Ouch! Just watched a movie. "The boy in the strpied pyjammas" It was sad! A real tear jerker.
Cant aatop sweating, and feel ok, but really dopey. Dawn are you around????
Cant aatop sweating, and feel ok, but really dopey. Dawn are you around????
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Hey, I dont know if your okay???Are you ????
Im in a major panic. Took Baclofen last night, at first I didnt feel any different and then felt really tired, and exhausted, but yet couldnt sleep all I wanted to do was sleep , I was useless around the kids, Bad tempered and really moodie, then got upset about being like that around tham. I was shouting at one point, and just telling them "Go to bed" i m better with a drink in me,Today felt nauseated and holding back the puke, In a true panic, well embarassingm but in credible ..I have a sore armpit andits all lumpy and its making me panic. yes, its been shecked before, but I know my own and panicing, even crying ..Grrr..
Anyway...hope today goes better!
Hope you are well, take care.
Im in a major panic. Took Baclofen last night, at first I didnt feel any different and then felt really tired, and exhausted, but yet couldnt sleep all I wanted to do was sleep , I was useless around the kids, Bad tempered and really moodie, then got upset about being like that around tham. I was shouting at one point, and just telling them "Go to bed" i m better with a drink in me,Today felt nauseated and holding back the puke, In a true panic, well embarassingm but in credible ..I have a sore armpit andits all lumpy and its making me panic. yes, its been shecked before, but I know my own and panicing, even crying ..Grrr..
Anyway...hope today goes better!
Hope you are well, take care.
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WOW!! I've missed a lot! It's been a hard time around here! TOO much to bring up! Remember when I told you, that you would end up in bed with him again? I knew it was a matter of time! It's up to you Katy! Is your anxiety and panic brought on by thinking of him staying, thinking of him leaving? Not drinking anymore? etc. etc.
I have been with my husband for 22 years Katy he has NEVER raped me!!!!!!! :-S Even when he was pissed out of his mind! I was raped when I was 19 and have always stated that IF any other "man" tried to do that to me again I would be charged with murder! Rape isn't a crime of f'in pashion!!!!!!!!!!! It's RAPE!!! It's controll, hatred, contempt etc etc. And he can control you like no other! When you were intimate with him the other night Katy - and lets cut the c**p shall we? - you don't have someone shave your pubic hair and just "cuddle" did you think that perhaps he has something from this other woman?
You are drinking more now - because you have been told not too - than you were before. You wont go on the Anatbuse because then you will HAVE to stop! AND YOU DON'T WANT TO STOP! So lets start being real shall we? You are putting up road blocks everywhere, and I've asked you before, wether or not you actually want to leave him? I can't tell you what to do Katy? All I know is this - you say your girls adore him! HE doesn't do squat with them, he doesn't barely support them, and there's little Becky asking "Did daddy do this to you?"!!!!! That's a frickin heartbreaker Katy! A 7 year old knows that her daddy hurts her mommy!!! :'(
As a grownup that was once Becky! I will say this to you what she WILL in 10 or so years "Why did you stay Mom?!, you and dad put us through hell! Don't you think we didnt' know what was going on?" Because she will say this to you Katy - as I said it to my mom!
We have been talking now for 5 months, and you are now more in a panick than you were before! And NOTHING has changed in your living accomodations! Your health etc. You go to the doctors and don't mention ALL of these symptoms or that you have allergies! ETC. You don't tell the counsellors or the lawyers or housing that he has hurt you! And I have always said and will say again, "I think the reason why you haven't is because you don't want to leave him! You want him to change and stay together!" This is why you put up road blocks at EVERY turn!!! 1. Missing the bus stop! 2. Not posting the housing application 3. Not taking the Antabuse 4. Not stopping drinking 5. Not telling the doctor you want a check up 6. Not telling the lawyer you are afraid of him 7. Having panic attacks about seeing authority regarding splitting up! AND the biggest one EVER 8. NOT SHOWING THE DOCTOR YOUR BRUISES OR YOUR RIBS!!!!!!!!!
It's time for you to make the decision Katy, 1. Move on and get on it! 2. Stay with him for ever! You can't keep going through this, the back and forth, the feeling like you are a loser because you "cuddle" with him! What does make me VERY concerned is that he is sneaky about getting a lawyer etc. And I really don't know if this is ALL an act, and that he is documenting everything! OR he has changed! But telling you to "keep your mouth shut"! I would say, it' right below the surface! IT's your call Katy! But doing nothing! and letting yourself be SO overwhelmed and sick is NOT the answer!
I've asked you if you have phoned the housing, and you didn't reply! Have you?!
I have been with my husband for 22 years Katy he has NEVER raped me!!!!!!! :-S Even when he was pissed out of his mind! I was raped when I was 19 and have always stated that IF any other "man" tried to do that to me again I would be charged with murder! Rape isn't a crime of f'in pashion!!!!!!!!!!! It's RAPE!!! It's controll, hatred, contempt etc etc. And he can control you like no other! When you were intimate with him the other night Katy - and lets cut the c**p shall we? - you don't have someone shave your pubic hair and just "cuddle" did you think that perhaps he has something from this other woman?
You are drinking more now - because you have been told not too - than you were before. You wont go on the Anatbuse because then you will HAVE to stop! AND YOU DON'T WANT TO STOP! So lets start being real shall we? You are putting up road blocks everywhere, and I've asked you before, wether or not you actually want to leave him? I can't tell you what to do Katy? All I know is this - you say your girls adore him! HE doesn't do squat with them, he doesn't barely support them, and there's little Becky asking "Did daddy do this to you?"!!!!! That's a frickin heartbreaker Katy! A 7 year old knows that her daddy hurts her mommy!!! :'(
As a grownup that was once Becky! I will say this to you what she WILL in 10 or so years "Why did you stay Mom?!, you and dad put us through hell! Don't you think we didnt' know what was going on?" Because she will say this to you Katy - as I said it to my mom!
We have been talking now for 5 months, and you are now more in a panick than you were before! And NOTHING has changed in your living accomodations! Your health etc. You go to the doctors and don't mention ALL of these symptoms or that you have allergies! ETC. You don't tell the counsellors or the lawyers or housing that he has hurt you! And I have always said and will say again, "I think the reason why you haven't is because you don't want to leave him! You want him to change and stay together!" This is why you put up road blocks at EVERY turn!!! 1. Missing the bus stop! 2. Not posting the housing application 3. Not taking the Antabuse 4. Not stopping drinking 5. Not telling the doctor you want a check up 6. Not telling the lawyer you are afraid of him 7. Having panic attacks about seeing authority regarding splitting up! AND the biggest one EVER 8. NOT SHOWING THE DOCTOR YOUR BRUISES OR YOUR RIBS!!!!!!!!!
