the way we think it should. If you do want to get pregnant again, don't ever give up hope and just understand that you may have to learn patience. I believe that one day it will happen for all of us who experienced such a painful loss and wish to be a mother. It might take years but never give up on yourself or your dream.
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Anyway, way I was supposed to be 10 weeks today but 2 ultrasounds confirmed a blighted ovum and a GS of about 6 1/2 weeks. I am 41 years old and this was my first pregnancy. It was a surprise to say the least but were cautiously excited. Alas, it was not meant to be. The loss has not been too emotional because, in all likelihood there never was a fetus so I don't feel like a little life was slipping away. I think I have been lucky with the miscarriage, I didn't have to wait long for it to start and with the exception of an hour of extreme pain, I seem to have passed everything naturally and quickly with only minor cramps. Maybe there's more to come but I don't think so. I have a follow up with my doctor in about 10 days and hopefully we get the all clear to plan for the next one.
Best of luck to everyone and keep the faith.
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I'm a bartender and have been with my boyfriend for the last 3 years. I suspected I was pregnant when I didn't feel like drinking my normal after work. Sure enough, I came home and took a test, and it was faintly positive. My older sister has been trying for a year, so I already knew that getting a false positive was pretty rare. I cried for a whole day thinking my life was over. My boyfriend and I went out to eat and talked about our options. I always considered myself the type of girl that would "get rid" of anything standing in my way of my dream.....owning a restaurant one day. But after talking with him, we both realized that getting an abortion was not something that either one of us could live with. I took another test to be sure and the test line didn't even show up..... I was so confused! But I felt it!!! I knew I was pregnant. The following day, I went to the doc to get a confirmation.
Result? Negative. I was two weeks late, my breasts were sore, I was exhausted, craving spicy food, and emotional to the point of hysteria. Verbatim, my doctor said, "Completely Negative." However, until I got my period, my instructions were to avoid alcohol, cigs, etc, til the facts were straight in a week.
The whole next week might as well have been a class in how to be a mother. Between my sister, who is desperately trying to get pregnant, and my mom who is desperately trying to be a grandmother, I was completely enraptured. In that one week, I feel like I lived an entire pregnancy listening to those two. I went from never wanting children to falling in love with the child that would be ours. I was so stupid and naiive, that I even thought of names. As a bartender, I hang out at bars, and I order soda water.....I get strange looks...but I'm happy. I know I'm pregnant....I stop smoking cold turkey. The smell disgusts me. My boyfriend doesn't even stay for his shift beer....we go home early and he rubs my feet and we think about the future.
Then I started spotting. Very light. Brown. I called my sister. She told me implantation. She told me 1/3 of all women bleed. She bellied out stats after stats. In my heart I knew already, but remained hopeful. My doctors appointment was two days away, so I would know then.
My boyfriend and my non-baby-crazed sister came to the doc. Result? Positive. We smiled at each other!!!! We were all excited!!!! After a week of listening to hope after hope, I was genuinely hopeful! All the stress about money, and my job, and his job, and my dogs, and our insurance, and yadda yadda faded away and I got a glimpse of how our life might take a turn for the grand. As hopeful as I was, I knew I was bleeding and had to know for sure the baby was ok. At my request, she scheduled me for HCG tests and took my first one that day...thursday.
Ok, so if you've ever been to a busy bar where it's hard to get a drink? THAT is where I work. I start in on a busy Friday night dinner rush, and something starts to feel wrong. I'm one of their strongest bartenders.....I don't cry at work, I don't call in sick, and I NEVER give up my weekend shifts...but I start to bleed...AND cramp.
Emontionally, I lost it. I grabbed the only female manager and drug her outside and just started balling. I was a freaking WRECK. Thankfully, she took my hands and in hers and said, "you need to go home."
At home, things got worse. Bloody clots and cramps so bad I couldn't sleep. My next HCG test was in the morning. Saturday.
When I got up , I passed a golf ball sized clot and I knew it was over. I went to take the HCG blood test anyways. Some new shoddy lab tech stuck me all over my arm and it's now so bruised I look like a meth addict. Continued to bleed all through Saturday with nasty clots and cramps. Sunday morning the same..... But it's Sunday night and I won't know the result until tomorrow.....Bleeding is letting up now. Hardly any cramps at all.....
It seems very short from what I've read. I don't know what to think. My older sister might say there is still a possibility that I'm pregnant, but I don't feel it anymore. My breasts aren't sore. And it's weird, but I just don't feel it.
Am I wrong to think that it's over?
Sorry this is so long. Just needed to get it out.
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On the 4th of May I was 5 weeks pregnant, it was totaly unexpected but both my partner and myself wanted kids so we took it in stride. On a Wednesday afternoon I started getting light spotting and i thought it was planting which i thought i has already had. my back felt unconfitable like when i get my period but not too bad. I decided i needed to rest when i got home, but my 4pm I had fresh blood and small amounts of clots. by the time i got home I went to bed and started getting cramps, just normal pains not really bad. That night I had lots more cloting and Thursday I lost the rest. I never got the really bad pain just normal light cramps and lots of lower back straining, which i realise was contractions now. My partner gave me back rubs when i was awake and i slept as much through the pain as i could. Today is Friday and I'm still bleeding but my clots as very small and it looks like just the remains are leaving my body as if i was having a normal period except the without cramps. I only had the cramps on Wednesday night when i was having the contractions, but non since. Still I am not sure how long I will be bleeding for as non of you have mentioned the lenght of time you bleed just how you loose the child. I don't have medical as I'm am not from this country and have to wait 1 month before going to a doctor to have a check up and all clear. I am hoping it is a natural MC and no complications as that will mean a very big bill. Can anyone tell me if i should be bleeding for the same time as my period will take or more? I have had the baby pass yesterday and alot of the rest. Please help.
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