My partner and I have been together for almost 13 years and we have just relocated back to his home town. Over the past 13 years i have not been the best partner to him. He worked hard while I got to dtay home with our kids. When we would party i would "forget" i was in a relationship and behave in a manner i am not proud of. Ee are now at the end of our teather howevet we have 2 young children that are caught up in the mix of all this. I dont want to leave my children but I cant take them away from him. He is a wonderful dad and has been very patient with me. I think i suffer from mental illness but have never been diagnosed. Last night we had a bad night whete he aired his feelings about me and although I am heart broken it doesnt compare to the heartache i have caused him. I would love to be able to stay in my childrens lives but i dont think its going to be a reality. I have a job and good income back.in my home town and so far no job prospects down here. I have no support or place to live either down here. I dont want my kids to hate me.for leaving but i feel like k dont have a choice. Without my children i dont want to live. What should i do??