So I've been smoking weed for 7 years, first casually, then everyday for 3 years now.
Yes, I've had the odd day or so (including the 52 days straight - just to prove I can) when I didn't smoke. (side effects were insomnia, loss of appetite and crazy vivid end of the world type dreams. but I was the same person and no more motivated than I was on pot) But I generally feel better if I toke atleast once a day. I prefer bongs (meaning I don't consume as much in quantity as people who like joints. 1 or 2 b's gets me off. or should I say "on". hehe)
I'm 23 now. I don't have a license. I don't have a job. I have no routine. And I have no intention of getting a 9-5. It's not my personality. I am an artist. I love nature and gardening. It is my passion. I live with my parents (rent free) but buy all my own stuff (barely making it each month) with the little bit of money I make off selling my art. I have ambition - but no plan. I've never liked planning things.
My fiance insists that I quit and believes it will change me and give me the sudden motivation to be succesfull in life. But the worlds' idea of success and mine are completely opposite. I believe being succesful is being happy, not making money, drowning in debt and working a dead end job to pay for stuff I can't afford.
Needless to say, things arn't working out with my fiance. I'm a free spirit, he's a responsible workaholic with an intense dislike for weed. (even though he's known I smoke since he met me) He belives in money - I don't.
I smoked ciggs for a year - then it took me 6 months to quit. It wasn't that hard, because I really wanted to. That's how I know, that if I really wanted to, I can smoke weed.
But I don't want to!
I want to be self reliant, motivated and happy. But I'm doing it at my own pace and on my own terms. I am bi-polar (more often depro than manic) and weed levels me out, helps me sleep (I've always had crazy dreams since I can remember - weed takes those away), it helps me eat and needless to say, it inspires me to paint.
Is there something wrong with me for not wanting to quit?