I jut wanna say I'm on day 8 of no pot and it's still killer. I have/had no intention to quit. Been a constant smoker some 10yrs now. Btw I'm 30. My wife just got done with nursing school and I'm supporting her in cutting back until she is used to the job. I still enjoy my smoke. No panic or anxiety UNTIL I quit. I find myself to be very irratable and anxious. We quit cold turkey (I know I shouldn't have) I now have to fill my days with brain racking stuff just to stop the craving. Believe you me I will be smoking again when the time is right. But If I don't fill my days with STUFF TO DO. Is still all I think about. I used to have ADHD very bad and marijuana was a godsend. I guess the point I'm making is physical addiction NO.. Find myself mentally bored or just not into the same things now that I'm sober.. Videogames, music... out the window. My interest level is 0. It's very tough and I'm hoping things will return to normal soon. (sober) I'm glad to read that people are going through the same things as me. My wife thought I was ridiculous for having these feeling. I've never had the panics or anxiousness while smoking so I can't undertand that level. It's just not having it when I want it that's hell. In the end I think this is good for me to take this break, as it has shown me a lot. Just be careful going cold turkey. Especially you 10+yr smokers.
Hi i AM SITTING HERE CRYING KNOWING I REALLY NEED TO STOP SMOKING,I HAVE BEEN SMOKING FOR 15YEARS TRIED TO STOP AND HAD SEVERE PANIC ATTACK WHERE I BLACKED OUT AND ENDED UP IN HOSPITAL,EVERY DAY FEELS LIKE I DONT EXIST ITS ONLY WHEN I SMOKE I FEEL ALIVE AND CAN HAVE CONVERSATION.EVERYONE TELLS ME TO SMOKE AS THEY CANT DEAL WITH MY MOODS WHEN I TRY TO GIVE UP, I FEEL USELESS CANT MAKE DECISIONS DONT SLEEP,AND SWEAT.ALSO I THROW UP IF I DONT SMOKE I FEEL MY LIFE IS WASTING AWAY AND HAVE NO SUPPORT I REALLY WANT TO GIVE UP BUT AFRAID MY TEMPER WILL RUIN MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE.
To the Op and the majority of people that have contributed to this thread i say thank you. Its been a very interesting read.
I'm 28 years old and have been smoking for 12 years, 8 years of that have been everyday, all day. Only odd days throughout those years have I not been high and that's because there has been a big shortage.
I'm a Landscape Gardner by trade and I get paid awful money for the amount of work I do. I game and have done since i was 12, i'm not into going out. I'm not intelligent, i'm not into conversation unless its about a game i like i have no conversation to share with anyone, only the same old spiel that I give everyone, just tell them what they want to hear...
3 years ago i started karate to try and improve my confidence. it worked, each belt and each fight i won, i gained more confidence, but it was and is so short lived. it comes then its gone. that club has closed and all my hard work feels in vain.
I went through a fair bit of c**p as I was growing up as we all do, mum beaten,mum trying suicide twice, house bugged, spied on, police called,threatened etc etc...
I first started smoking for my own reasons, even tho before i started smoking I felt, down/suicidal, i really did hate myself. I had no confidence, I hated to see myself in my mirror. Even though I had all of these feelings i didn't start smoking it to make me feel better. I started because i wanted to live my life and try most things once. but i enjoyed it too much. :)
The weed never helped me overcome any of these feelings, it helped me forget and helped me not think how much i hated myself. oh and sleep, when i sleep on weed all of me sleeps. its bliss
I have an extremely addictive personally, i have been hooked on booze and cocaine over the years and overcome it. but weed has this hold..
I've shaped my life around being a stoner, its the thing that has made me a real person. I know that sounds so pathetic, but its true. Ihave no feelings inside anymore. the only thing that makes me feel anything is things like you tube vids of dogs being rescued :s last year i jumped out of a plane 30,000 feet. it didn't mean anything, cant even remember the feeling now, its gone buried beneath this stupid head of mine. nothing seems to make me happy and i cant remember the last time i didn't fake happiness
over the last 2 years I have been questioning this and keep saying to myself that I'm going to give up the weed and give myself and my head a chance to make things better. 2 weeks ago, i stopped going to work. i lied to girlfriend and my mum and dad about what i was doing. I sat in my car down the park and contemplated everything in my life. I continued to smoke during this. I went to see my dad and told him exactly what situation i was in, i had to go home and tell my girlfriend everything, then either move away or just kill myself, suicide always takes priority and i don't know why.
