I had my abortion 6 days ago. I have had light bleeding since and I have gone through a very stressful situation right after my abortion. I have never approved of abortion until now. I made the difficult decision to have it done and now all I can think is what have I done. I gave up on that life inside of me. Everyday sense I pray that what I did didn't take. I have not slept more than a few hours a night since. I can't eat bc I will throw it up. I feel sick top my stomach. My sense of smell is still over the top. My heart is constantly racing. I am sure the abortion took, but I pray me than anything it didn't.
Hi there
Every single woman undergoes emotional trauma after an abortion, some even have dreams of their unborn child.
After the loss of a pregnancy, it is common to feel anger, grief, guilt and/or shame. You may also question your spiritual beliefs or feel a sense of relief or empowerment. It is possible, and normal, to feel all or none of these. It is also quite normal to have feelings that seem to contradict each other. For example, some women feel a sense of sadness and a sense of relief at the same time. For some women, the feelings may be felt weeks, months, even years after the loss of a pregnancy through abortion, miscarriage, stillbirth or adoption. Whatever you are feeling, you are entitled to a grieving which is an emotional health process after an abortion.
Expressing your feelings is crucial to emotional health as is honoring your experience so that you integrate this event into your life, not push it down or try to forget it. Sometimes it’s a matter of finding someone you can talk to- someone you can trust to be non-judgmental. Some women seek out professional counselors or spiritual advisors.
You may want to create your own way to acknowledge your loss or changes. It may be as simple as releasing a symbolic object into the water, planting a tree or writing a letter or poem.
Love, light and blessings