I was kicked off my suboxone program ( which I had faithfuly followed with no relapses) due to running out while out of town taking care of my dying father. I tried to get an appointment before I left so I would be okay but was Til there were none . By day 2 I was a mess, so my grandmother gave me some lortab's. I never abused them. Only took them to control the withdrawal symptoms . Well, the day after I got back I had an appointment and surprise! Piss test . Who'd a thunk, right? So after trying to explain to him what happened, he basically said tough sh*t and walked out of the room. That was Tuesday. Today is Friday .i suppose I have been off of them a week? Including the time I was caring for my dad. My question is.. How long is this sh*t going to last?!? I feel like I'm dying . Suboxone.... What a effing joke. A whole year of being clean and sober and now I would do anything to get my hands on some pain pills. I'm doing everything I should.. Boost, Klonopin, rest, hot baths... I still want to die. What should I do? Should I go to the ER? Help me please.