I have an amazing girlfriend who loves me very dearly, but i do not feel it, I cant accept someone could love me if i don't love or even like myself. People tend to come and go in my life, i have no friends through choice and my idea of socializing is going on wow and talking to my guildies, they are all very good people, but have no idea who i am.
I'm now on my 3rd day going cold turkey and i feel 100% worse, my depression is stronger and the want to end it all is over taking everything else. the problem being i'm just not sure that life is worth living, reading all your posts there is such a long struggle ahead and with nothing that feels positive, my girlfriend tells me, im good looking, caring and loving person, but it means nothing. the doctor says, you've got so much to live for. how the f**k does he know, he doesn't live inside my head day in day out. anxiety, stress, depression. nothing that anyone says that is positive means anything to me. i felt happier inside that my dad accepted that i wanted to die and agreed that if that is the only way for me to stop feeling so bad then as a last resort i should take that.
wow reading through this there is still so much ive missed out, and so much more to say but for now its day 3 and im struggling
It's been a week since I have quit, I quit a day before my 32nd birthday, both weed and cigarettes. For anyone who is thinking about it and want to quit smoking it is a great idea. I actually find it to be a great challenge and everyday I feel proud of myself. It's been a long sixteen years and the past ten has been at least five joints a day. My motivation is all around Me I just never seen it before. For my own health, my family, my daughter and the list goes on. I won't go back to it. Even after a few days I noticed a huge difference in my breathing, the coughing has subsided, my mind is clear and I am more driven. Everyone I thinking a joint I do 20 pushups. So at the same time I'm more physically fit. And trust me after awhile you don't think of it. I smoked one every 2 hours unless I was working and now nothing. I couldn't be happier. God luck to all
Well, this is going to Suck!
I've been smoking both cigarettes & pot for 40+ years.
Lost my first marriage over it.
She quit both & I wasn't about to, she outgrew me pretty fast I guess.
Re-married for 10 years.
Pretty much live in my garage now as I can't smoke, either, in the house.
Although I enjoy my space there with all my toys, PC, TV, PS3!
I think I'm starting to feel the long term effects from it.
My chest has been feeling tight for about 3 weeks now.
Hurts more when I smoke.
Although it did seem to come on right after a 10 day cold so I've been blaming it on all the coughing I'd been doing.
Starting to feel like it might be more than that.
I need to quit. Period. Both!
I turned 57, 3 days ago.
Hope it's not too late to fix this.
Only have a few roaches left to suck on, then it'll be over.
I'm not buying anymore I tell ya!
Been great reading all the posts, thanks.
Weed is ruining my life.
I have to stop and came across your page. I thought it was really brave of you to post all this online and open this post for comments. I have smoke for about 7 years now and at first, it was only a few hits on my boyfriend's joint. After we broke up 3 years later, I found myself trapped to this relationship because of weed. I broke up with the guy, but never with Mary J.
I was in law school, but quit. Part of the reason was because my grades were so low. I couldn't study, or do anything else in free time other than smoke weed and surf the net. Changed university, started from scratch, failed a year, still not studying, getting very worried... It doesnt help the fact I have just moved to a new house where all my roommates smoke constantly. One day I was out of weed and stole some from my friend's stash. I hate myself..
And my current partner doesnt smoke, hasnt' ever smoked, and condemns people who do smoke. Sometimes I feel he notices it, but either way, I feel awful. On the social side - I don't go out, I don't interact, I'm always lazy and procrastinating. Work has also been affected and weed has actually made me more anxious and pessimistic.
I feel like I started smoking to escape. And now it's like I'm trapped in this black hole, and I can't get out. There is not one day that passes that I say to myself that this will be my last joint.
