i really wanted to have this baby...i already love him/her...but i can't...im not ready to bring a new life on this world...for i can't gve him a life that he deserve...im still in college,.and my parents will be devastated if i told them...i will regret this decision...but i have no choice...and im willing to face the cicumstances of this choice...i just pray that God will forgive me...
Well, apparently you have a wide and mysterious world awaiting your discovery. What possible human teaching convinces you that you know what God feels, thinks, or believes? A pastor or priest? Would that be the same pastor or priest that is indicted for child molestation? Perhaps if you wish to be punished, you can find some evidence that God has left behind to make it clear that he personally required and invited you to create life - which in fact you cannot do, nor can any man, nor woman.
It is one thing to allow women their conceit that they 'create' life when in fact nature, dna, the universe are the creators, and they simply tolerate the growth, or in your case, as you have the right to do, realise that while you have been given the opportunity, you have made a material and well-considered decision as to your current fitness to raise a child.
If an all-powerful god who so loved you wanted to show you how much you care and believe in motherhood, might this not have been his/her/its way? If that same god wished to show you a sense of the kind of responsibility that you will need to live up to to be an effective parent, might this not be his/her/its way? As far as I am aware, you are not an authorised spokesman for god, and nor, much as they might wish to be, is any member of any church, anywhere.
Not the Dalai Lama, nor the Pope, nor anyone has any authorisation whatsoever from a non-human source to present their belief as though it was god's word. And if you doubt that, I have more information and awareness of what I speak than you can possibly imagine.
There is as much divinity in you, in every cell, in every fibre of your being, as there is in any other human being - when finally you can understand the divinity within a murderer, then you can begin to understand a minute particle of a fraction of a possible understanding of what god, the universe, the isness, that which drives, provides, creates, nurtures, supports and loves you possible is.
I have a lot of time for leaders who have genuinely shown compassion and understanding, and try to guide people, and the Dalai Lama is indeed up there, but he is not god, nor his advocate, nor authorised, beyond offering his own particular brand and insight into the truly divine, a divine that physicists touch and do not see - superstring theory is unbeknownst to them the story of creation, of the isness, of reality.
You are so far removed from an understanding of what 'God', Yahweh, the Isness, the Light really is, that you have not the slightest right or justification, beyond your own free will and self mortification, to feel as you do, and anticipate 'punishment' or forgiveness.
Very few people are ever 'ready' for the trials and challenges of life - ask any soldier who risks his life, whether he is 'ready' to give up his life for his country - willing to risk it, perhaps, but entirely without fear, at peace with himself, happy and content to let decades of love happiness and fulfilment escape him? That is a different thing entirely.
There is only one true arbiter of your life's experience, and that has already spoken, it speaks to you in your pain, it speaks to you in your hope, it speaks to you in your fear, and it speaks to you in your love, and that is your heart.
When and if you are ready to learn more about life, you will disover it. There is a whole world of people out there with experience that to you would be bizarre, unreal, beyond imagining, and it will continue that way, and you may never need to learn, never be the wiser, never truly know what is out there, how the world works, what is going on right now.
But one thing above all I can promise you, it is not god punishing you or threatening you, it is your fear, and only your fear.
No outsider, church, scientist, parent, doctor, politician, lawyer, forum respondent (me) can or has any grounds or any right for presuming authority over you, or presuming knowledge of an infinity that exceeds human understanding, least of all you, except in one tiny and absolute respect.
You have every right to believe whatever you choose to believe, including everything I've said, nothing I've said, everything the church as told you, nothing the church has told you, everything science tells you, nothing science tells you, and anything and everything that you can possibly imagine.
The only possible truth that matters, is that which you find in your heart.
God has far better things to worry about than whether two cells get to mate. The soul that could, would, or would not have chosen to link to that baby if it had been born, has a billion alternate cells, babies, to link to; and you have far more important things in your life to attend to than worrying about your church, your parents, or god.
You have you to think about.
You are already divine, and will never be less than that, and no harsher judgement of you will ever be passed than the one you pass on yourself.
If you really want to understand the Christ, read what he said, not what the church says. The church edited the bible to eliminate all references to the divinity within you, so as to be more effective in controlling its congregation - a matter of historical record, look it up.
The Gnostics, the Dead Sea Scrolls, even the teachings of Christ within the bible that the church didn't understand, and so didn't realise they should censor, all speak to your true nature: these things I do, ye shall do also.
You are the divine, for it is everything, and it is love. Do not presume to accuse it of hating you, when its sole and entire purpose in creation is just that: creation, not of cells, babies, infants to be fed, but emotions, experience, wonder, life as it is lived, not life as you are afraid it might be.
There is a world for you to discover: if you already know yourself well enough to know that you are not yet ready, then begin the exploration that will make you ready. Any bookshop will begin the journey. Pick one. Any website will begin the journey. Pick one. Any experience will begin the journey. Pick one.
