I have been a methadone clinic "client" for over 8 years my doses varied fro 90 to 240 mill per day. Before that I used Oxycontin and when I couldn't get that snorted Heroin, Perc's, or whatever I could get. I've been a drug user most of my life like my father before me ( though I don't think he used those I mentioned here). I forced the clinic to slowley ruduce my meth to 50 milligrams a day. Because I had to move across state lines the clinic cut me off from my phase and said I had to come in every day. This forced me to go cold turkey three weeks ago and I still feel like c**p I have flu like symtoms and I'm so week that I can barely get up to walk to the bathroom. I already have a heart condition ( I had two heart attacks a couple of years ago). Will thisa ever end!!!!!!!! I'm so depressed that I have started to fixate on all the mistakes I've made in tis life which from here seems to be everything I've ever done. I'm 53 I feel like I'm dying and my life has been a total failure. I hopde all this is just the withdrawl but I'm starting to get really scared!!!!!