It's time for you to make the decision Katy, 1. Move on and get on it! 2. Stay with him for ever! You can't keep going through this, the back and forth, the feeling like you are a loser because you "cuddle" with him! What does make me VERY concerned is that he is sneaky about getting a lawyer etc. And I really don't know if this is ALL an act, and that he is documenting everything! OR he has changed! But telling you to "keep your mouth shut"! I would say, it' right below the surface! IT's your call Katy! But doing nothing! and letting yourself be SO overwhelmed and sick is NOT the answer!
I've asked you if you have phoned the housing, and you didn't reply! Have you?!
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Dawn-pls-dont be angry with me!
Dont give up on me -pls.Im begging you, your the only one that I can talk too. Look , I know that I feel like absolute c**p after the other night. Allso , its got me raging at myself, so Im on day 3, night three of consistent citalopram and Baclofen.
Im still waiting to hear from housing-the housing officer was on holoiday before you rip me more to shreds.
I did document this with the lawyer, but as I had stated to him I was receiving help etc etc-I think he scored me off, wrote me off as a nutter. It was truly horrible trying to tell him. His response was this"its still not enough to get an interdict"....Can I just ask.....wtf is???????????????????? Sorry, but really.
Sometimes though- and what got me going the other night-was.....my ex thinks I am frieaking bonkers ( blah blah), so does my sister and my mother is now questioning my sanity......so thanks for that one Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! ( Youd think your own mum would knkow you better!).
You say you were raped ( sorry I hate that word) at 19 -do you go back and think about it time and time again?. i still think its my own ill doing, I still blame myself. I was 20. I still think about it- I also kept it really quiet for years...in fact, after it I never erally bothered. Cleaned the bed clothes, moved to a friends and just got on with it.....It wasnt till later that things started to creep in.....I did think that it was wrong and so on, but I had so many other things to feal with at the time..I guess I switched it out of my mind then. When I returned home, I do rember sweating about it and thinking what a nightmare it was. Thats the other thing.....people just question others when an allegation such as this is made. I know its a serious one-in that sense, but also, perhaps it was my missinterpretation with him.....Nah-sorry I cant buy it....nope thats not how I remeber it But the whole thing scares me to death now...even the saying "Oh come on....you know you want to"really amkes me boil inside, makes me want to be sick, and also I have issues eating around him etc...almost like I deserve to go hungry.....yeh well perhaps I do.
The workmen are just about finished here- and soon as things-ie I improve with my lifestyle changes, we will wave bye bye. dawn - though, you must see though that he has away of making me feel really insecure about my own judgements, and like youve said weeds his way back in...Omg-sorry ..I know I have to change, I have to, but Im scared, im scared financially , im scared of being alone, Im scared of being overwhelmed by my girls demands. Im scared of everything. Another part of it, is a total desire to forget ..to try again to be wanted, to be needed and feel appreciated and loved. ( I know thats stupid-I know that never was and never will happen). God the emergency services are busy here tonight- what a noise!
beccas bithday is coming up, and feeling the pressure.
I hope everything is okay with yourself. You sound a bit harassed ( hope you dont mind me saying so) and I want be helping!
To be honest, I dont really want to exist- I dont want to be here, in this place. trying to remain sober and feeling wth am I doing? all the time. About every part of my life, and what no ne gets is how my family do not give me any breathing space...or more I dont feel like they give me my space>
Anyway, enough! Ive time tomorrow to go to housing. I did try to see my HO, but like I say she wasnt in the building and they prefer you to make an appointment. ive time tomorrow to do this. I was hoping this would have been all over by now.
Anyway, take care.
Dont give up on me -pls.Im begging you, your the only one that I can talk too. Look , I know that I feel like absolute c**p after the other night. Allso , its got me raging at myself, so Im on day 3, night three of consistent citalopram and Baclofen.
Im still waiting to hear from housing-the housing officer was on holoiday before you rip me more to shreds.
I did document this with the lawyer, but as I had stated to him I was receiving help etc etc-I think he scored me off, wrote me off as a nutter. It was truly horrible trying to tell him. His response was this"its still not enough to get an interdict"....Can I just ask.....wtf is???????????????????? Sorry, but really.
Sometimes though- and what got me going the other night-was.....my ex thinks I am frieaking bonkers ( blah blah), so does my sister and my mother is now questioning my sanity......so thanks for that one Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! ( Youd think your own mum would knkow you better!).
You say you were raped ( sorry I hate that word) at 19 -do you go back and think about it time and time again?. i still think its my own ill doing, I still blame myself. I was 20. I still think about it- I also kept it really quiet for years...in fact, after it I never erally bothered. Cleaned the bed clothes, moved to a friends and just got on with it.....It wasnt till later that things started to creep in.....I did think that it was wrong and so on, but I had so many other things to feal with at the time..I guess I switched it out of my mind then. When I returned home, I do rember sweating about it and thinking what a nightmare it was. Thats the other thing.....people just question others when an allegation such as this is made. I know its a serious one-in that sense, but also, perhaps it was my missinterpretation with him.....Nah-sorry I cant buy it....nope thats not how I remeber it But the whole thing scares me to death now...even the saying "Oh come on....you know you want to"really amkes me boil inside, makes me want to be sick, and also I have issues eating around him etc...almost like I deserve to go hungry.....yeh well perhaps I do.
The workmen are just about finished here- and soon as things-ie I improve with my lifestyle changes, we will wave bye bye. dawn - though, you must see though that he has away of making me feel really insecure about my own judgements, and like youve said weeds his way back in...Omg-sorry ..I know I have to change, I have to, but Im scared, im scared financially , im scared of being alone, Im scared of being overwhelmed by my girls demands. Im scared of everything. Another part of it, is a total desire to forget ..to try again to be wanted, to be needed and feel appreciated and loved. ( I know thats stupid-I know that never was and never will happen). God the emergency services are busy here tonight- what a noise!
beccas bithday is coming up, and feeling the pressure.
I hope everything is okay with yourself. You sound a bit harassed ( hope you dont mind me saying so) and I want be helping!