And when you are ready to act from your heart, not your presumption of how others might feel, you will be ready to act in life from the heart, and the world, the isness, your soul, and your loved ones will radiate joy and happiness in seeing your happiness and fulfilment of your purpose.
It is one thing to allow women their conceit that they 'create' life when in fact nature, dna, the universe are the creators, and they simply tolerate the growth, or in your case, as you have the right to do, realise that while you have been given the opportunity, you have made a material and well-considered decision as to your current fitness to raise a child.
If an all-powerful god who so loved you wanted to show you how much you care and believe in motherhood, might this not have been his/her/its way? If that same god wished to show you a sense of the kind of responsibility that you will need to live up to to be an effective parent, might this not be his/her/its way? As far as I am aware, you are not an authorised spokesman for god, and nor, much as they might wish to be, is any member of any church, anywhere.
Not the Dalai Lama, nor the Pope, nor anyone has any authorisation whatsoever from a non-human source to present their belief as though it was god's word. And if you doubt that, I have more information and awareness of what I speak than you can possibly imagine.
There is as much divinity in you, in every cell, in every fibre of your being, as there is in any other human being - when finally you can understand the divinity within a murderer, then you can begin to understand a minute particle of a fraction of a possible understanding of what god, the universe, the isness, that which drives, provides, creates, nurtures, supports and loves you possible is.
I have a lot of time for leaders who have genuinely shown compassion and understanding, and try to guide people, and the Dalai Lama is indeed up there, but he is not god, nor his advocate, nor authorised, beyond offering his own particular brand and insight into the truly divine, a divine that physicists touch and do not see - superstring theory is unbeknownst to them the story of creation, of the isness, of reality.
You are so far removed from an understanding of what 'God', Yahweh, the Isness, the Light really is, that you have not the slightest right or justification, beyond your own free will and self mortification, to feel as you do, and anticipate 'punishment' or forgiveness.
Very few people are ever 'ready' for the trials and challenges of life - ask any soldier who risks his life, whether he is 'ready' to give up his life for his country - willing to risk it, perhaps, but entirely without fear, at peace with himself, happy and content to let decades of love happiness and fulfilment escape him? That is a different thing entirely.
There is only one true arbiter of your life's experience, and that has already spoken, it speaks to you in your pain, it speaks to you in your hope, it speaks to you in your fear, and it speaks to you in your love, and that is your heart.
When and if you are ready to learn more about life, you will disover it. There is a whole world of people out there with experience that to you would be bizarre, unreal, beyond imagining, and it will continue that way, and you may never need to learn, never be the wiser, never truly know what is out there, how the world works, what is going on right now.
But one thing above all I can promise you, it is not god punishing you or threatening you, it is your fear, and only your fear.
No outsider, church, scientist, parent, doctor, politician, lawyer, forum respondent (me) can or has any grounds or any right for presuming authority over you, or presuming knowledge of an infinity that exceeds human understanding, least of all you, except in one tiny and absolute respect.
You have every right to believe whatever you choose to believe, including everything I've said, nothing I've said, everything the church as told you, nothing the church has told you, everything science tells you, nothing science tells you, and anything and everything that you can possibly imagine.
The only possible truth that matters, is that which you find in your heart.
God has far better things to worry about than whether two cells get to mate. The soul that could, would, or would not have chosen to link to that baby if it had been born, has a billion alternate cells, babies, to link to; and you have far more important things in your life to attend to than worrying about your church, your parents, or god.
You have you to think about.
You are already divine, and will never be less than that, and no harsher judgement of you will ever be passed than the one you pass on yourself.
If you really want to understand the Christ, read what he said, not what the church says. The church edited the bible to eliminate all references to the divinity within you, so as to be more effective in controlling its congregation - a matter of historical record, look it up.
The Gnostics, the Dead Sea Scrolls, even the teachings of Christ within the bible that the church didn't understand, and so didn't realise they should censor, all speak to your true nature: these things I do, ye shall do also.
You are the divine, for it is everything, and it is love. Do not presume to accuse it of hating you, when its sole and entire purpose in creation is just that: creation, not of cells, babies, infants to be fed, but emotions, experience, wonder, life as it is lived, not life as you are afraid it might be.
There is a world for you to discover: if you already know yourself well enough to know that you are not yet ready, then begin the exploration that will make you ready. Any bookshop will begin the journey. Pick one. Any website will begin the journey. Pick one. Any experience will begin the journey. Pick one.
And when you are ready to act from your heart, not your presumption of how others might feel, you will be ready to act in life from the heart, and the world, the isness, your soul, and your loved ones will radiate joy and happiness in seeing your happiness and fulfilment of your purpose.