However, reading your post (from 2008!! Do you still keep track of this?) made me hopeful. Thank you.
I'm 30 years old and have been smoking for just over 11 years. Many a time have I tried to stop for many a reason. This last year has been the worst though. Both myself and my partner smoke and it is beginning to take a serious toll on our 6 year relationship. We both agree that we encourage each other as it has become such a part of our daily routine. I often go cold turkey and when I do I'm fine, but I freak out if I know he's been smoking and if it's in the house it's incredibly difficult to ignore. I'm scared that I'm going a little bit crazy. I'm pretty weird anyway, not in a put me in a mental home kind of way, just a little eccentric, but I fear my passion for life has stalled. I'm not bothered about my age, but the paranoia of the ageing process on your organs and features has kicked in. I crave exercise, but because of the Winter find it easier to just sit in and smoke. This used to be a pretty cheap and fun activity, but lately it's just expensive and boring and all I'd really like to do is go on holiday. I loved weed because it helped me to stop worrying about childhood traumas like divorce, homelessness, hospitals and father issues, and to enjoy life, but now most of the friends I made and have such great memories of have quit and moved on and I'm left feeling like a social leper, a heroine addict, hungry and poor.
Non of my family know of my habit and I feel tired of hiding it, but I could never admit it to them, as they would only blame it for the life I chose even before I first smoked. It's just hard to remember that when, a) you're high and b) your sober and want to be high. My granddad was an abusive drunk, confused and unhappy with his life and I swore that I would never be, yet here I am smoking 2-4 joints a day (on average) and feeling more sad and bitter every day because of it, which in turn makes me more sad and depressed. It's a vicious circle and one which I must and do want to break.
I'm well educated and have achieved many of my teenage goals, but now have no direction and can't help but think that where as once I would write / draw / listen to music for hours and hours when I was high, I can just about stay awake for a movie and rarely have the fuzzy warm feeling of coziness. I genuinely like my friends who smoke and we do share other interests, but I just wish we could all share these things sober and talk intelligently about things and not have every conversation turn to the subject of pot. It's boring boring boring.... I like smoking, but just wish I could pick and chose. I do have many friends who don't smoke, but often feel paranoid and find it harder to get close to these people for fear of judgement, either that or I just get drunk, which is a bit like playing Russian roulette these days.
I want to feel strong, but know for my situation that weed is only making me mentally week.
I've read lots of these blogs over the past year, but this is the first one I've ever felt like responding to. I admit that I'm a pot head and think that even admitting it to a bunch of faceless strangers is a step in the right direction to quitting. I love my boyfriend very much, but we have different withdrawals and I think mine are a lot more in my mind than his and that he finds it difficult to fully understand my problem. It sounds awful, but I'm bored of even talking about the matter with him as we make promises about stopping and then one of us always caves. Even though we're a strong entity and have been through so much together, something has got to give soon and I'm just so scared it won't all be for the good of us, but I guess all I can do is hope and remember love at the dark times that can be so filled with hate and despair.
It's been really great to read that I am not crazy and that other people have the same symptoms and by responding I feel like I have found a flash of strength to get back on the wagon and hopefully be able to live with just getting high on the beauty of a natural life and find peace within myself.
He's to a truly green and fresh future
Namaste
wow...you guys are freaking me out lol going on bout how hard it is to quit as if its heroin or something...and then you say something like'yeah i had a big problem, i was smoking a whole spiff to myself each day' or 'i was having 3 hits a day from my pipe every other weekend, it was becoming a huge problem' lol seriously? i dont know whether to laugh or cry!!!I smoked heavy...i smoked bout a 1/4 each day, about 10-15 spliffs each and every day all to myself, with bongs and pipes on the go constantly...for 15 years! every day £20-£40 a day all to myself for 15 years! gave it up 6months ago cold turkey, was a bit snappy for a cpl of days and had kinda short patience for a day or 2 but thats it! no cravings, no shakes, no sweats, no nothing really, just stopped and is all good...never smoked one or even thought bout smoking since! imagine if you guys actually got hooked on something that was actually really addictive like crack or smack or meth...you wouldnt have a chance!!! thats scary shiz that weed is effecting you all that bad! seems crazy to me but spose we are all different! i never once felt paranoid in all that time...maybe you guys that are having a hard time with it should have never started, it obviously isnt for you! i just hope to god you never try anything harder!
