We dated in highschool for 2 years when i had to move away for good. I thought i was in love with him because even after moving away i couldnt stop thinking about him. I didnt talk to him for almost a year, when i finallys started talking to him on online chat he told me he was seeing someone. I felt hurt and betrayed and so stupid that i couldnt move on while he could. For the next four years we wouuld talk online sometimes. I hated the fact that i knew his password for facebook and hotmail, and i hated that i still talked to him because that made it so much harder to let go of him.
After four years i was back in my hometown and he asked to meet up because it had been such a long time and i couldnt say no. I went to meet him at Tim Hortans but we decided to go to his car instead because i didnt want my parents driving by and seeing me with him. We talked for a bit int he car and he reclined his seat back, asked me to give him a hug. Before i knew it we started making out and he was on top of me. I drove me home but didnt talk to me properly after. I got mad at him so i didnt message him eaither. Eventually he messaged me asking if i was mad at him, and i said yes and we got into an argument. Eventually i apologized to him for saying some rude things.
After that he came to visit me at my residence, we were about to go eat out when he started hugging me and kissing me near his car. I got realy turned on and so we went to the back seat and fooled around. He had to go home soon so we finished and we decided to see eachother another time.
The next time he came to see me he stayed over and we had sex. the next morning he was driving me home and i went through his text messages and i found out that he had told his freind where he was and what he was doing. I was really angry because i asked him not to tell anyone since we werent even in a relationship. He got really mad at me, i have never seen him so angry in the 6 years i have known him. I wanted to talk to him and he kept saying we will talk later on. He has not talked to me since then. I feel like the stupidest person alive, i just lost my virginity to this guy and he stops talking to me the next day! i know he dosent want to get back with me and i am okay with that because i know i cant be with him, but it hurts so much to be rejected twice by thim. I cant even tell my freinds about this because they told me not to see him, whenever i am around him he takes full control of me and i want it to stop.
After four years i was back in my hometown and he asked to meet up because it had been such a long time and i couldnt say no. I went to meet him at Tim Hortans but we decided to go to his car instead because i didnt want my parents driving by and seeing me with him. We talked for a bit int he car and he reclined his seat back, asked me to give him a hug. Before i knew it we started making out and he was on top of me. I drove me home but didnt talk to me properly after. I got mad at him so i didnt message him eaither. Eventually he messaged me asking if i was mad at him, and i said yes and we got into an argument. Eventually i apologized to him for saying some rude things.
After that he came to visit me at my residence, we were about to go eat out when he started hugging me and kissing me near his car. I got realy turned on and so we went to the back seat and fooled around. He had to go home soon so we finished and we decided to see eachother another time.
The next time he came to see me he stayed over and we had sex. the next morning he was driving me home and i went through his text messages and i found out that he had told his freind where he was and what he was doing. I was really angry because i asked him not to tell anyone since we werent even in a relationship. He got really mad at me, i have never seen him so angry in the 6 years i have known him. I wanted to talk to him and he kept saying we will talk later on. He has not talked to me since then. I feel like the stupidest person alive, i just lost my virginity to this guy and he stops talking to me the next day! i know he dosent want to get back with me and i am okay with that because i know i cant be with him, but it hurts so much to be rejected twice by thim. I cant even tell my freinds about this because they told me not to see him, whenever i am around him he takes full control of me and i want it to stop.
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Karol,
I'm sorry that you've had such a rough time.
While it is true that you will never forget your first, you will learn and grow and move on.
From what you say, it sounds like the guy knew what he was doing and why... but that doesn't excuse his behavior.
From now on, it's his word against yours. You need not confirm nor deny anything that he may or may not have told his buddy. There is no proof, right?
So hold your held up, don't give into any more fights, and start looking for the next guy, armed with the knowledge that you know how a cad can operate. You are wiser now, but not damage merchandise. You are a better catch for your next bf, cause you've learned a bit about life.
Merry Xmas.
I'm sorry that you've had such a rough time.
While it is true that you will never forget your first, you will learn and grow and move on.
From what you say, it sounds like the guy knew what he was doing and why... but that doesn't excuse his behavior.
From now on, it's his word against yours. You need not confirm nor deny anything that he may or may not have told his buddy. There is no proof, right?
So hold your held up, don't give into any more fights, and start looking for the next guy, armed with the knowledge that you know how a cad can operate. You are wiser now, but not damage merchandise. You are a better catch for your next bf, cause you've learned a bit about life.
Merry Xmas.
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Hey
thank you so much for the reply. You dont know how much it makes me feel happy that someone knows the truth finally and that someone acutally cares to post a reply. Thank you so much, this is going to make my xhristmas ever better :-)
thank you so much for the reply. You dont know how much it makes me feel happy that someone knows the truth finally and that someone acutally cares to post a reply. Thank you so much, this is going to make my xhristmas ever better :-)
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i knw how u might feel - m even feeling terrible whn the guy to whom i gave my virginity has devalued me time and again !
for me virginity means a lot to me.... i kinda saved it for the ultimate man and wanted to do it wth one man only - the only man i love !
but reality is too cruel !
i cry almost everyday !
i recently try to chat wth some guys but i find it really difficult inside me !
he has really harmed me ! screwed my heart ! ! ! !
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