To be honest, I dont really want to exist- I dont want to be here, in this place. trying to remain sober and feeling wth am I doing? all the time. About every part of my life, and what no ne gets is how my family do not give me any breathing space...or more I dont feel like they give me my space>
Anyway, enough! Ive time tomorrow to go to housing. I did try to see my HO, but like I say she wasnt in the building and they prefer you to make an appointment. ive time tomorrow to do this. I was hoping this would have been all over by now.
Anyway, take care.
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I'll never give up on you Katy! I just want you to take stock! I TOTALLY understand you being nervous about the future, who isn't? And you have NEVER had the support from your family that you should have had! But now you have to support yourself! And get the support too!I had a BAD day yesterday, they are talking about giving me chemotherapy along with all this surgery! I was DEVESTATED, and you got some of it honey - sorry about that! I don't mean to be so harsh with you, I just want better for you that's all! i want you to be loved and come out of this stronger and never be a door mat again! that's all! I'm having surgery again tommorrow, so wont be intouch probably for a couple of days. So chin up honey! This will happen and you WILL be better I promise! Much Love and friendship Dawn
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AWe Dawn- I hope the surgery goes well for you. That want have helped -being told you might need chemo. Hopefully , you want, hospitals have a tendency to look at the worse possible, extreme scenario that could happen. I hope thats all that s. Having said that, I know a guy that gets chemo, and has done for some time, not lost any hair ( really lucky), he does get sick though. He takes it in pill form, not how it used to be given-which I thik is a good thing. I really hope you dont have to go through that though. And with that worry, you even have time to talk to me. see I get angry at me-because of my doom.
Ive been birthday shopping for Becca. Obviously he hasnt given me a penny etc etc, Shes demanding so much-and I feel guilty as I cant make her happy.( More scared that she will be dissapointed by her day).
benefits place have been in touch....(Lol) 4 pound seventy 4 pence a week... Bog roll money!!! I dont seem to be ungrateful but thats like , maybe neayly 20 punds per month . It must have cost more to pay the administrators to put through the paperwork
Then another form asking about when so and so has left....so they can calculate my housing benefit. Grrrr!!! Looks like Ill have to go through the entire process all over again
Im not happy with the way i look at the moment. I hate these shopping places with the mirrors everywhere.-I think im looking massive-legs look enormous. Mind you I think theyve swollen up since taking Baclofen - hopefully its my imaginataion.
I did have a joke for you earlier-but its gione now. I wanted to cheer you up.
Well, I hope today goes very well for you...Ive my fingers crossed that they will be able to remove it, and you want need chemo-did they say how long , if it was to happen? Look forward to hearing form you, and take it really easy.
Ive been birthday shopping for Becca. Obviously he hasnt given me a penny etc etc, Shes demanding so much-and I feel guilty as I cant make her happy.( More scared that she will be dissapointed by her day).
benefits place have been in touch....(Lol) 4 pound seventy 4 pence a week... Bog roll money!!! I dont seem to be ungrateful but thats like , maybe neayly 20 punds per month . It must have cost more to pay the administrators to put through the paperwork
Then another form asking about when so and so has left....so they can calculate my housing benefit. Grrrr!!! Looks like Ill have to go through the entire process all over again
Im not happy with the way i look at the moment. I hate these shopping places with the mirrors everywhere.-I think im looking massive-legs look enormous. Mind you I think theyve swollen up since taking Baclofen - hopefully its my imaginataion.
I did have a joke for you earlier-but its gione now. I wanted to cheer you up.
Well, I hope today goes very well for you...Ive my fingers crossed that they will be able to remove it, and you want need chemo-did they say how long , if it was to happen? Look forward to hearing form you, and take it really easy.
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Hi dawn=Ive had the strangest of days.
OKay, i dont expect to hear from you in a while-you need the rest. but i wanted to share a positive with you.
Ill begin witht the story of last night.
Right, yesterday I had my day off. Mum turned up unexpectantly and I went in a pure bad mood. Dont really know why. (Poor woman having to put up with me-but hey, she saw the girls).Okay, I was dreading going out. I have to suss out if I am fit to walk , or not everyday. If i can walk, ill do it come, rain hale or sunshine.....but if I am dizzy wobbily and the rest, i get the bus. I managed the walk to work....and to everyone else , tis a normal activity...i got to work feeling a little brighter.
We had a meeting. as usual-I couldnt come out my shell, There were the usual 18 year olds, and everytime I opened my mouth I felt like they were looking at me and tinking WEIRDOOOOOOOO!!! The would get uptight about it and sink back in to my shell. Sod I thought, its not worth the humiliation-dont open your gob.
I had a small glass of wine in the pub hoping it would cut the edge of things. It didnt ! I got more and more fed up...I was just pit squeak....sueak......and then into myself, and had moments of they have no idea who I am ...I should be putting my children to bed, etc, yet I still couldnt get the courage to be social and manage to say what I wanted to say. Sqqqqqqqqqqqqqquuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuueeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaakk! I got so upset, fely like I was invisiblwe...couldnt helo but think I am waisting my time with this...but then Id get the "Katy -are you all right: :Fine I respond...I dont really know why people ask me, I could be tthrowing my guts up and hyperventilating, or delirious with chickenpox, "yeah-im fine!!!!!!!" Okay, so I went ohome..Children were still up, and hed gone to bed. Id had enough. I was even thinking about suicide. I cant explain how I felt so empty, so useless, and the children...they just made a biog conflict in my head. Anyway, that swhen I went...I really need to talk to someone who understands, so picked up the phone and spoke to big sister. She knows what I m talking about and she was really understanding, but meanwhile, Im sipping wine-thinking -god I shouldnt.
Okay, so bad me, giot up -still feeling yuck, thinking ah well -done it again. Sinking feeling in my stomach and wanting to cry.
I got dressed up for work as a gnome no less, thinking everyone would do the same ( as it was dress up like a gnome day) I was the only silly tweeter to turn up in shorts and bright colourful tights and jumpers...oh dear - how hunmiliating...actually couldnt really have cared, and found it amusing, ..
Okay, work incentive is to put through tthe biggest sale. I got talking to a girl wh ois doing a course that I really want to do, Shed just started and was desperate for new clothes. anyway, so she told me to ring the place, and get started. I did, and ive got so much to do...Im staring a diploma in mental health, and then hoping to upgrade on the MSC forensic psychs course. Okay, so that got me anxiously excited, I just wantred to run zoom home and get started. Then they spent over 4 hundred pounds on my slae. No doubt someone will beat it, but i was well pleased, .Then you couldnt get me to shut up. Ive not stopped. Started to get excited about the future...Im still on cloud 9...
