I have smoked high grade from 17-33, it's about to turn into week4 cold turkey. I work agriculture so everyone drinks like a fish or smokes heavily. I learned brain damage can start with the lungs and restrict oxygen to your brain , I spray pesticides which can also contribute. I can eat food no problem that only lasted 3 days, I have vivid dreams nightly when I'm not stressed enough to sleep. When I dream it's usually mundane dreams however I awake and must rush to work, there is no down time now I feel like I have been going constantly for 2 weeks straight because of the dreams. I love golf and play on Sunday's after cleaning and laundry, however I still want to die because I DO NOT want to dream, I am a coward and will not kill myself. I'm wishing every night that I can just rest peacefully like before.
I am am 62 smoked 44yrs quit 13days ago. Boredom AND strange stupid dreams. 2 nights ago l had a dream about trolls and witchs clawing all over me (like the witches and trolls in Clash of the titans) They tried to pull me into their leer, no doubt to eat me! Last night l had the strangest dream of ALL! I dreamed l took the singer Beyonce daughter in the mall trying to fine Beyonce who was having her nails done Dear Lord! FIRST OFF that is Ridiculous on so many levels! I dont even talk to kids or even want kids around me let alone take someone else Kids! The dreams ARE the exact opposite of my real life.Then l dreamed l was in the army again inwhich l last served MOREthan 30yrs ago
My dead mother keeps returning she been gone 10yrs. I dreamed of cheese burgers and fries going through the mess hall line. Probably because l went to be hungry. So now cooking a burger and fries! At least my appetite slowly returning but the dreams persist. I have no desire for weed but the withdrawal is no walk through a rose garden. They range from stupid to obnoxious! BEYONCE 'S daughter! RIDICULOUS!