Thank you to all those sharing your experiences. Today is the second day of my quitting, I have had to do it cold turkey as if i had it in the house with the intention of cutting down.. well it would be gone all at once, I have had what could be described as a loving relationship with bud.. I feel it is all i have had, its on my side, is there for me and relieves the troubles of modern day life.. I would smoke all day, I have rinsed an OZ in a few days before, It just gets ridiculous! I do not have the money to keep going the way i am heading, I am 24 an live at home because i have no money to move out, It all goes on weed.. I need to change this, and last night was my first night without it.
I have always thought that it is in my head .. 'just dont think about it and you dont crave it' However, last night i felt the lowest I ever have, I do struggle with anxiety and depression anyway, My friend helped by saying to me - 'its the seratonin in your brain trying to rebalance, just not fast enough, you wont feel like this forever' I cant say how much this helped, as it felt like there was no hope, also i felt so angry and started punching walls!! something i havent done since being a young teen!
If there were absolutely no side effects to this beautiful drug, I dont think i would ever not have a reef in my mouth.. I never didnt (on the way to work i would have the fattest reef) .. However, Money, Friendship, Me.. these are all the things it has been negatively affecting, while i jus sat there so high thinking about how good it is.. My friends have slipped away.. work is getting harder and more competetive, And most of all I notice i have less and less to say on anything, Not much personality left, My fault, For abusing the stuff EVERY day All day since 14.
This thread has been very helpful, It can feel like you are on your own with it, I feel a big part of withdrawal for myself is seeing things for how they are, which can be scary, depending on how you are in life/circumstances etc.. anyway, Thank you for your help everyone, And good luck!!!
I have been smoking weed since i was 12 and one of my older sisters friends thought it would be funny to "get the little kid high". It was funny. I watched the funniest episode of the simpsons ever right after.... From there i was super cool with my friends and their friends since i had great hookups with my sisters friends. I always had it, it was good sh*t, and selling it made it virtually free to me. Then i got into the whole culture of High Times, Cheech and Chong, hippies and good music. I started experimenting with other drugs but weed was always my home base, the thing that brought me back down to earth. There were no problems at this time, i learned so much about the world, about people and everything. I feel it set me on my own path, rather then some predetermined one.
Now fast forward through those years, and all of my twenties. Fast forward through the many jobs that were lost due to weed habits( laziness ) or jobs that never happened from failed drug tests. Fast forward through ruined relationships. Fast forward through all the confusing c**p a confused twenty something goes through in this world while being a complete canabis consuming monster.
Im 29 now and just want to stop. Im scared i cant. Ive tried and failed many many times. Its become a stigma in my brain through out the years. I feel if i do i will completely breakdown all aspects of my life. I know its not true but i battle the man inside me who convinces me how horrible it will be to stop smoking. I congratulate all those on this forum who have progress, thats more then i can say. i just dont know how to start correctly so im not setting myself up for a hard face plant.
Hi i just want to say LUCKY you,i have been smoking 15years and for me i am struggling it is the hardest thing ever, i have used a number of different drugs over the years especially in my teens and i feel weed is my biggest challenge,coming off heroin was easier than this i have been clean for 12years .
are you seriously saying that coming of long term weed use is harder than long term heroin addiction??? i dont know what to say to that...im stunned! truly stunned!
are you giving up smoking all together or just giving up the weed? (still smoke tobacco) sure tobacco can be rough and i can see how that could be compared to other psysically addictive drugs but to compare weed to heroin??? really? if you are giving up smoking all together and not smoking tobacco any more i think you will find that most of the withdrawal symptoms you are feeling are associated with your physical addiction to tobacco than weed, but everyone is different, maybe the more psychological addiction to weed is harder for you to overcome than the more physical addiction to heroin you once had, like i said everyone is different