Okay, thats my news, The only downside is classes started this week, and ive to go next week, its Beccas birthday. but mum said shed help, though it want stop the guilt feelings.Ive never not been around for my girls especially on their special day.
Okay,,,so far thats my news.....hope your good, and all has gone well. I know youll be sore and uncomfy for a while so just rest, and I hope to here from you when your better. take care, Katy
OKay, i dont expect to hear from you in a while-you need the rest. but i wanted to share a positive with you.
Ill begin witht the story of last night.
Right, yesterday I had my day off. Mum turned up unexpectantly and I went in a pure bad mood. Dont really know why. (Poor woman having to put up with me-but hey, she saw the girls).Okay, I was dreading going out. I have to suss out if I am fit to walk , or not everyday. If i can walk, ill do it come, rain hale or sunshine.....but if I am dizzy wobbily and the rest, i get the bus. I managed the walk to work....and to everyone else , tis a normal activity...i got to work feeling a little brighter.
We had a meeting. as usual-I couldnt come out my shell, There were the usual 18 year olds, and everytime I opened my mouth I felt like they were looking at me and tinking WEIRDOOOOOOOO!!! The would get uptight about it and sink back in to my shell. Sod I thought, its not worth the humiliation-dont open your gob.
I had a small glass of wine in the pub hoping it would cut the edge of things. It didnt ! I got more and more fed up...I was just pit squeak....sueak......and then into myself, and had moments of they have no idea who I am ...I should be putting my children to bed, etc, yet I still couldnt get the courage to be social and manage to say what I wanted to say. Sqqqqqqqqqqqqqquuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuueeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaakk! I got so upset, fely like I was invisiblwe...couldnt helo but think I am waisting my time with this...but then Id get the "Katy -are you all right: :Fine I respond...I dont really know why people ask me, I could be tthrowing my guts up and hyperventilating, or delirious with chickenpox, "yeah-im fine!!!!!!!" Okay, so I went ohome..Children were still up, and hed gone to bed. Id had enough. I was even thinking about suicide. I cant explain how I felt so empty, so useless, and the children...they just made a biog conflict in my head. Anyway, that swhen I went...I really need to talk to someone who understands, so picked up the phone and spoke to big sister. She knows what I m talking about and she was really understanding, but meanwhile, Im sipping wine-thinking -god I shouldnt.
Okay, so bad me, giot up -still feeling yuck, thinking ah well -done it again. Sinking feeling in my stomach and wanting to cry.
I got dressed up for work as a gnome no less, thinking everyone would do the same ( as it was dress up like a gnome day) I was the only silly tweeter to turn up in shorts and bright colourful tights and jumpers...oh dear - how hunmiliating...actually couldnt really have cared, and found it amusing, ..
Okay, work incentive is to put through tthe biggest sale. I got talking to a girl wh ois doing a course that I really want to do, Shed just started and was desperate for new clothes. anyway, so she told me to ring the place, and get started. I did, and ive got so much to do...Im staring a diploma in mental health, and then hoping to upgrade on the MSC forensic psychs course. Okay, so that got me anxiously excited, I just wantred to run zoom home and get started. Then they spent over 4 hundred pounds on my slae. No doubt someone will beat it, but i was well pleased, .Then you couldnt get me to shut up. Ive not stopped. Started to get excited about the future...Im still on cloud 9...
Okay, thats my news, The only downside is classes started this week, and ive to go next week, its Beccas birthday. but mum said shed help, though it want stop the guilt feelings.Ive never not been around for my girls especially on their special day.
Okay,,,so far thats my news.....hope your good, and all has gone well. I know youll be sore and uncomfy for a while so just rest, and I hope to here from you when your better. take care, Katy
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Hi Dawn-hope you all right!!!
Ive a really bad pain in my chest and back-Im hoping its just side effects from all these drugs.
I was jmping up and down last night to my ipod and drinking tons of fizzy juice, Now exhausted. But I woke in the earl hours and my heart felt as though it was racing. Its probably all just in my head.
Right-going to give this thing a bash, oh, this is a fine line between changing and not.
Anyway, hope to hear rom you soon, Hope your getting better. Youre going through a lot realyy, even just 2 ops in the 5 months Ive spoken to you seems a lot to me.
Hope your good, and keep in touch.
Ive a really bad pain in my chest and back-Im hoping its just side effects from all these drugs.
I was jmping up and down last night to my ipod and drinking tons of fizzy juice, Now exhausted. But I woke in the earl hours and my heart felt as though it was racing. Its probably all just in my head.
Right-going to give this thing a bash, oh, this is a fine line between changing and not.
Anyway, hope to hear rom you soon, Hope your getting better. Youre going through a lot realyy, even just 2 ops in the 5 months Ive spoken to you seems a lot to me.
Hope your good, and keep in touch.
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Oh dear- it took me from 10 am to 1pm to fill out that thing-and I dont think it was very good. Hmpfph-( well at least i tried)
Im missing your little posts.Hope you get well soon.
Beccas just had her first drama group and alex is about to leave for brownie camp.( Ive never had her away with strangers for more than one night-so this will feel odd)
Anyway, hope your good, and maybe hear fom you next week??
Take care, throwing hugs your way.
Im missing your little posts.Hope you get well soon.
Beccas just had her first drama group and alex is about to leave for brownie camp.( Ive never had her away with strangers for more than one night-so this will feel odd)
Anyway, hope your good, and maybe hear fom you next week??
Take care, throwing hugs your way.
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I am so confused!
I couldnt get out of bed. managed eventually about an hour ago,,,,,,just feel all achey , but theres nothing wrong with me-im just lazy!
Ex waI dont know what to think, what to dom where to go bts us to sort this out and start a fresh! he told me last night...and then some more...Iam WHAT????????? I do.
nt know what to think, where to go what to do......
Managed to a shop exarlier and got a sweet...I started to wobble a bit,,,and this old man said something...I couldnt help myself so swore at him
Im missing Alex so much...its amazing how family dunamics change with the girls...Becca is now boss, and the cat is no longer trying to eat her
Anyway,I hope your well...I know your not, so that was a silly thing to put...so I hope you are getting better and that you are being well looked after,Thinking of you,Katy
I couldnt get out of bed. managed eventually about an hour ago,,,,,,just feel all achey , but theres nothing wrong with me-im just lazy!
