My boyfriend freaked out on me last week with a bipolar episode. for the last 8 month he quits me every week but wants to continue being friends. He associated his mood swings and distance and coldness to the lack of sleep from sleep apena so I adjusted and worked with him. Never once during our breakups has he ever apologized or took personal responsibility for his behaviors.  Each time it was always my fault and I would have to apologize as if it was my behaviors that caused the problems. Last weekend he flirted with one of my friends and we talked about it calmly and he acknowledge my request but that morning he came out dressed inappropriately for that environment and then justified his reasoning when asked about it. This is the first time I have ever seen these behaviors displayed and suddenly, in an outrage he began screaming and cursing at me.  At this point I was so concerned because I had never seen the abusive side of him. He got in the back seat and refused to get up front.  We drove 7 hours and he was hostal towards me. He blamed me and said I embarrassed him--told me this time he never wanted to be in a relationship with me ever again but he still wanted to be friends.

I told him I could not separate my love for him and I was no longer willing to play the back n forth game anymore; therefore, I was not willing to be his friend. He got verbally abusive in a way I have never experienced before and said some harsh things to me. I remember he briefly mentioned bipolar medicine after one of our many break ups so I begin reading up on it, he got angry at me for discussing bipolar with him and accused me of trying to fix and control him. At this point he has cut me completely off refusing my communication. After reading so many stories I decided I am willing to work with him because I love him. I did ask myself was I sticking around because my dad left my mother when she was diagnosed with some type of mental illiness.  No, I want to work it out because I really do love him.

From the information posted on the net, he has to be willing to do something different.  I know I can't change nor fix him but I can stick by him, no matter what!  We need prayers!!!!!!! People are telling me to walk away but I know together we can work through this; after all, I have survived 8 months of episodes not knowing what was really going on, everyone says education and communication is the key.

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