Hi everyone,
This message is fairly difficult to write, for I am currently going through an abortion. However, I felt the need to write my story, for there have been other courageous women who have put themselves out there, regardless of what others may think. I don't want to so much delve into my reason for having done the abortion, for I personally told my little seed why I couldn't go on with the pregnancy. But I do want to say, that this process has been very difficult on my part, from the moment I found out I was pregnant, to taking the first pill, and now being where I currently am. The first day, which was yesterday, wasn't too bad. The first pill you are required to take is called, Mifepristone, which is not bad at all. I did not bleed, nor throw up when taking the medication. In fact, everything seemed normal and okay for the most part. You are required to take the antibotics later that day, which is called, Azithromycin to prevent any infection from occurring. I also took another pill called, Ondansetron for nausea and vomiting. Again, these medications had no affect on me whatsoever, and that in part is a relief. But here comes the second day, (today), and I cannot begin to explain how terrible and painful my experience was. But please, before I begin to talk about my experience, take into consideration that every woman goes through something completely different, and I just so happen to be one of the unfortunate ones that couldn't tolerate the pain. I took the actual abortion pill, Misoprostol, at 11:20 A.M., and during the time it was dissolving, I already began to feel pain in my abdominal area. In other stories I previously read, women didn't begin to feel pain until an hour or more later, but the moment I had the pills dissolving in my mouth, my cramps had begun. Fast forward to the 30 min. you are supposed to wait to swallow the pills, and I already had begun to bleed. At this point, my pain was probably a 6, and had escalated fairly quickly to an 8. I was crying, and just hoping the pain would go away-which it did after taking the Tylenol Codeine. I highly recommend taking this first before you begin your procedure, so the cramps are not as unbearable when the bleeding starts. After a good 1 hour or so, my pain came back, and I couldn't control it. To be honest, I don't know how to describe the pain, without sounding too drastic or crazy, but the best way I can describe it, was someone having their hand inside my stomach, and pulling everything outside me. Just yanking everything, and feeling every ounce of pain. I cried a lot, and was in the bathroom a good deal of time, for I constantly felt the need to pee, or poop (excuse my poor use of language). The defecating part never happened, but I think that's because it was my blood clots coming out. I can honestly say I was in pain from 1:00 P.M. to 5:00 P.M. with cramp pain at the scale of 10. I thought I would die, for to make matters worse, I threw up three times, and a lot. I had a slight fever, and some chills, but that was not as bad as having the cramps. The bleeding on my part was not too bad either, just like a regular period, so I didn't have any leak from my pads. At around 5:00 P.M. I managed to take a nap, and woke up feeling better. I actually ate something small, and I was in a better mood. Currently, it is 7:51 P.M. and the cramps have calmed down to regular light cramps, which compared to what I went through earlier, is nothing! I am feeling better, and I no longer feel nauseous or have a fever or chills. To control the pain, I unfortunately couldn't use a heating pad, since it made my pain worse. I simply managed to go through the pain, in hope that it would all be over soon. I did take some Ibuprofen, but that caused me to throw up the 3 times-and yes, I did eat something before I took it. Now, as i'm finishing writing my experience, I want to say that it is very important you take the day off work or school, or any other plans you have for the day, for you never know how your experience may be. And of course, always have a support system with you, because this is a moment to rely on someone for help, and embrace it. My boyfriend was me throughout the whole process, and I am VERY thankful he stood by my side throughout all this. But please ladies, don't be afraid. I am doing better, and although I physically went through a lot, I am alive and writing this message. Every woman goes through this for their own personal reasons, and have completely different experiences, but in the end, everything turns out ok. Now, I don't want to use the word great, because honestly, none of this has been easy. The two hardest part about the medical abortion, is the actual process itself of going through the pain emotionally and physically, and the judgmental part, whether it be yourself judging you, or someone else. But you regardless of what people say, you are very much entitled to your decisions, and you take care of yourself. You do what is best for you, and you put yourself first, because you have every right to make your own decisions. I am sad for not having gone through the pregnancy, considering how it was my first time being pregnant, but after having discussed the issue with my partner, we agreed it wasn't the best time right now. Just remember, you will be ok.