Ex waI dont know what to think, what to dom where to go bts us to sort this out and start a fresh! he told me last night...and then some more...Iam WHAT????????? I do.
nt know what to think, where to go what to do......
Managed to a shop exarlier and got a sweet...I started to wobble a bit,,,and this old man said something...I couldnt help myself so swore at him
Im missing Alex so much...its amazing how family dunamics change with the girls...Becca is now boss, and the cat is no longer trying to eat her
Anyway,I hope your well...I know your not, so that was a silly thing to put...so I hope you are getting better and that you are being well looked after,Thinking of you,Katy
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I understand about Becca, but you have to make her understand your situation, we are in SO much debt becaues I kept buying for the kids, WHATEVER they wanted or wanted to wear i bought it! I have 1 skirt for summer with 4 brown shirts, and 1 pair of pants for winter with about 4 tops for that!!!!!! I covered for a girlfriend of mine just over a week ago and when I arrived, she said "Christ Dawn don't you have any other clothes?!!!" I was really embarrassed!!!
So are you going to Paris, Milan or Barcelona with your weekly allowance!! WOW!! I wish I was living there, JHC!!!!!!!! o.O I bet it cost more to mail the friggin thing!!!! It's like me with my disability check - $600 a month!!! There is NO WAY I could live on that on my own!!
The course sounds FANTASTIC!!!! I always wanted to get into forensics and I love Mental stuff!!! One of my favorite books is called "Small Sacrifices" It's about this b***h that tried to kill her 3 kids and how they figured out how she did it! ABSOLUTELY Fascinating! I couldn't make out about what you were saying about him ?!!!!" Ex waI dont know what to think, what to dom where to go bts us to sort this out and start a fresh! he told me last night...and then some more...Iam WHAT????????? I do.
nt know what to think, where to go what to do...... " what does this mean?
You have to try and think why you are having such anxiety! Is it because of him, because of you leaving,? Which one is it?
So are you going to Paris, Milan or Barcelona with your weekly allowance!! WOW!! I wish I was living there, JHC!!!!!!!! o.O I bet it cost more to mail the friggin thing!!!! It's like me with my disability check - $600 a month!!! There is NO WAY I could live on that on my own!!
The course sounds FANTASTIC!!!! I always wanted to get into forensics and I love Mental stuff!!! One of my favorite books is called "Small Sacrifices" It's about this b***h that tried to kill her 3 kids and how they figured out how she did it! ABSOLUTELY Fascinating! I couldn't make out about what you were saying about him ?!!!!" Ex waI dont know what to think, what to dom where to go bts us to sort this out and start a fresh! he told me last night...and then some more...Iam WHAT????????? I do.
nt know what to think, where to go what to do...... " what does this mean?
You have to try and think why you are having such anxiety! Is it because of him, because of you leaving,? Which one is it?
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Hi dawn. Its great to hear from you!!! how are you? How was the op? whats happening with you?
Yeah-I got incredibly excited about that course, and now feeling the doom as i probably want be good enough! I mean youve seen my alevel grade A english - oh dear, Ill not get in due to my crappie english!!!!!
Ok, Ive been on my laptop . I ve allready wrote you a message and then this bloody thing switched me off -with no warning. normally it beeps at you , like a cardiac arrest thing-but not today, no it just died on me, no warning, no nothing, c**p thing. nearly flung the b****r out the window.
ive a cold, I think thats why I couldnt get out my bed yesterday and today. Also got beccas excema -thanks hon. Shes managed to organise a birthday party -without even asking. im worried about her. She rang her friend and they had this conversationa bout how they were not going to snog each other anymore %-) o.O :shock
You mentionaed you have no clothes-do you want some.? Ive far too much-the benefits of working in clothing stores for the past 7 years-and if no ne takes them , the moths will eat there way through them, and we will have another infestation.
See-you mention about .....@what is it that is making you anxious?? Ive always been anxious....like states you would never know. I remeber being 4 and nearly biting a doctor........I remeber they had to inject me in my butt as I was busy fitting about thiking what for?????? anyway.....now I am anxious about gettin onto this course, then anxious about having to commute there,,,then anxious about what it will belike going back the way before going forward, and then what if its all another waist of time....what if I cant get a job still? And how will I cope working part time, children ...him and so on .....what if I cant do it???/ And I really want to ...but its that...before I felt I was gong mad I was fleeing about the place trying to sort my life abit, and then mum got ill, ....I couldnt prioritse....and my boss then ....well Id asked for time off, and she was just a b***h....she was one of these people that one minute was your best friend and the next seemed to be really cold and bitter with me. i was looking for friends and I thought she was 1 of them,, and she did put up with a lot of sh*t from me,, but I felt like she used it to put me in my place........does that make any sense? and then thats another thing-why do i think the world is against me????everyone, ...why does everyone else manage to do wel?/ What do these peoplehave that i dont??? Ive always felt that! If there was going to be one person to fail -that person would be me.....all the time....if there was going to be one person to be picked on...that would be me......if there was one person that was going to efff up her enetire life...that person would be me...........its that feeling........those feelings that haunt me all my life.
I seem to have an exceptionally good long term memory and a c**p awful short term memory, yet things are probably a bit out of place regarding the long term thing, everyone remebers things differently from what they werer-yet theres not really one person that can say No this is what really happened as everyone has a different perception and views the world differently and , talks about things from there own perspective. Oh lost rthe plot -ive lost it completely.
Im feeling better than I did yesterday. I couldnt get out of bed and now feeling like I am choking in my own flat , but too scared to leave the house.
I nearly up chucked after watching casualty last night. the doc has a brain tumour-ive a friend with something similar and its the fact that they drill through the skill.....euch!!!!!
Ive lost the thread of what I was saying now-Im just pleased to hear form you. Ive been worried about you-have they said anything about your treatment. I know its scary , very scary-youll get through, and when your better youll appreciate life better than anyone else.
Yeah-I dont think it will be paris, malan, barcelona ill be going to -buut a wee short sharp trip to cell block H, as hes not showing any signs of moving out,, Ive not heard from housing.....he tried to ...okay not going there.....anyway.....so ill be hung for my 4 pounds 74 pence a week-im not koing either, they can actually get me for fraud , and there going to interview him about it.....i mean, come on would you trust him and his large prawn that he doesnt know what to do with??????
Im loving my kitchen though, i had this nightmare of living back with my ex sis in law and his brother....we used to live n their 3rd floor at the top of their house....yes the council had given us a new kitchen and it was a total fabbie shaker kitchen and ....we let them put it in this rented flat and then these folks kick us all out with a rather hard one....were homeless with 7 week old baby, him all aggressive and my baldy 2 and a half year old alex who i hold tight , so titght as I cant believe what is happening. ( the thing is , its true apart from the kitchen, this is true) yes, I ve waited 7 years for a nice place to live, yet when I was growing up and we moved to this gorgeous large house...I used to look at my mum , in fact stil do, and think your living a lie........Im now doing the same thing,..( though I must admit, my mum has grown to love her partner thorugh a rather lengthy business plan) well that how I see it. cruel but well , thats how I felt about it...i dont know anyone who would move in with a nother man after 4 months of knowing them , yet having accused my dad of the rest....and he did that because she did this ,, and she did this because he did that..... and who the hell are we????? I got embarassed about having frinds to my house as theyd spend the tim going wow ! Look at this house,,,and wow!tyou kmmust have a great life and ...it is a lovely place ...but I feel like a failure now for what I am , what ibve become and canrt talk to my mum and shes all to materialistic,, and now Ive got to move out into another dump all because of him and his you know what...I want to go back to the days when I could talk to my grandad and his girlfriend in their caravan..They used to sit drinking wjhisky and used to feed me liqurice all sorts and watch laurel and hardy together.....and we used to actually talk. Nothing materil would be mentioned Wed talk about rela things...whereas ALL I SEEM TO GET FROM MY MUM ( WHO I LOVE DONT GET ME WRONG) ALL I get is hygiene and materialism,,,,and she talks about carpets, sheets , all these things and I juast want to tell her to shut up,,,,shut up before I scream and chuck my body of off something. Please, she wants me to stay hear, and just switch my benefits back-she doesnt thin I can do it, she says we work a s a atema, regardless, if we dont sllep ion the same bedroom anymore, we work as a team for the children etc and hes still plumbing and doing extra thing in this flat...right ive gone on, but I guess you get the picture. My foot is throbbing today. I understand my mum though, its as though she doesnt know how to help so she just deals with her worls...its a bit like me, when I get really stressed about things, I thin k im fat and go on and on about my body weight, and its a hude distraction form thinking about the real problems.
That reminds me, I fi eat a another piece of flippin brocolliim goona turn green- I made a suauseag hot pot yesterday and I spiced it up.....but couldnt sto peating, the strangest thin is I can get my size 8 trousers on, yet still looking in the mirror and think I ve huge massive fat thighs.....I am however small so I psossibly do have massive huge fat thighgs, and Im rebelling ....pulled my hIR BACK FROM MY FACE, AND MY MUM USED TO GIVE ME A ROW FOR DOING SO....@yOU LOOK MUCH PRETTIER WITH A FRINGS-YOUR HAIR IS YOUR BLESSING" My hair is my mess.
Ive still got sinnisitus so going back to see my doctor on wednesday. I might mention my toe-dont know though-that thing about amputation freaked me a little...All my other toes have swollen up...I think those pad things made my foot worse and the other foots started to do the same thing. Right before I stress you out your box,,im going to ski daddle.
Ive been told to attend classes on this course next week, but its beccas birthday, and Im worried about gettin out and getting the train...my stomach goes all buterflies, and then what if I dont get in , I miss beccas birthdya, and that couls scr her....and then what if the train crashes and I never see her again...............okay, im going to go now before my laptop spontaneously ex[lodes on my lap........I find this thing so slow. Anyway, hope your resting up....its great to hear from you , and look after you, Katy
Yeah-I got incredibly excited about that course, and now feeling the doom as i probably want be good enough! I mean youve seen my alevel grade A english - oh dear, Ill not get in due to my crappie english!!!!!
Ok, Ive been on my laptop . I ve allready wrote you a message and then this bloody thing switched me off -with no warning. normally it beeps at you , like a cardiac arrest thing-but not today, no it just died on me, no warning, no nothing, c**p thing. nearly flung the b****r out the window.
ive a cold, I think thats why I couldnt get out my bed yesterday and today. Also got beccas excema -thanks hon. Shes managed to organise a birthday party -without even asking. im worried about her. She rang her friend and they had this conversationa bout how they were not going to snog each other anymore %-) o.O :shock
You mentionaed you have no clothes-do you want some.? Ive far too much-the benefits of working in clothing stores for the past 7 years-and if no ne takes them , the moths will eat there way through them, and we will have another infestation.
See-you mention about .....@what is it that is making you anxious?? Ive always been anxious....like states you would never know. I remeber being 4 and nearly biting a doctor........I remeber they had to inject me in my butt as I was busy fitting about thiking what for?????? anyway.....now I am anxious about gettin onto this course, then anxious about having to commute there,,,then anxious about what it will belike going back the way before going forward, and then what if its all another waist of time....what if I cant get a job still? And how will I cope working part time, children ...him and so on .....what if I cant do it???/ And I really want to ...but its that...before I felt I was gong mad I was fleeing about the place trying to sort my life abit, and then mum got ill, ....I couldnt prioritse....and my boss then ....well Id asked for time off, and she was just a b***h....she was one of these people that one minute was your best friend and the next seemed to be really cold and bitter with me. i was looking for friends and I thought she was 1 of them,, and she did put up with a lot of sh*t from me,, but I felt like she used it to put me in my place........does that make any sense? and then thats another thing-why do i think the world is against me????everyone, ...why does everyone else manage to do wel?/ What do these peoplehave that i dont??? Ive always felt that! If there was going to be one person to fail -that person would be me.....all the time....if there was going to be one person to be picked on...that would be me......if there was one person that was going to efff up her enetire life...that person would be me...........its that feeling........those feelings that haunt me all my life.
I seem to have an exceptionally good long term memory and a c**p awful short term memory, yet things are probably a bit out of place regarding the long term thing, everyone remebers things differently from what they werer-yet theres not really one person that can say No this is what really happened as everyone has a different perception and views the world differently and , talks about things from there own perspective. Oh lost rthe plot -ive lost it completely.
Im feeling better than I did yesterday. I couldnt get out of bed and now feeling like I am choking in my own flat , but too scared to leave the house.
I nearly up chucked after watching casualty last night. the doc has a brain tumour-ive a friend with something similar and its the fact that they drill through the skill.....euch!!!!!
Ive lost the thread of what I was saying now-Im just pleased to hear form you. Ive been worried about you-have they said anything about your treatment. I know its scary , very scary-youll get through, and when your better youll appreciate life better than anyone else.
Yeah-I dont think it will be paris, malan, barcelona ill be going to -buut a wee short sharp trip to cell block H, as hes not showing any signs of moving out,, Ive not heard from housing.....he tried to ...okay not going there.....anyway.....so ill be hung for my 4 pounds 74 pence a week-im not koing either, they can actually get me for fraud , and there going to interview him about it.....i mean, come on would you trust him and his large prawn that he doesnt know what to do with??????
Im loving my kitchen though, i had this nightmare of living back with my ex sis in law and his brother....we used to live n their 3rd floor at the top of their house....yes the council had given us a new kitchen and it was a total fabbie shaker kitchen and ....we let them put it in this rented flat and then these folks kick us all out with a rather hard one....were homeless with 7 week old baby, him all aggressive and my baldy 2 and a half year old alex who i hold tight , so titght as I cant believe what is happening. ( the thing is , its true apart from the kitchen, this is true) yes, I ve waited 7 years for a nice place to live, yet when I was growing up and we moved to this gorgeous large house...I used to look at my mum , in fact stil do, and think your living a lie........Im now doing the same thing,..( though I must admit, my mum has grown to love her partner thorugh a rather lengthy business plan) well that how I see it. cruel but well , thats how I felt about it...i dont know anyone who would move in with a nother man after 4 months of knowing them , yet having accused my dad of the rest....and he did that because she did this ,, and she did this because he did that..... and who the hell are we????? I got embarassed about having frinds to my house as theyd spend the tim going wow ! Look at this house,,,and wow!tyou kmmust have a great life and ...it is a lovely place ...but I feel like a failure now for what I am , what ibve become and canrt talk to my mum and shes all to materialistic,, and now Ive got to move out into another dump all because of him and his you know what...I want to go back to the days when I could talk to my grandad and his girlfriend in their caravan..They used to sit drinking wjhisky and used to feed me liqurice all sorts and watch laurel and hardy together.....and we used to actually talk. Nothing materil would be mentioned Wed talk about rela things...whereas ALL I SEEM TO GET FROM MY MUM ( WHO I LOVE DONT GET ME WRONG) ALL I get is hygiene and materialism,,,,and she talks about carpets, sheets , all these things and I juast want to tell her to shut up,,,,shut up before I scream and chuck my body of off something. Please, she wants me to stay hear, and just switch my benefits back-she doesnt thin I can do it, she says we work a s a atema, regardless, if we dont sllep ion the same bedroom anymore, we work as a team for the children etc and hes still plumbing and doing extra thing in this flat...right ive gone on, but I guess you get the picture. My foot is throbbing today. I understand my mum though, its as though she doesnt know how to help so she just deals with her worls...its a bit like me, when I get really stressed about things, I thin k im fat and go on and on about my body weight, and its a hude distraction form thinking about the real problems.
That reminds me, I fi eat a another piece of flippin brocolliim goona turn green- I made a suauseag hot pot yesterday and I spiced it up.....but couldnt sto peating, the strangest thin is I can get my size 8 trousers on, yet still looking in the mirror and think I ve huge massive fat thighs.....I am however small so I psossibly do have massive huge fat thighgs, and Im rebelling ....pulled my hIR BACK FROM MY FACE, AND MY MUM USED TO GIVE ME A ROW FOR DOING SO....@yOU LOOK MUCH PRETTIER WITH A FRINGS-YOUR HAIR IS YOUR BLESSING" My hair is my mess.
Ive still got sinnisitus so going back to see my doctor on wednesday. I might mention my toe-dont know though-that thing about amputation freaked me a little...All my other toes have swollen up...I think those pad things made my foot worse and the other foots started to do the same thing. Right before I stress you out your box,,im going to ski daddle.
Ive been told to attend classes on this course next week, but its beccas birthday, and Im worried about gettin out and getting the train...my stomach goes all buterflies, and then what if I dont get in , I miss beccas birthdya, and that couls scr her....and then what if the train crashes and I never see her again...............okay, im going to go now before my laptop spontaneously ex[lodes on my lap........I find this thing so slow. Anyway, hope your resting up....its great to hear from you , and look after you, Katy
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Hi Dawn-back again-im defo no well!!!Totally groggie¬¬something is going around. neighbours daughter throw up everywhere ( apparently) and so cold.
back in my pyjamas. Alex is home.She is so so tired, but boy her artistic eye is excellent. She has made an amazing face mask, and came home with a certificate for having the cleanest dorm-think thats a different girl!
ooh dear - she came home with a bad joke......she says "Spell icup in capital" So I spell it i.c.u.p. i.n. c.a.p.i.t.a.l.s..( whoops).....write , sorry right, spell i C U P, ( I see you pee) is what is meant :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D alex was laughing at me for having an unusual answer to that one, I was laughing at the joke, and now we are watching scooby Doo . Him thing has gone to work and want be back till late-so were having some mummy time, dvds , ice cream and they both cuddle me all the timme, its like two armw clung on...I am like an alien with loads of limbs Okay, better go do some housework....(nahe.....kids dvds seem much more appealing.
back in my pyjamas. Alex is home.She is so so tired, but boy her artistic eye is excellent. She has made an amazing face mask, and came home with a certificate for having the cleanest dorm-think thats a different girl!
ooh dear - she came home with a bad joke......she says "Spell icup in capital" So I spell it i.c.u.p. i.n. c.a.p.i.t.a.l.s..( whoops).....write , sorry right, spell i C U P, ( I see you pee) is what is meant :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D alex was laughing at me for having an unusual answer to that one, I was laughing at the joke, and now we are watching scooby Doo . Him thing has gone to work and want be back till late-so were having some mummy time, dvds , ice cream and they both cuddle me all the timme, its like two armw clung on...I am like an alien with loads of limbs Okay, better go do some housework....(nahe.....kids dvds seem much more appealing.
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OK! On Wednesday you HAVE to tell him about the swelling and your feet! I think you do have an allergy! I know you wont tell him, but please write it down and hand it too him! You are just wasting his and yours time if you don't tell him whats wrong!
GO TO THE COURSE!!!! And don't do fraud!! You will be black listed for ever! Tell them he wont leave and you are afraid of him! Get in there first, before he gets a chance to throw you under the bus!!!
Was Becca talking to a girl or a guy? If its a girl - TOTALLY normal!!!
I know you have always had anxiety, but I didn't understand your message, and what has he done that you didn't want to talk about?
I'm pretty swollen and my eye is every color of the rainbow! I need to have a break from all of this, the doctor said a scientist wants to study me!!!!!! I'm fed up of being looked at and studied!!!
GO TO THE COURSE!!!! And don't do fraud!! You will be black listed for ever! Tell them he wont leave and you are afraid of him! Get in there first, before he gets a chance to throw you under the bus!!!
Was Becca talking to a girl or a guy? If its a girl - TOTALLY normal!!!
I know you have always had anxiety, but I didn't understand your message, and what has he done that you didn't want to talk about?
I'm pretty swollen and my eye is every color of the rainbow! I need to have a break from all of this, the doctor said a scientist wants to study me!!!!!! I'm fed up of being looked at and studied!!!
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Hi Dawn. A scientitst wants a look at you o.O The girls are sitting beside me doing their homework. I dont know - you do need a break from that pain, I cant imagine how you are feeling.
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I got to work early today, and started that stupido crying thinis hands in his pockets etc for Beccas g again. Im really itchy all over my body-cant stop scratching.-nose stuffed, and know im hanging onto a very thin threas here. I ended up telling him to put hiscoment Are you happy about that hands in his pockets===(if they possibly reach)...and that he cant continue using people, ( awe scratch scratch). He actually listened and went out and got her a pressie. Sorry, I am really itchy, and now I feel guilty-do you think hes trying to change? I am really itchy and in my back /cant reach it, Also, feeling really sick. Ive definately got a bug, as I got to work and I could feel my tummy getting really sore. I asked to go to the bug toilets as I cant do the toilet if I think someone is listening, Anyway, I got given odd looks and ran out ( just in time).
People could tell i was not myself today, sorry im so itchy. felt so sick walking to the school, got their but got really anxiuos about getting home so as not to chuck up in the street. Im home and just feel nauseas. I dont know if this is a tummy bug or me getting uptight about the week.
Did your doctor say what treatment you would be needing-is this why you need to be a guinea pig? Is it normal to be seen by a scientist? never heard that before.
I had to say at work that I couldnt do - and then questions were asked. Also , im scared to take that baclofen while my tummi is playing funny things.
See at work i felt like I wa being spoken to like a right divey headcase, and it wouldnt be the first time ive felt this in the workplace. Im wondering thoughif this is where all my problems really stem from. I beginning to think it is. I mean, when I had kids and maybe Im just oversensitive and maybe then I am perceiving things all wrong, and then get frustrated and think who the hell do they think they are talking to and then do that thing in my head where I think they really think i am thick and they are talking to me like I am an id**t, and then I say stupid things because I feel like the class id**t.Im the eldest there, and Im sorry but this is truly an issue for me, and then is it me seeing things all wrong? and then maybe he isnt such a bully afterall maybe its my perception . Maybe hes not that bad maybe it is the way I see things thats bad. Oh I thought I d better tell you this typing keeps jumping as the main computer is broken , I am on my laptop, and its hard to even type a sentence.
The other thing is I know I am perceiving these people at work wrongly but I only know this as I do it evrywhere, im just glad I can identify when I start on one. i reckon i just look thick awe all itchy on my back now
Anyway, Id better help someone with their homework. By the way, it was a girl on the phone to Becca, I just find that a weird thing to do. shes only 7. Im just a miserable cow as Id like to chuck whatever this is up! Have you watched district 9 yet, theres a bit when the guy is sick and I cant handle it, and then his fingernails fall out-I cant handle it-then blkack stuff starts coming out his nose-I cant handle it!
How long will it take for your head to heal?
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I got to work early today, and started that stupido crying thinis hands in his pockets etc for Beccas g again. Im really itchy all over my body-cant stop scratching.-nose stuffed, and know im hanging onto a very thin threas here. I ended up telling him to put hiscoment Are you happy about that hands in his pockets===(if they possibly reach)...and that he cant continue using people, ( awe scratch scratch). He actually listened and went out and got her a pressie. Sorry, I am really itchy, and now I feel guilty-do you think hes trying to change? I am really itchy and in my back /cant reach it, Also, feeling really sick. Ive definately got a bug, as I got to work and I could feel my tummy getting really sore. I asked to go to the bug toilets as I cant do the toilet if I think someone is listening, Anyway, I got given odd looks and ran out ( just in time).
People could tell i was not myself today, sorry im so itchy. felt so sick walking to the school, got their but got really anxiuos about getting home so as not to chuck up in the street. Im home and just feel nauseas. I dont know if this is a tummy bug or me getting uptight about the week.
Did your doctor say what treatment you would be needing-is this why you need to be a guinea pig? Is it normal to be seen by a scientist? never heard that before.
I had to say at work that I couldnt do - and then questions were asked. Also , im scared to take that baclofen while my tummi is playing funny things.
See at work i felt like I wa being spoken to like a right divey headcase, and it wouldnt be the first time ive felt this in the workplace. Im wondering thoughif this is where all my problems really stem from. I beginning to think it is. I mean, when I had kids and maybe Im just oversensitive and maybe then I am perceiving things all wrong, and then get frustrated and think who the hell do they think they are talking to and then do that thing in my head where I think they really think i am thick and they are talking to me like I am an id**t, and then I say stupid things because I feel like the class id**t.Im the eldest there, and Im sorry but this is truly an issue for me, and then is it me seeing things all wrong? and then maybe he isnt such a bully afterall maybe its my perception . Maybe hes not that bad maybe it is the way I see things thats bad. Oh I thought I d better tell you this typing keeps jumping as the main computer is broken , I am on my laptop, and its hard to even type a sentence.
The other thing is I know I am perceiving these people at work wrongly but I only know this as I do it evrywhere, im just glad I can identify when I start on one. i reckon i just look thick awe all itchy on my back now
Anyway, Id better help someone with their homework. By the way, it was a girl on the phone to Becca, I just find that a weird thing to do. shes only 7. Im just a miserable cow as Id like to chuck whatever this is up! Have you watched district 9 yet, theres a bit when the guy is sick and I cant handle it, and then his fingernails fall out-I cant handle it-then blkack stuff starts coming out his nose-I cant handle it!
How long will it take for your head to heal?
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